Happy New Year 2009!

Wishing everyone Happy New Year 2009!
May all your wishes come true in this year (and my wishes too)!
May all single become occupied (not applicable to me ady)!
May all occupied become married (except me XD)!
May all student score flying colours (good for me)!
May all worker become CEO (this is really some wishes)!
May all politicians go to hell (I like this one)!
May all money go into my pocket (this is the best one)!

Year Ending…

Here comes my “annual report”… hehe… throughout the year 2008, what had happened? Many things… good and bad… study? Getting worse semester after semester. Life? Getting sucks day after day… in some aspect… getting better day after day in other aspect… well, what I hope and target for 2008… had I achieved it? Thinking… what was my target actually? Haha… need to recall back the previous post only know… anyway, this should be overall an ok year for me I guess… didn’t fail my subject although fail many mid-term… manage to get sweet sweet with my dear… able to ride my bike and get a license for it… managing the club although facing a lot of problems… relation wise, this year is kinda ok although “dislike” list is continue growing… able to visit my grandma now over here at Singapore also something nice… lonely Xmas =.=… didn’t really have any great sickness… oh, I broke my ankle, did I? Yeah… I think so… :-P oh ya, manage to meet a lot of old friends back at KL is nice too… then able to know some new friends which is quite nice also in this year… so, what else do I ask for? Well, nothing much… kinda satisfied with it already… don’t aspect too much then your life will be cheerer I guess. Hehe… anyway, wishing everyone Happy New Year and God bless everyone!

私の物語 Ver 2.0

Somehow finish renovating... will do something about the header when I'm free to explore it... meanwhile just let things stay as it is... added new labels... some old post have been rearrange with new labels and organized better. I don't know why but my hand itchy and go and changed the blog templates and layout... kinda like the 3 column layout... but having a whole bunch of problems in setting them... well, finally this is the outcome... not really nice though... but what to do? sigh... post any comment about it for me... I'll keep on improve as I can to renovate it... meanwhile I'll just keep things like that until I find a solution for it... kinda regret for changing... but kinda like the 3 column layout... sigh...

Age

Age... everyone know what is it about... but... the question here today is... do you mind about it?

Normally, girls are quite sensitive about this issue... age is always a secret... well, there are such guys too... and then... I wonder is everyone prefer to look the same as your age? Or prefer to look younger than your age? Or prefer to look older/mature than your age?

Well, I think 99.9% will choose to look YOUNGER... why? To attract more attention from either same or opposite sex... maybe... to gain advantage in some extend... maybe... what else? Sorry that I'm not so sure about it cause I never really care am I look young or old... hehe... as long as my appearance is ok overall... then that's it...

Wonder why such issue is being bring up here? Because that day the tuition ask my cousin at Singapore how old am I when she saw me... then my cousin who is Form 2... tel her I'm way older than him... then the teacher say she don't believe and ask for the real age... then he told her 20 something... then she don't believe and turn to ask me... then i tell her... 22... her face was so surprise...

Hehe... am I really look that young? Haha... happy about it? Well, not really... not the 1st time things like this happened to me... last time is the barber ask am I studying Form 5... this time the teacher guess I'm 15 or 16... even younger than that... XD well, since I don't really mind about such thing so no big impact on me.

Age... how mysterious is it...

Singapore... here i come

reach singapore safely... when will i start shopping? hehe... i wonder... but mean while will settle all the leftover and undone things 1st... and it's been awhile i post something "nice" here... recently is just like my diary... hehe... sorry ya... i'll post some quality blog... don't worry... take care to all my frens back at malaysia... good luck in study and work! thanks for the great holiday back there!

Last Day at KL

Last day at KL... tonight wil stay over at my big sis house and tml morning v wil depart to singapore... go there for 1 week holiday... visit my grandma... relatives... shopping? maybe... see how 1st... a bit lazy actually... haha... just really want to rest myself for awhile... whole holiday didn't really rest enough... busy with motor license... busy wif Industrial Training stuff... busy with all sort of things... frens also not around... but luckily still able to meet most of them at least once...

anyway... this 3 weeks holiday enjoy making some Gundam... gettig poorer and poorer, so my collection rate will slowly decrease and decrease... T.T enjoy some nice gathering and yam cha with primary and secondary school fren... sweet dating with my dear at KL... although it only last 1 day... :-( then kinda sorry that i'm stil writing my story... hehe... then didn't really watch many movie and anime of my collection, but my collection is increasing... sob sob... donno is good or bad news... tidy up my room... clean away a whole bunch of rubbish... so i can buy new rubbish in... haha...

Well, i think that's all for my holiday... seems like very boring... kinda enjoying it... kinda... but not totally... sigh... whatever it is, don't sms me from saturday onwards my friend... if not it will become a roaming sms... hehe... will back Sabah on 3 Jan nite... almost the end of the yr ady... will post my "anual report" soon... hehe... wil tidy up my blog also... but wont change the template i guess... too lazy ady... til then... hav a nice yr end celebration everyone!

"............"

date: Christmas
location: continue at home
mood: continue sad
reason: alone during this Christmas
action: continue stay home tidy room & make some Gundam...
outcome: continue to continue sad T.T
moral value: don't b alone during Christmas...

"......"

date: Christmas eve
location: at home
mood: sad
reason: alone during this Christmas eve
action: stay home tidy room & make some Gundam...
outcome: continue sad T.T
moral value: don't b alone during Christmas eve...

walk walk...

My holiday at KL almost over... able to spend some time walking around KL... yes, walking... besides went to all those shopping complexes such as 1U, KLCC, Time Square, Sg Wang, Low Yat, The Curve... also walk my way through the streets and the backyard (haha...) of KL... not red light area ok? so don't worry... really enjoy to walk like tat... seeing things around... feel in up close... it is a nice feeling... christmas is coming... so besides the usual feel, there'll be extra xmas feel at everywhere... it's nice... anyway, i'm too busy "walking" & "shopping" so i didn't took much photos... kinda regret... but here are a few pics i took for this festive season...

Xmas at The Curve

Xmas at Time Square

internship... settled

Finally get an internship with the help of my sister's friend... here is the company website... anyone interested may try your luck here...

O.Y.L. Manufacturing Comapny

now just need to find a way to settle my transport problem... sigh...

Gathering

Last nite had a small gathering wif most of my primary school frens... it's really nice to hav gathering like this... some of them i really havent seen them for years... glad tat we met again after such a long time... and our relation and bond is stil remain the same as before... this is something tat really good... touched... a small BBQ gathering where v all spend most of the time chit chating rather than eating... so in the end a lot of food is left... hehe... anyway, enjoy all those talking... seeing them and getting to know their recent condition... is really nice... there are stil some frens tat i havent meet up wif them yet... hope tat i'll hav the chance to do so... thank you to our big boss Mr Kok Fung for hosting this gathering and doing all the cleaning... it's nice to hav frens like u all... true fren tat can last for so long...

:-(

:-(

Help!

Industrial training stuff is driving me nuts... need to think of transport problem... need to think of this and that... sigh... hard to find any close to my house... even if i found one they might not accept you... even if they accept you, it might not be the company you really want... sigh... anyway, just receive a call from a company at Sungai Buloh... wondering should accept or not... but I'll double confirm with them regarding my Industrial Training period and status first... after everything is really confirmed... then I really should start to settle it already... accept or not... sigh... main problem is still regarding transport... sigh...

what can i do?

recently after my motor test i just stay at home only... kinda feeling tired at first... so rest for awhile first... then suddenly i realize even if i wan to go out also... nothing much can i do actually... most fren are still busy wif their studies or thesis... my dear back Sabah ady T.T then left me alone so free here... din search for job last time cos due to motor test uncertainty... now... i just stay home... make my Gundam sometime... write my story sometime... watch some movie sometime... sleep sometime... no car so nowhere i can go... unless i take bus then different story... but u know... ppl tend to become lazy after awhile... hehe... so i just stay home n bcom an Otaku... anyway... will sure go out this weekend... alone or with frens also nvm... just wondering what else can i do here...

halfway through my holiday at KL

after busy with my motor license... finally i have some free time to really enjoy my holiday... my Singapore trip postponed to around 27 of Dec... after Christmas... sigh... what to do? anyway... my dear flying back to Sabah today for her thesis... safe trip and good luck to her on her work... muacks~ recently busy with my Gundam... then watch a bit of movie... and is time to continue writing my story already... hehe... hang half way... well actually not yet even half way... too busy recently... anyway, will try my best to get things done by this holiday... if not won't have the time anymore... still stick with my Industrial Training stuff... waiting reply but don't seems like having any... donno where to find also... sigh... just hope everything can be settle soon...

dear...

Dear... love u more n more day after day...
Muacks... maybe is been cursed by u ady...
Hehe... but nvm... u r my 1 n only dear...
Must also love me more day after day hor...
Miss u... i'll be good boy so u be good girl oso hor...
Hope to see u soon back at Sabah lo...
Muacks~ Muacks~ Muacks~

at last...

yeah...
good bye to those smoky place...
good bye to the heat n pressure...
good bye to driving center...
welcome...
my long waited motor license...

wait die lo...

today went for practice... morning once, noon once... morning start off nicely... although drop 2 times like tat, but overall everything seems to be fine... but then suddenly... disaster strikes... i drop from bridge, i drop heavily... actually i oso donno wat had gone wrong... im on the bridge, too close to the right, so i steer towards left, but feel like the bike is not moving the way i want... then try to speed a little n see things change or not... and then suddenly my rear tyre give up... it drop to the left side of the bridge... feels like not logic at all since i'm actually on the right... if drop, i should drop towards the right n not the left side of the bridge... anyway... it drop from the rear 1st... losing control... probably bcos i'm giving some speed at that moment too... quickly i stop the speeding n brake... so the rear tyre on the left side is totally out of control, letting me no choice but to fall in a nicer position which cause minimum damage to both me n the bike... well, in the end i screwed my morning wif a scrath on the leg and the bike... sigh...

noon is raining... wait for so long and finally it stop. dash out and get as many lap as possible before tml test... bcos using diff motor everytime, i also dono whether i'm actually good or not... sometime i just hav no pbm at all in controling n balancing the motor, but sometime having hard time in control... some hard to balance... haih... just pray tml wil b fine...

sigh...

today went for the morning practice... wonder what's wrong... fail to balance once at the 8 turn... U turn fail to balance few times... brake too much i guess... bridge also... today drop back to 50% ady... sigh... 1 day din practice end up like this... wonder is it really bcos my pbm or the motor pbm... although i do complain a lot about the road condition also... but watever it is... wat to do? others so expert flying here n there, left me alone struggling... sigh... noon raining so can't practice... one more day to go... wat can i do beside praying...

muacks

Meet wif my dear today... she is here at KL...
So happy to see her... miss her so much...
Love my dear... Muacks...

Tired again

Tired... just back from my third practice of motor... today everything went better than I expected... i chose a good motor i guess... Honda Wave... it's a bit unstable and i need to do a lot of steering... but the balancing is good... at least better than yesterday... totally cant steer at all... today 1 hour practice... nothing much happened... the bridge... manage 1 time for 7 second only i guess... the rest... 5 second most... drop a few times... success rate slightly increase to 70% due to the number of trial is less than yesterday... the 8 turn no pbm at all today... the U turn only giv me pbm once... the rest somehow manage to pass through although very ugly... on the road also getting better... wonder is i'm improving or i really picked a good motor... mayb i should try use another motor the next time... to c is it my skill better or motor better...

tired... just pray can pass no matter how...

disaster

tired... just back from practice motor... test next monday... don really think i can make it... sigh... morning session is total mess... the bridge... whole morning get through twice only... the 8 turn... at first also face problem, but then ok ady... then the 90 degree U turn... die so many times there... on the road also like shit... makes me totally don feel like practicing ady... it's been awhile i din take motor... but don think will cheap til like this... sigh... T.T the motor too powerful, i hav to break all the way to control my speed...

noon i go practice again... this time slightly better... should b far better than morning... this time the motor is totally no power... good... this is what i wan... but the brake paddle a bit weird in design... hard to step on it... anyway, manage to pass the bridge 50% of my time, then 8 turn no pbm ady, the 90 degree U turn stil a bit problem... on the road also sometime when raise hand wil lose some balance, so my hand must do the sign extremely fast before i start to lose control... sigh... tired... just wan to rest for now...

Happy...

Happy... cos can read my Gundam mag that I ordered finally...
Happy... cos can make Gundam model finally...
Happy... cos can online at home finally...
Happy... cos can meet with friends finally...
Happy... cos my Dear reply to my msg finally...
Happy... cos can shopping as I like finally...

back home...

It's been awhile since last time I'm home... whole semester... half a year maybe? Anyway, just realize everything is like so not use to it... by the time when I reach airport... everything I do gives me a feel that "it's really have been awhile that I didn't do such thing..." forgetting some minor things and steps at the airport, but luckily able to remember them all and everything went well... back to KL already, everything seems so familiar and yet so not use to it... back to my room... luckily I still remember which switch is for light, which is for fan... hehe... miss my Gundam collection... of course taking a good look at them... see they are doing well or not... then check out my sister newly bought wireless broadband connection... trying it... give a full report few days later... hehe... need to start settle all my stuff already... happy holiday everyone!

Going Home lo...

Settle my JLPT finally! Now just hope can pass...
Going back home today...
6.30pm flight... reach home maybe around 11pm...
Still going to be busy after back home...
In short...
hope can meet my dear...
hope can get my motor license...
last but not least...

SHOPPING MALL HERE I COME!
GUNDAM HERE I COME!

Hobbycon 2008

Hobbycon 2008 is here at Sabah Kompleks Asia City... 1st time been to event like this, it seems like the 2nd time of this event being held... not so sure... can check out their blog through the link in my webpage.

Went to this event with my friend this morning... a small scale event it is... not really a lot of things to see or buy but overall it still ok for me... so what is it all about?

board games...

figures...

cosplay...

There are gundam selling... without made model... it would be better if they display some made model and also prepare more stock of the model selling... there are card games... pc games... PS3 games... etc... comic drawing on the spot... some self made comic and handcrafts... but there isn't any real manga over there... maybe they should set a corner selling manga or maybe letting people to read some of it... cosplay event will be the major show on Sunday, but i can't join it due to JLPT... cosplay over there is quite ok... a bunch of Prince of Tennis fans there... notice the picture on top? The girl on the right actually is a "Prince of Badminton" cos she is holding badminton racquet... hehe... got 1 meatty version Zaraki Kenpachi... didn't take his photo... miss out the photo of "The Paper"... like her costume most... got some Tekken fans also... and last but not least the Haruhi Suzumiya dance...


Nice event overall, hope that it will be a bigger event next year... and maybe I can be part of them if possible? hehe... not a baf idea... most cosplay are presented by Kota Kinabalu Cosplay Club... wonder is there such thing back at KL... good job! And finally... a pretty girls picture... sorry cos it's a bit blur...

Countdown started...

Miss my dear...

Busy studying Japanese... hope can pass the paper...

2 more days to go before the exam... and before I reach home... KL, here I come... shopping complex here I come... Gundam here I come!!!

Suddenly saw this picture... feels like missing this anime so much... a very nice anime indeed... like this picture very much! Recently didn't really watch any anime or movie also... wonder where are all my precious time gone to...

D.Gray Man

Schedule

Thursday morning: Study & miss my dear
Thursday evening: Study & miss my dear
Thursday night: Relax & miss my dear

Friday morning: Study & miss my dear
Friday evening: Relax & miss my dear
Friday night: Study a bit, Relax & miss my dear

Saturday morning: Relax & miss my dear
Saturday evening: Study & miss my dear
Saturday night: Study & miss my dear

Sunday morning: Exam & miss my dear
Sunday evening: Go home & miss my dear
Sunday night: Reach home & miss my dear

Japan Emperor's Birthday Dinner

Went for a dinner last night... Japan Emperor's birthday dinner... held at Sutera Harbour Resort... a very nice, big and high class resort and hotel at Sabah. Of course most of the invited guests are Japanese, and I'm proud to be invited along as well together with my fellow AJK of Japanese Clutural Club to attend the dinner. Nice decoration... nice food... nice wine! haha... buffet includes rice, beef satay, chicken meat, all sorts of bread, all sorts of sushi, all sorts of cake, fruits, and of course alcohol, juice and carbonated drinks. Drank a glass of red wine... taste good! Ate some sushi... not very nice; ate the rice... not bad; ate the cakes... most of them taste great, some are too sweet; the fruits taste great too! The chicken meat is so so only...

Anyway, a free dinner, so who cares! Hehe... enjoy the dinner very much. My handphone caught some pictures only... check it out under the photo column...

Dec 2008

Recently... holiday has been arrived... but still everyone seems so busy... busy to keep in touch... busy to update their blog... busy to post comment in my blog... :-( or maybe is just lazy and not busy? I wonder... sigh...

Going home soon... it's going to be a busy holiday... but hope I'll be able to enjoy it as much as possible... next holiday will be on CNY... then no more holiday for me as Industrial Training is starting soon... still wondering work at KL or Sabah... people might think I'm stupid to even think of work at Sabah... well, in my opinion is just their mind is too out-of-date to accept it... nothing wrong to LI at Sabah... it is not necessary a must to go back your hometown to work... it brings no difference to me anyway...

Last week for preparation of JLPT... gambate lo...

私の詩

The story I’m writing… still in progress… but the progress is very slow… so if there’s nayone out there who waits for it, please wait with full patient… meanwhile, I wrote something else, read it if you are free to do so… 私の詩… under the “My Stories” column on the right… something like a poem… give any comment on it as you like. Hope that my new story can be done as soon as possible…

KFC vc McD

Just a stupid clip here... enjoy it!

海角七号

Nice movie and nice OST... nice songs here... what else should I say about it? Well, I think Van has find his way and style to express his music and feeling... a positive change for him... like the songs by him in this movie...

无乐不作 - 范逸臣

A君与B小姐

话说A君追求B小姐，但是最后被B小姐给拒绝了。B小姐后来和C先生拍拖，然后A君也在尝试发展别的感情。B小姐会问A君是不是交了女朋友啦，那么花心，还好当初没和A君在一起啦什么的。由于A君还只是在寻找阶段，于是向B小姐澄清没有在交往。但是B小姐却不停的说A君没必要隐瞒她，拍拖就承认啦什么的。当A君真的拍拖后，不知道B小姐又会给些什么反应呢？也许B小姐会认为A君不是真心爱她的？

B小姐是因为爱着A君才会说出这样的话吗？还是心又不甘？个人认为B小姐在某种程度上正在伤害着A君。拒绝了他，已经是第一伤害，然后说些任性的话是第二伤害。难道A君被拒绝后就必须天天想念着B小姐，不再爱上任何人？难道A君拍拖了就代表他之前对B小姐的爱是虚假和短暂的？难道B小姐要看着A君抱着对她的思念孤独终老才会开心？如果是爱他的，当初为何不选择他？为何放弃他后仍然还要说出那样的话？难道是女人的占有欲在作祟？难道就不能让大家都得到解放吗？

若你真的喜欢对方，就把握机会和他/她在一起。若选择了不要在一起，麻烦你不要在说些任性的话，因为是你选择了放弃，你已经没有权利在说些什么了，更不应该去怀疑当初他/她对你的爱。他/她对你的爱当初肯定是真挚与永恒的，只是在被你推入绝望深渊后，他/她才艰难与勇敢的选择了放弃与忘记。所以…大家何不宽容一些，好让大家的身心都得到解放，让大家都追寻得到彼此所需要的幸福…

方炯镔 - 好人？！

曾以团体“年少”勇闯台湾歌坛的方炯镔，睽违8年再度出发，在戴佩妮引荐下加入“喜欢音乐”，成为Penny、Linda的师弟...多么熟悉的名字，看见时下了一跳，但是还是下了来听。以前他们的歌还不错的。现在剩下方炯镔，不知道又如何呢？听完专辑后，觉得真的很不错。慢歌为主，但是却唱出了他独特的味道。值得听一听的专辑！

I'll miss u my dear T.T

Yesterday is my dear's last day at KK... early morning went out together to pak toh for 1 last time... went for a movie... lunch... ate an ice-cream... (although the ice-cream in the end was... hehe... not my fault my dear...) when reach back her hostel only I found out she not yet finish pack up her stuff =.=" then after settle her stuff need to fetch another fren to go airport also... same flight... then the guy also... not yet settle his luggage I guess... traffic jam outside somemore... have to rush at full speed to airport... going to be late... the car got so many blind spot... can't see clearly... but still have to drive as fast as possible... so worry... but the 2 ppl are stil having their own fun... sigh... luckily... finally made it on time... my dear somemore dare to cheat me cant make it... T.T bad girl... she cry before entering the gate... she is just like that... but I wonder am I included in part of her reason of tears? She gave me a hug... the deepest hug she ever gave to me... still calling me while waiting for boarding...

Recieved her mail and sms... know she is safe on her journey back... I'll be a good boy here... keeping my promise to you... so hope my dear will be a good girl there too... take care yourself when I'm not around... miss you... muacks~

200th Post!

This is the 200th post in my blog... slowly this kind of numbers will never bring any meaning to me anymore... hehe... anyway, since this is a special day, so I'll post a long long post here today... read slowly... take your own sweet time...

金牛星座的男人

妳的他是金牛座的嗎？恭喜妳啊！你真是太幸運了，沒任何星座的男人比金牛座的男人更適合做老公了（就實際的觀點來說）。金牛座的男人做事向來不急躁，談戀愛當然也不會囉！他不會見妳一面，就莽莽撞撞的投進愛情的陷阱。當他看中一個女孩之後，他會觀察很久再決定到底要不要追求。如果你因此而以為金牛座的人太實際，太不羅曼蒂克了，那你可就錯囉！當他一旦打定主意，他將採取一切溫柔又甜蜜的方式，高級的餐館、精緻的禮物、送你上下班，這些一樣都不會少。

金牛座的浪漫既不空洞，也不會太過激情，他不是那種滿嘴甜言蜜語，實際上什麼都不曾為你做的男人。也不是那種整天黏著你，一分鐘也不肯離開你的男人。金牛座男人的浪漫方式會讓女生很有安全感，那是一種介於情人與父親之間的感覺，像是一副可以依靠的肩膀，讓人覺得溫暖而舒適。怎麼樣？很令人響往吧？那麼你得先通過他的審核才行。你要記得，金牛座的男人絕不會喜歡一個高談闊論，行為開放的女子，他要的是一個端莊的淑女，一個賢妻良母的女人。他可不想浪費時間玩刺激的戀愛遊戲。所以囉！如果你是個新女性主義的女孩，你就可能不太適合他了。你是不是願意為了愛情而收斂一點呢？跟他在一起的時侯，尤其在他的朋友面前，不要不停的發表意見，非必要的時侯，最好少開口，保持微笑，端莊的坐在他的身旁。他會不時的回頭看看你，而且，以後他會很喜歡帶你一起出席社交場合。

當他向妳求婚的時侯，他一定已經對你們的未來做好了完整的計劃。至於怎麼買房子，如何存錢，以及他目前的財務狀況，他都會讓你有所了解，你不會滿心的惶恐不安，通常金牛座的男人會讓你很有安全感的走進結婚禮堂。從結婚的第一天開始，請不要再作風花雪月的愛情夢，金牛座的婚姻生活是穩定而實際的，請你要把時間花在為他準備一個溫暖舒適的家，而不是作夢和鬧情緒上面。你放心，他不會要你作一個整天忙碌，累得像個黃臉婆一樣的妻子，他會盡力給你最好的生活條件，只是，拜託你，當他忙了一天之後，給他一個溫暖的窩，不要在他面前嘰喳喳聒噪不休。多數時侯金牛座的男人不會把太多工作上的情緒帶回家，你在跟他談戀愛的時侯就該發現這一點了，當他在外面受到挫折，或是工作進行不順利，心情不好的時侯，通常他會扳著一張臉，一句話也不說。你最好幫他沖杯熱茶，把沙發墊子放好，讓他安安靜靜的休息一下。

金牛座男人的個性是實際而勤勉的，他不會被情緒左右得太久。至於你的情緒，你最好也能學著自己處理。婚後的他可能會把心思都放在工作上，而無法細心的體會你的心情。不要小孩子氣的認為他不愛你了，想一想，他一切的努力不全是了你們美好的將來嗎？女人總不能一輩子追求浪漫的愛情嘛！對於金牛座的男人來說，「戀愛」和「婚姻」是兩種截不同的階段。偶爾在他工作之餘，心情好的時侯。你可以撒嬌，如果真的無理取鬧那就不妙囉！還有一點是很重要的，那就是——隨時記得，他是一家之主；在所有場合，請給他絕對的尊重，不要跟他唱反調。你該知道，「牛脾氣」是什麼意思吧！一開始我就告訴過你，金牛座的男人很少會喜歡一個高談闊論的女人。尤其難以忍受一個喜歡發表謬論的妻子。當你在公眾場合吱喳不停的時侯，回頭看一下你的牛座老公，他的臉色鐵定已經很難看了。所以你可得記住，跟你的金牛座老公參加社交場合時，言行舉止要注意，否則他會讓你當場就下不了台的。

回娘家？這個方法恐怕對他不是很管用，我勸你最好不要輕易嘗試除非你真的不想回來了。相信我，就算你真的回娘家，等自己火氣一過，想想他的種種好處，說不定你拎個皮箱自己回來了，何必呢？金牛座的男人是很「家居」型的，他非常追求家庭的和諧，對於家人他有很強的佔有慾，除非在他覺得自己的家庭幸福受威脅，或是他一家之主的尊嚴受挑戰的時侯，他會不發脾氣之外，一般正常的情況下他都是溫柔而仁慈的，更重要的是—他忠實可靠。做一個成熟實際的女人，你會覺得有個金牛座的老公真的太棒了！

當你的金牛座男人跟你通過了精神戀愛階段時，他會認為身體上的密切配合也是很重要的，他很少只要求柏拉圖式的戀愛。他的「性」觀念不會很隨便，因為他很重視心靈和肉體融合的感覺。他對愛情的佔有慾很高，因此他會很在意你的反應，如果你在做愛時心不在焉，他很可能會勃然大恕。大體上說來，金牛座的男人在性方面的表現是體貼的；他喜歡把「性」變成一件愉快的藝術，而不是只是生理上的發洩。如果你們在這方面不能配合得很好，很可能會影響你們之間的愛情。給他溫柔熱情的回應，他會表現的很好。

當你的金牛座男人做了爸爸以後，他會是一個溫暖又有耐心的父親，他對小孩慷慨極了，而且他會盡一切努力安排孩子的未來，大概小孩兩三歲的時侯，他就開始為孩子進入明星小學舖路了。金牛座很重視物質的，你要小心他在這一方面會把孩子寵壞。當然你還要教會小孩尊重他是一家之主，這樣父子關係才會永遠和諧。當他發脾氣的時侯，千萬記得要告訴孩子，不能頂嘴。

Celebrations ended

Like didn't sleep these 2 days... busy with all sort of celebration for my dear's bday... & also yaw yaw's bday... tired? just a little... can be with my dear sure won't tired at all... hehe... dinner on birthday eve... then go for a walk at seaside, then a walk at housing area near my house... then a surprise from frens... follow by my dear going on air... yes, On-Air... at Sabah V FM... participated in the DJ searching contest... listen to her voice through radio... special feeling... then walk around town area buying some souvenir for her to bring back home... then after lunch send her back to fren's house for a nap before the final celebration... sing K together with another bday boy... Yaw yaw... celebrated with her coursemate also... giving her surprise... she cried out somemore... hehe... so cute... really Sa Po... she going back soon... left me here... preparing for JLPT... sigh... one month only... things will be fine... hope so...

Muacks~ love u dear...

MAJOR UPDATE!

The "MAJOR UPDATE" I talk about last time... it's being update now... wonder what is the update? Search yourself throughout my blog for the things that have become different... hehe...

Happy Birthday to my dear... I'm happy too because you & me are both born on 23th... hope you like the present I gave to you... sorry for being a stupid SBG... from today onwards I'll try to be a better SBG... hehe... you just need to keep on become your cute little SAPO can ady... Muacks~

Love you always... and Happy Birthday to Loh-Yaw Keong also... (pronounce in Cantonese...)

Hope everyone enjoy the birthday party!

P/S: SBG = Si Ba Gong (Chinese...)

What I do recently

Approaching 200 blog post soon...
Preparing myself for JLPT...
Watching my dramas, movies and anime...
Cook my lunch and dinner...
Sleep from 10pm to 7am...
Blogging everyday...
Download latest anime...
Searching info related to Gundam...
Planning on what model to buy...
Planning my activities for holiday at KL...
MSN-ing...
Busy with personal stuff...
Busy with club stuff...

sick of it...

Getting sick of someone... someone that is so AUNTY... only think for herself and never think for others... just blast off like that without even getting know the situation and what is going on... as if everyone is wrong and she is the only correct person...

Getting sick of someone... someone that is so UNCLE... only think for himself and never think for others... just want the whole world to spin according to his way and reject everything oppose him... as if everyone is wrong and he is the only correct person...

Getting sick of human being...

无奈

紧握着的双手
是那么的温暖
果然
我还是喜欢这样的感觉
这种从内心有说不出的安稳的感觉
有一种
无论任何风浪都冲不散
无论任何豪雨都分不开
一种打从心底蔓延开来的
那份安逸的感觉
我，是只需要这种感觉的人
但是，她是吗？
想着，心变得忐忑了
也许对伤痕累累的我来说
言语更为被需要了？
也许吧…
贪婪的希望两者都能拥有
但是，世事会能够如愿吗？
看来
也只能默默的祈祷着
也只能静静的期待着…

My Ambition

Well, not now actually... but this is some of the ambition I think of before this... silly though...

Painter/artist
Actor/movie maker/anime maker
music composer/song writer
teacher/lecturer
sportsman
designer/interior/graphic/fashion/advertisement/etc

Haha... never wanted to be police like most boys did. Come to think of it, wonder why I have such thinking that time around... and sadly seems like none of the will be achieve... T.T

Wonder what is in others' mind about this... hehe... maybe everyone also have a moment in life which dream of becoming a superstar... curious... hehe... leave your comment and tell me about your ambition then...

Gone motor gone

Well, finally whole sem ended... and yesterday I'd return my motor back to the shop... waiting next sem only continue to rent it. Gonna miss some days without motor... hehe... anyway, I should thanks a lot to my dear motor... thank you for all the hard work for me during this whole sem. Without it I would have run into all sort of troubles... waiting bus... settling club stuff... and without it i can't be a delivery boy for my dear... hehe...

Anyway, still can recall the day when I go and take my motor... with Ah Leong, Ah Teoh and Ah Sun... the motor was fine... but with a broken bearing in the front wheel... which I change it only during the mid sem break... hehe... can't start twice due to water filling up the carburetor... overall it didn't give me any other major trouble... no puncture, no other problems... although it's getting less powerful as the beginning, the motor is kind of not balance in weight by itself... then helmet stolen once... overall I'm glad that a noob that donno how to ride a bicycle like me also manage to survive with a motor for whole sem... thanks a lot to my housemate too for always helping me out...

Now, just hope that I can get my license soon... and hope that I'll be able to fetch people next time... fetch my dear of course... but it will be a long long way... hehe...

08/09 Sem 1 Part 3

Talk about my life this time… busy… as usual. My life is rather boring here… but luckily went for some trip during this sem… went to Kudat and Tips of Borneo… it is a nice trip…then went to sing K for many times here… finally found sing K gang here… haha… maybe is a bad news rather than good news? Overall boring life… but luckily I rented a motor here so my life become less boring… the 1 Borneo Hypermall is just beside my uni… nothing much inside there that attracts me also… but when it just open that time me and my coursemates went to try out the food in most of the store… so so only… nothing really special… that’s why till now also I didn’t post any photo of it here… hehe… so, in short, my life is sleep , eat 1%, study (only in study week) 9%, sing K 5%, trip 1%, club stuff 30%, assignments 30%, projects 5%, homeworks 15%, some sports 4%… that’s all… feel like wasted a lot of money… the other day I went to ATM and my account got no money for me to withdraw out, haha… reach the minimum saving limit already… luckily my mom bank in some money few days later… good timing… I didn’t call home and ask for money ok!

Love & be love

This question has always been a controversy
Just like the question: egg come first or chicken come first

Will you choose to be with someone you like?
Or someone who like you?

A hard one? Maybe… even if you ask me, I also donno how to answer it… wonder how you guys think about it?

08/09 Sem 1 Part 2

I’ll talk about my motor next time… today just briefly talks about my club stuff… busy whole sem for al sort of actuvuties… from Family Day, Yukata Event until the Film Festival… luckily got some good junior AJK helping me out, making all the event to become a success… want to say sorry to everyone if I’d done anything wrong or if there’s anything that I’d not done enough… I really appreciate the help you all offer… I do hope you all enjoy during the activities too… there’s no meaning if we just organize an activity like we are forced to do so… it should be we are happy to about it and we want to share the same happiness with other people… that’s why we organize all sorts of activities… anyway, really enjoy the Family Day (although I didn’t join the group game…), having fun with the Yukata Event, and also glad that the Film Festival was made successful in a rush of time… thank you to everyone for what you have sacrificed for the club.

Next sem there will be a Japan Week organizing… hope that everyone can once again give me a hand to make this successful. This would probably be my last event before my retirement from the club… really pray for its success… let it be a dream for everyone in the club… thank you again to all my fellow AJKs…

08/09 Sem 1 Part 1

As usual, I’ll write something about this semester… a short summary… a review to what I’d done… what happened to me… after the review, is time to change… change to a better me… and a test for my memory also maybe? Getting older and memory level is decreasing… hehe…

This sem is really a total mess… the subject itself, mostly are not really related to mechanical field… study for no reason and meaning… measurement, power electric, account... then those related one, statistic, design and manufacturing… lecturers are torturing… power still ok although lecturer always cancel class… (Like that actually) then the account also ok although a bit boring… the measurement one is a big fat ass that talks big but brain empty… give a lot of work and comment only… design is our dear Rao Rao… a very good lecturer actually… but just no one understand what he is talking with his Indian slang… statistic lecturer don’t really know how to teach actually… but since he is quite new so give him a “pass”… manufacturing is the GREATEST part… first the lecturer looks like Osama… then he never teach at all… then complain by student and he so angry & scold back student… say he work donno how many job within the past few years… very EXPERIENCE in many field… if he really good at in then won’t change so many job already… really WTF…

Since Miss Sai Lei complain my blog post very long, so I’ll break it to a few part… kindly wait for other summary within this few days… hehe…

Freedom...

Early morning... studying for the last subject here... finally everything comes to an end... but nothing to be happy about... my motor can't start... again... sigh... I think is the same problem like last time, so might need to send it to repair after the exam and can't enjoy straight after the exam... what to do... fate... still I'll try my best to enjoy myself today... just need to adjust my plan accordingly... shouldn't be a big problem to me... hehe... hope my "wife" recover soon then I can continue to "exploit" her until I need to return it back to the shop on Monday... then no more motor already... wonder I still can survive or not without motor... hehe... I can de... no worries... safe trip for those who going back kampung after exam... those who not yet finish exam, keep it up and good luck for the remaining paper... I'll help you enjoy now 1st... haha...

1 more to go!!!

Just died beautifully in another paper... sigh... this paper really shit... as shit as the Rao Rao's paper... anyway... don't really care about it already... aim for all pass this sem only... hehe... sigh...

Finally... just need to work hard for 1 last day... then freedom awaits me... don't really want to stay home everyday... planning something... but donno what to plan... anyone got any plan feel free to ask me to join ya... hehe... need to get wild a bit before stay home watch drama, write story, study Japanese.... a.k.a. becoming an "otaku"... hehe...

My "dear" so bad... dump me aside and go enjoy herself... never include me in any of her planning... sigh... pity me... need to "eat myself"... sigh... T.T can't wait tomorrow to come... come faster!!

Things I wanna do after exam

Watch all the anime and drama of my collection… hehe…
Is time to start writing my new story already…
Cut my hair… it’s getting longer & longer…
Need to finish up the novel “Kara no Kyoukai”…
Need to go enjoy and relax myself…
Need to spend my time with my “Dear”…
Need to study Japanese for the JLPT…
Need to play some badminton already…
Need to have some good night sleep…
I’m just so busy after the exam…

Injured…

I hurt my most important part of my body… you know where it is? It’s a long and very important part… hehe… well, if you guess it right… I hurt my left hand middle finger… XD

It happen like this… I try to kill the mosquito… I slap my hand hard… and that’s how I hurt myself… half of my finger is in blue black condition… after some rubbing it reliefs a bit… half of my finger doesn’t mean top & bottom… is like left & right… reminds me about “2 face”… hehe… seeing at the palm, left of my middle finger is ok, while right side is blue black… plan to post picture but since is a bit “violating” to post a picture of middle finger pointing out… so just forget it… :-P

So painful that I thought I might break it at first… then later I can still move it, bend it… so means ok to me I guess… now already almost clear with all the blue black… hope my middle finger recover soon… if not, I’ll lose out a middle finger to point at other people… haha…

Mika Nakashima - ORION

Nice song here... it's been awhile from Mika... hope you like it!

The day after the memorable day...

Spent some personal time yesterday... as I expected... tears are falling once again... but I believe I'll be stronger... I will... I'm trying my best to do so... chose to be a vegetarian yesterday... a silly act? Maybe... but I just feel like I want to make myself feel a bit better... at least this is the only thing I'm able to do for him now... so those who curious why I didn't eat pizza yesterday... your question was answered... I wonder how my sister pass her day... I did sms her... reminding her about the day... she'll be fine...

Celebrated Mei Kuan's birthday last night... the cake is nice... I can't try the pizza, so no comment on it. Screwed up a major paper during the evening... sigh... just pray for no need to retake for this paper... tired... but finally half of my final has passed by... waiting next week for another half... the 2nd round... then will be freedom all the way... but still need prepare for JLPT... but that one is enjoying rather than suffering one... so no worries...

Despite all the down moods yesterday... very glad that my day was lighted up by my "Dear"... sms her... but she no reply... thinking bout her... feel that how good if she can comfort me at this time around... and there comes the phone ringing... touching... really... thanks a lot... MUACKS~

In remembrance to my rabbit with love

Today is a special day... a memorable day... In remembrance to my rabbit with love… I added a new blog page under “my story” column…

Finally… 1 year passed by… everything seems like just happened yesterday… can still remember clearly the feeling on this day… a year ago… can remember what I touched… what I heard… what I felt… what I did… today I’ll spend some of my time browsing back my blog post… his pictures… videos… getting back as much memory as possible between us… how I miss him… wonder will he be alright now? Wonder where he is now… wondering will my tears be falling again? I wonder…

I’m doing fine here, don’t worry… everyone in the family is doing fine too… we missed you… and we are praying for you everyday… so you must be strong and move forward… you’ll always be in our heart… forever… thank you for being part of our family… I’m glad that we shared our memories together… even though it has now come to an end… I’ll be stronger myself too…

If one day… we do meet again……

Round 1 ending soon

Round 1 of the final is coming to an end, Friday will be the last paper then wait until next week will the round 2 start with another 3 papers and that's it... just hope time goes by faster and faster! So-called studying hard but actually not productive at all... maybe I'd pass by the age of learning... hehe... not old... is MATURE...

Anyway, last year around this time my final has already almost done actually. But this year is just the beginning... Tomorrow is a special day for me... will take my own time for it tomorrow... just hope I'll be fine... curious about what so special? Log in to my blog tomorrow for more information... hehe... sigh...

OMG

First paper of my final today... mathematics... more specific is statistic... having a nice feeling that I can score... but end up I screwed it up... T.T

Anyway, there's nothing much I can do... so just let it be... hope can score a B+ then is already enough... tomorrow is another horrible paper... electrical power... too few example... wonder what can he ask about it... sigh... Friday is Rao Rao some more... just hope the exam will past as soon as possible...

Bravo to Massa, Boo to Hamilton

2008 season of Formula 1 has finally come to an end. I must say I’m impressed by Massa for the very first time… he drove a great race, the best in his career so far. He is the one that deserved and should be crowned as champion, and not the chicken Britain who put no fight at all and even lose to Toro Rosso in track position… useless and hopeless, wonder why he managed to earn the championship… he just don’t deserve it at all… even a lapped BMW can un-lapped himself from the chicken… with such a lousy performance, and yet the whole family still dare to make such a fuse fuss in celebrating it… they just don’t know what the “shame” means… and as idiot as before… that idiot continue his idiotic act… walking around having his own time celebrating while everyone is paying respect to the national anthem of Brazil by standing straight… “No manners” is just not enough to describe his F**king attitude. Poor Massa… for handing out the title to creature like that…

To sum things up, yet another great season of F1, but this time ends up with such a sad ending. Work harder for next season Kimi… Massa too… kick those idiot’s asses and shut his ass off!

Tiring life…

It’s been awhile for me to write something here in my blog… exam coming… no time… but I wonder where my time gone… I didn’t really study anything… and the study week had already passed by… what have I done? Nothing at all… am I feeling pressure or tension? I don’t know. I think I’m just a puppet without a soul now… just being told to study and study only… sigh… already exhausted from all the work… write till my hand is aching now… giving up? I wonder…

My “dear” have been asking me to find her in campus… saying want me help her deliver food at first… then later only tell me that she make some “tong sui” and ask me go take from her… I rejected her… (Rain start to fall right after I made that decision, shall I say luckily I didn’t promise her?) I think she must hate me at that time… the other day she ask am I free and will I go in campus. I told her I’m not free, need to do group discussion with friends… she didn’t say anything further… but her friend keeps on asking me to go in campus… actually she cook the “tong sui” again (I think…) already… then hoping I can go and try it out maybe? Honestly, I’m not really in the mood for things like that at that moment… but feel kind of guilty after being asked so many times by her friend… so I went in campus to find her…

I don’t hope to meet her? No… I want to do so… but it’s just I don’t think that is a good time for me… but after seeing her… feel kind of glad for going to meet her although there’s some drizzle of rain when I’m on my way back home… feeling sorry… I think I’d made her sad… let her down… sigh… what the hell am I doing… losing out myself totally recently… too exhausted I suppose… from study? Maybe… but maybe is exhausted due to my life… a merely 22-years-old saying tired of living… funny as it may seems… sigh… sorry to my “dear”… sorry… don’t know what else can be say and do… can barely move my body, can barely work my mind, can barely catch a breath…

Study hard...

I'm dead

Some thoughts

Don't care how people look at you
Don't care how you look at other people
Sometime we just have to be selfish a little
Care for yourself, that's enough
Don't expect other people will live the way you wish for
So rather than not happy about other people
Why don't I just let them be and live happier myself?
Don't think too much
Don't expect anything
Don't do anything stupid
Just live my life as normal as possible...

-.-

no post for these few days... modem got problem... sorry
sigh...

Determine...

Busy preparing for final... so sorry for not putting in some "quality" post recently...Anyway, I insist of scribble something here daily... so when you feel bored in your study, hop in and have a look around ^.^

Today is aunty YC bday... wish her face will turn more yellow yr after yr... hehe...

Those who watch anime... here's a stupid site which I think you like it... http://hero_hki.mysinablog.com/index.php

I'm still working hard in study... can focus better already... but will get sleepy easily... sigh... I think everyone also the same like me is it? So don't think too much on that...

These few nights actually didn't study because went out to "wet"... hehe... went to dinner at different places and "yam cha" with friends since they rented car for field work purpose...

OK la... that's all for today. See you tomorrow.

losing out

Slowly wait for the "MAJOR UPDATE" la... take some time...
Rain for almost 3 days non-stop here... can't wash clothes like that...
Weather too nice due to rain... can't concentrate well in study...
Must really work hard already... this is the N time I say this... sigh...
Everyone work hard for your final also... Good luck!

wait patiently...

something big might be happening soon... please wait for it...
if you are curious about it... guess it yourself...
don't ask me what is that... still private and confidential...
when it happens... my blog will require a MAJOR update...
that's all... thank you

don't throw smelly egg on me ok? hehe...

Work hard please...

Teach me how to stay focus...
Too many "attraction" around me...
Too much noise around me...
I'm easily drift away from my study...
Time is running out already...
Really have to focus... and focus... and focus...
Study... and Study... and Study...

思念是一种病

张震岳

当你在穿山越岭的另一边
我在孤独的路上没有尽头

一辈子有多少的来不及
发现 已经 失去
最重要的东西
恍然大悟 早已远去
为何总是在犯错之后
才肯相信 错的是自己
他们说这就是人生
试著体会 试著忍住眼泪
还是躲不开应该有的情绪
我不会奢求世界停止转动
我知道逃避一点都没有用
只是这段时间裡 尤其在夜裡
还是会想起 难忘的事情
我想我的思念是一种病
久久不能痊癒

当你在穿山越岭的另一边
我在孤独的路上没有尽头
时常感觉你在耳后的呼吸
却未曾感觉你在心口的鼻息

汲汲营营
忘记身边的人需要爱和关心
藉口总是拉远了距离
不知不觉 无声无息
我们总是在抱怨事与愿违
却不愿意回头看看自己
想想自己 到底做了甚麼蠢事情
也许是上帝给我一个试炼
只是这伤口需要花点时间
只是会想念 过去的一切
那些人事物 会离我远去
而我们终究也会远离
变成回忆

当你在穿山越岭的另一边
我在孤独的路上没有尽头
时常感觉你在耳后的呼吸
却未曾感觉你在心口的鼻息
Oh 思念是一种病
Oh 思念是一种病 一种病

多久没有说我爱你
多久没有拥抱你所爱的人
当这个世界不在那麼美好
只有爱可以让他更好
我相信一切都来得及
别管那些纷纷扰扰
别让不开心的事 停下了脚步
就怕你不说 就怕你不做
别让遗憾继续 一切都来得及

当你在穿山越岭的另一边
我在孤独的路上没有尽头
时常感觉你在耳后的呼吸
却未曾感觉你在心口的鼻息

当你在穿山越岭的另一边
我在孤独的路上没有尽头
时常感觉你在耳后的呼吸
却未曾感觉你在心口的鼻息
Oh 思念是一种病
Oh 思念是一种病 一种病

当全世界都抛弃我的时候，我选择了离开这个世界

Tired... mentally & physically

Really feel very tired... sometime I wonder why am I working so hard for my club... what for I do all this and that... have meeting, members don't come also didn't inform me... come late... when meeting all doing their own things... sigh... don't feel like want to make the meeting those official style, but end up things turn to become ugly. As if I'm the only fella so stupid to keep on motivated to do things... senior are busy with their FYP, and juniors... don't really see their heart in this club... maybe I should have select a new AJK board and leave... then there's nothing for me to worry anymore... but I just can't do that... sigh... wonder is it worth at all for me to skip class, rush last minute assignment for this club... really getting tired about it already... physically and mentally... but there's nothing much I can do... but keep on exhausting myself for it...

Japanese Film Festival 2

Well, although is called Japanese Film Festival, I rather prefer to name it Doraemon Film Festival. Doraemon had been appointed as the ambassador of anime from Japan, that’s why this event was held last Friday and Saturday to promote this news to everyone at KK. The event was in UMS library auditorium hall 1… the place was nice… everything fine… only some technical issue regarding the sound system at the beginning of the show. Enjoy myself very much in this event… having lots of fun although it really makes me feel so tired… tired until when I fall asleep, my alarm also can’t wake me up on time… hehe… meet vice consu Mr. Okada, and also Consulate General of Japan at KK! A nice experience to have. Thank you every committee member for the hard work. Appreciate it very much. Hope you all have fun too.

Movie showed: Doraemon – Nobita’s Dinosaur 2006

The gigantic poster for publicity purpose… air mail all the way from Japan to Malaysia to display for 2 days then air mail back to Japan… wow!

Time to get serious

Final exam is coming... after lazying for the whole sem, is time to get serious in study... if not... will sure die beautifully in the exam... although I don't really think I'll survive nicely this sem with all those shit subject and lecturers... anyway... just try my best to work things out before it is too late... my friends, do scold me if know I didn't study hard ok?

I am who I am

Maybe people will think that I’m different in blog, real life, etc… well, it’s not really a different person. I do agree that everyone will have different side of your own self… is just that whether you show it out to others or not. I myself think that… yes, I seem complicated… but I didn’t hide away myself from the others… so no matter what side of me you are seeing… I am who I am… love it or hate it? haha... ^.^

Here’s a blog post I grabbed from my previous Friendster blog. Thank you for being a part of my life to everyone who may concern…

I don’t like sleeping, but when I’m not enough sleep I’ll get mad easily.
I don’t like to talk, but I don’t mind to become the talkative person among friends.
I like to give a lot of comment to some statement. I believe everyone in this world has the right to say things that they want to say. It’s better than keeping all of them and only say out those fake beautiful words.
I like to receive comment from friends.
I like to listen to my friends’ problem, and try my best to help them out.
I like to have fun with friends, but at the same time I do like to be alone sometimes.
I’m a clever person, but I’m damn lazy. That’s why I always screwed up my exam.
I don’t like to think a lot; don’t like to decide things like where & what to eat.
I’m patient person; I can wait for hours without any words.
I hate people who talks big but do nothing, ego, hold their pride high.
I like to try things that I’m interested only, so don’t force me for something that I rejected.
I hate people disturb me when I’m in bad mood.
I might mumble a lot, but I don’t always angry about the things I said.
I do easily get angry sometimes, but the reason I angry is because I angry about myself.
I’m easy going with almost anything, but there are a few things that I can’t tolerate at all.
I can be friend with any type of person as long as they willing to be friend with me.
I choose to trust every single person of my friends.
I don’t have many friends. The rest of them are just “people that I know”, they’re not friends.
I’m very mind about friendship problem. I don’t want to lose any of them.
I only mind about what is inside. I don’t care how it is from the outside.
I can’t accept anyone that betrays me, not even once.
I won’t go along by just being praised by others.
I prefer my life to be as low profile as possible, rather than become a well-known person.
I like to dream, but slowly I’d lost the courage to do so because reality is always so cruel.
I like anything related to art and design, animation, CG and etc.
I don’t keep secret myself. I will say anything when people ask; it’s just that no one ask me about them.
I never ever break my promise with friends.
I don’t smile a lot because I can’t really find a reason to do so.
I like to try all kind of sports and all sorts of activities.
I just hope to find someone that can understand me, treat me good & has good personality to be with me for the rest of my life.
I’m not greedy at all. I got what I need, it’s enough.
I don’t really mind how others think about me, but I really mind how my friends think about me.
I’m willing to say sorry for anything that I done wrong and do my best to cover it back.
I’m willing to spend money on things that I want.
I don’t look down on people.
I’ll touch by sad scene, story or people.
I don’t really believe love in first sight, but I believe like in first sight.
I care about others more than my own self.
I like to disturb people sometime when the atmosphere is too down.
I like to see my friends falling in love. I will pray for them being able to be together forever.
I’ll say some pointless thing sometime; just ignore them if you don’t like it.
I like to learn all sort of new things, but I don’t like exam.
I like Malaysia, but I hate the politics, policy and etc.
I’ll treat girls well because this is what a man should do.
I don’t mind to become a clown or what so ever if this will make others feel better and have fun.
I’m quite stubborn sometime depending on the issue involved.
I don’t like to be control tightly by others.
I hate people who don’t serious or play around with relationship.
I hate people that treat girls bad.
I don’t like aunty attitude.
I’m good in withstanding pressure & etc.
I never compare myself to others. I just need to be the best I can be then it’s enough.
I can accept the existence of lesbian and gay.
I’m a very choosey person when I’m searching something for myself, such as clothes & etc.
I prefer fan than air con, sunny day than rainy day.
I’m sentimental person although I don’t look like one.
I got all sort of bad habits such as biting my fingers & etc.
I don’t like noisy environment (except when it is needed such as party music & etc)
When I like someone or something, I can like it for my whole life and it won’t change.
When someone pisses me off, I’ll return it in double.
I don’t give face to people.
I’m just… who I am…

Sem ends...

Finally... this sem is going to over soon... just died another mid term today... wonder why can die so many mid term in 1 sem... tired today... just finish Doraemon Film Festival in UMS today... I'm the organizer some more... hehe... although at first was asked by the consulate of Japan to host such event... anyway, the event was successful... wil talk more bout that next time... today too tired to type already... exhausted... still got a pile of assignment to do... but finally... is coming to an end... just hope everything goes well for the very last week of this sem... sigh...

Muacks~ my dear...

Photo taking VS taking photo

Photo taking… well, people around me should know this well… I don’t like to take photo… to be precise, I don’t like to be in a photo… sometime I’m kind of can’t stand people that can take picture non-stop no matter where they are and what they are doing. But I do agree that photo is something nice for memory keeping. But unfortunately (well, I have to use this word since people are thinking I’m abnormal because I don’t like to take photo), I do enjoy taking photo… this time around I mean I take the photo using camera. I really enjoy every moment I have when I’m holding a camera… searching for the best moment… the best shot… the best scene… the best angle… picture I take actually got some quality in it (well, this is just what I say myself, no professional point of view in any sort of it)… come to think of it, have I ever dream of being a photographer before? Think… thinking… can’t really recall. Maybe I did… but it brings no meaning to me anymore now… another dream that can’t be achieved… sad…

Shopping

I miss shopping back at peninsula...

Wait for me... Sungei Wang... Low Yat... Pavilion... Time Square... 1 Utama... The Curve... Ikano... Sunway Pyramid... KLCC... Mid Valley...

Meet in 2 months time!
^.^

Ugly Hamilton

Watched the Japanese Formula 1 Grand Prix on Sunday… Hamilton starting at pole position as a drivers’ championship leader, beside him was Kimi Raikonen, follow by Alonso, Kovailen and Massa. The race started with Kimi dashing ahead of Hamilton. Kovailen was obviously faster than Hamilton too, but everything went wrong when Hamilton force his own teammate aside, and speed himself up to a limit where he can’t even control his car properly, over braking, locking wheels, dive into the first corner deep and pushing everyone out of the track… what an ugly move by someone who has the potential to become the youngest F1 World Champion… due to the reckless act by Hamilton, everyone starting from Kimi, Massa til all the way back to the end of the field have to run wide to avoid colliding with him… in the end most of the front runner lose out places, and I do believe that the accident in the first corner at the back of the field was due to Hamilton’s foolish driving. I would say Massa do take a penalty for colliding with Hamilton at one of the corner later on… but a drive through penalty is just too little to punish Hamilton for creating such a chaos… and at the last lap, Hamilton who was lapped by the race leader Alonso was charging against Alonso… and again, recklessly… just to un-lapped himself from being 1 lap behind the race leader… this act really piss me off. I would label this as “completely no manners” and I do believe that he doesn’t even have any sporting spirit in him… once I do think he is good, but now… he had made his way into my blacklist of F1 driver, together with Alonso, Montoya & Hakkinen, where all of them are in the same category… ego driver…

It is really sad and mad to see things like this to happen. Even if you do grab the grab the Drivers’ Championship this year, Hamilton, you don’t deserve it at all… never… thumbs down on you…

L.O.V.E.

What is love? I wonder… I would define it to be something simple… a simple feeling that rises from the heart, unpolluted by other factors. Do Adam and Eve fall in love to each other? I wonder… all this while, what am I looking for my love? I wonder… come to think of it, I do belive I’m looking for the same simple thing as what defined just now too… someone that I like, and someone that like me… this is the only requirement that I’m looking for to start a love… wonder why other factors will matter… really can’t figure it out. I believe human should live their life as simple as possible, back to the basic and don’t think too much because you’ll get drift away.

Human were spoilt by their good living… and since then they start to demand more and more, day after day… who said boyfriend must be handsome and girlfriend must be pretty? Who said the guy must be rich? Who said the guy must give everything he has to the girl? Feeling that the world is getting distorted… people are forgetting the basic theory… that’s why people are suffering here and there, living their life unhappily. I do believe in this deeply.

Often girls will say that the guy can’t give her a “secure” feeling… that’s why she leave him or what. Wonder where the “secure” feeling come from. What “secure” means? Is that a demand? Or is it a must? I do believe that “secure” is just a word created as a fake reason to make someone feels better when be with someone or dump someone away.

If you really like someone, or love someone, you won’t care how they look, how they act, how they talk, how they live… for this reason, only the phrase “love is blind” came in… you won’t even think twice before doing anything for someone you love. Just do what is in your mind and that it. If you love someone, you should be able to accept everything about him or her. If you ask for something from him/her, let say a change in something… you should be able to do the same in return… changing something for him/her. Love is never a one way road… both should work things out, and this is important… work before you demand… “Give and take” is what I believe is true all this while… a basic concept that I hold on for so long…

This is a something that I would like to share here:
True love does not mean possession or jealousy.
Love is a decent word; it carries all your pains and sorrows away.
Love is patient. Love is giving. Love is forgiveness.
One day, when you find love, your dream is just become…

伤

言语，一个人类用来沟通的工具
原来，也可成为锐利无比的武器
也许，无意之间我也用了这利器
但是，我真的并不知道错在哪里
只是，现在感觉我心正在淌着血
因为，我也被这把利刃给割伤了
如果，我做错了这就是我的报应
可是，不知来龙去脉已让我崩溃
或许，只是在身上多加一道伤痕
可能，已经来到该梦醒的时分了

Nodame Cantabile – Paris hen

This is the second season of the nice anime – Nodame Cantabile. I like the first season of the anime very much and now comes the second season… of course I won’t miss it out too! The first season talks about Chiyaki’s life in striving to become a great musician… but his life was interrupted by Nodame, a girl who has great talent in playing piano but weird from inside out. I kind of like the story between Chiyaki and Nodame… like to see those stupid actions from Nodame, like to see the funny relation between them… a very nice anime indeed… the second season talks about what happen after Chiyaki finally overcome his fear of taking a flight… so both Nodame and Chiyaki arrive at France to further their study in music… the story starts here…

Really looking forward on what will happen in this season… the first episode had just released… already watched it… really nice and didn’t disappoint me… a soothing and nice anime, hope u guys like it too.

Pit Stop...

Finally... a brief moment to take a breath... but still there are lots of works piling up there waiting for me to do... rao assignment, tutorial, mid term next week... (really like never ending...) then need to pass up methodology assignment... math quiz next week too... sigh... but the big good news is no need to see a fat ass lecturer face anymore... the school send him for training wor... he somemore dare say he donno why school send him for training course... what else idiot? You are too shit to be a lecturer la... that's why! So will busy until next weekend only got some free time... but final is already around the corner... study... hope so la... and to my dear... sorry for you to continue to wait lo... when i free that time only I'll start dating you... OK? Next week my club is showing Doraemon Movie - Nobita's Dinosaur 2006 in UMS... hope the program runs smooth... tired... need to take some rest before I continue my work...

Happy birthday to my fren Kae Luen...
Muacks~ to my dear...

Last minute rushing

almost 1am in the morning... tired... sleepy... but no choice... need to continue work for some stupid idiot lecturer's assignment... what to do... sigh... doing my best now... good luck to me...

WTF

Stress out...
Tension...
Headache...
Running out of time...
Dying...
Shit...
Double shit...
Bullshit...
Sigh...

busy + busy = BUSY!!

Too busy... busy with club's latest activity... busy with all my assignments... don't really have time to write some quality post recently... feel very guilty... but still I'll try my best to write something nice... but not today... haha... really in a rush... only 3 days left to complete a project... hope it can be done without major problem... other assignments really no eye see already... just try to complete it and pass up and don't care about it already... kind of tired... but what to do? really a very shit semester... sigh... learn nothing at all... keep on dying in test and mid terms... really hopeless...

Wet Ride

Rain for almost 1 day yesterday… and I’m so busy whole day need to go here and there… end up I keep on riding my bike here n there “fighting” against the rain for whole day… wet of course… from top to bottom… luckily got so many spare underwear… haha… indeed troublesome to ride in the rain… I don’t have rain coat, so I just use my sweater as a rain coat… hehe… so end up pants all wet… sweater is slightly water resistance, so nothing much to worry about it… in the rain, some might ride as fast as possible to escape from the rain… but it is dangerous… but if you ride slowly… the rain is torturing… wonder what should I do? The rain hitting like needles… but once get use to it then is ok already… and is so cold during rain… well, I’m just that kind of person that afraid of cold… sometime hand is shaking… but still need to hold tight and continue the journey… need to avoid all the “traps” on the road… if not your leg will extra wet…

Well, not the first time already. Starting to get used to it after became a motorcyclist. Anyway, just hope I won’t fall sick from that.

Remioromen – Tsubasa

New singles from this J-pop band Remioromen… this song is nice, but what I like the most is actually this MV… the view inside is just so beautiful… hope you guys enjoy the songs and also the MV as I do.

rubbish post?

Become very good in sleeping recently... wonder why...
A lot of undone work... stress... must get them done asap...
Didn't sleep well recently... during night... wonder why... easily awake...
1 month left before final exam strikes... still I'm not studying... wait die...
Feel like myself getting not that healthy recently... wonder why...
Maybe I'm just getting old... aging?
Too busy to write blog recently... so just post some rubbish in to fill up the space...
Till then... good luck everyone...

稻 香

词曲：周杰伦

对这个世界如果你有太多的抱怨
跌倒了就不敢继续往前走
为什麼人要这麼的脆弱 堕落
请你打开电视看看
多少人为生命在努力勇敢的走下去
我们是不是该知足
珍惜一切 就算没有拥有

还记得你说家是唯一的城堡 随著稻香河流继续奔跑
微微笑 小时候的梦我知道
不要哭让萤火虫带著你逃跑 乡间的歌谣永远的依靠
回家吧 回到最初的美好

不要这么容易就想放弃 就像我说的
追不到的梦想 换个梦不就得了
为自己的人生鲜艳上色 先把爱涂上喜欢的颜色
笑一个吧 功成名就不是目的
让自己快乐快乐这才叫做意义
童年的纸飞机 现在终於飞回我手里
所谓的那快乐 赤脚在田里追蜻蜓追到累了
偷摘水果被蜜蜂给叮到怕了 谁在偷笑呢
我靠著稻草人吹著风唱著歌睡著了
哦 哦 午后吉它在虫鸣中更清脆
哦 哦 阳光洒在路上就不怕心碎
珍惜一切 就算没有拥有

还记得你说家是唯一的城堡 随著稻香河流继续奔跑
微微笑 小时候的梦我知道
不要哭让萤火虫带著你逃跑 乡间的歌谣永远的依靠
回家吧 回到最初的美好

还记得你说家是唯一的城堡 随著稻香河流继续奔跑
微微笑 小时候的梦我知道
不要哭让萤火虫带著你逃跑 乡间的歌谣永远的依靠
回家吧 回到最初的美好

boom...

Well, heavy rain... thunder strike a tree in front my house till explode... then the fuse jump... my Ethernet switch burned... so won't see me online this few days... sad... hope it will be replace asap...

Dear, I miss u... muacks~

Whole holiday should be very busy... but end up do nothing at all... really shit...

Recently very bad luck... wonder why...

D.Gray-man

Allen Walker is a young Exorcist who has a cursed eye that can see the suffering of the Akumas created by The Millenium Earl. He travels to England to the Headquarters of the Exorcists where his Master has sent him to meet with the other Exorcists. The battle with the Millenium Earl and the Noah Family vs. the Exorcists intensifies when some of the best Exorcists begin to get killed by hoards of Akuma. Japan takes center stage in this end of 19th Century plot in order to not let the entire human race be turned into Akumas and the Exorcists have the power of "Innocence" that was given to them by God on their side.

Allen Walker, a young man with a cursed eye, lives to destroy a weapon known as Akuma. These weapons created by the Milleneum Earl are sent out by his command to purge the world from humans. Allen Walker uses an anti-akuma weapon, Innocence, to counter the Earl's attempts at destroying humanity. He travels to the Black Order by his mentor's directions. There he meets with others who also fight against the Milleneum Earl's plans. But more questions start to appear as Allen and his friends move further along to reach their goal. And these questions that seem to connect to Allen's past.

A very nice anime overall... although the ending is a bit like... too rush and a lot of things are left with question mark... (season 2 maybe?) enjoy watching this anime very much... definitely better than Bleach or Naruto out there which seems like never end and getting boring day after day. Hope you guys like it too...

Opening Theme:
#1: "INNOCENT SORROW" by abingdon boys school (eps 1-25)
#2: "Brightdown" by Nami Tamaki (eps 26-51)
#3: "Doubt & Trust ～ダウト&トラスト～" by access(eps 52-76)
#4: "Gekidou" by UVERworld (eps 77-103)
Ending Theme:
#1: "SNOW KISS" by NIRGILIS (eps 1-13)
#2: "Pride of Tomorrow" by JUNE (eps 14-25)
#3: "Yume no Tsuduki e" by surface (eps 26-38)
#4: "Antoinette Blue" by Nana Kitade (eps 39-51)
#5: "Anata ga Koko ni Iru Riyuu" by Rie fu (eps 52-64)
#6: "Wish" by Sowelu (eps 65-76)
#7: "Regret" by Mai Hoshimura (eps 77-89)
#8: "Changin" by Stephanie (eps 90-103)

Something…

searching for something… wonder what is it
looking for something… wonder what is it
waiting for something… wonder what is it
chasing for something… wonder what is it
hoping for something… wonder what is it
working for something… wonder what is it
sacrificing for something… wonder what is it

Journey to the tip of Borneo

Sorry for the late posting of my trip report… hehe… so, a total of 9 people… 4 guys and 5 girls… rented 2 cars… 1 kancil driven by Yaw Yaw (aka “Loh Yau” Keong) and another Proton Saga by Matthew… the kancil is fine… but without break lights… the saga is like a “structure which weld up by pieces of steel”… noise & bad condition… but it is still moving… so after fetching everyone, checking the car up… we start our journey from Li Yee (aka Ah Mah) house at IP… well actually we went for a drink the night before that at Damai… anyway, journey starts and reach Tuaran in a short while. After having our breakfast, we continue our journey to kudat… (Yaw Yaw claims that he ordered Horlick Ping and the waiter giv him Orange Ping…)

Since kancil no break light, so kancil leads follow by saga… aunties in the kancil busy gossiping n end up missing the Ostrich n Bee farm… after past by all of that only ask people in the saga… where’s the ostrich n bee farm? Well, having some “drama” along the way especially in the saga where I sit… I keep on give Matthew some confident in driving it… give some brief instruction and experience on how to ride the hill smoothly… Matthew really improves a lot in the skills and he is fast! Reach Rungus long house… after securing our room… we went to search for the tip of Borneo… well, it’s still noon and it makes me wonder why we are looking for that place… after some discussion and worries on the petrol level, we decided to head to Kudat town. After pumping petrol, the hunt for KFC starts… hehe… after some great effort, we manage to arrive safely at KFC. After having our lunch, I’m in search for the rice cracker… but end up realizing the shop selling it only opens in the morning… shit… then we continue our journey to the tip of Borneo… after some “action and stuns”… reach the tip safely… saw some nice beaches… once getting off the car… oh my god… the wind… is blowing like a typhoon… you’ll fall down if you are not careful… the wind will blow you away… I really enjoy the scenery around… enjoy the breeze… enjoy the waves… enjoy the sunset… enjoy everything over there…

After watching sunset, we drive back to long house and have our dinner… enjoy some performance by the locals… after that we have some fun chit chatting… drink some rice wine… one by one our members are “falling down” and went to sleep… left me, Jolin & Li Fei… we went to sleep at 4am in the end… since we paid RM45 for it… at least must sleep awhile… hehe… the next morning, miss Jolin keep on knocking on the guys’ room… but no care about it… in te end Matthew open the door and it is actually a “morning call”… after the breakfast, those aunties continue to “shopping” and the handcraft house beside the long house… in the end… all plan changed… wonder why we planned about it so hard before this… skip all the visits… we end up having our lunch again at Tuaran, and heading for Kelapa Pudding after that. In the end, we end up singing K at Karamunsing…

Nice trip overall… like it very much… thank you to our drivers… thank you everyone…

我爱的Dear...

我陪你…可以去看星星…
我们量那个IBM…
等下一个天亮…
One Night In 北京，我留下许多情…
Nen nen… nen nen… nen nen…

Breakaway

Celebrate birthday for one of my friend last night… eat steak at Hill Top… seems like a “class” restaurant isn’t it? Well, it is just a Chinese style kopitiam which sells steak… actually the steak taste quite nice, big portion and reasonable price. Nice meal overall.

By the way, heading to Kudat today… so there might be no blog update on Sunday. See whether I can make it back in time or not. This Sunday is the first ever Formula 1 night race at Singapore! Actually at first really got the thought that want to go watch it live… but in the end I scare it will crash with my lecture… who knows it is within the Hari Raya holiday… sigh… maybe next time…

Take care everyone! Enjoy your holiday!

Phew…

Finally got a tiny bit of time for me to breathe some fresh air… the never ending mid-term exam has come to a stop… (For just awhile, after the Raya holiday will have Rao mid-term… again…) most work were done and passed up… but new assignments are coming in… tons of them… sigh… it’s going to be a busy holiday week after all… but at least I managed to rest myself for this 2 days… recharge myself before the long battle ahead… just hope everything will be fine.

Received sms from my Dear… surprised… glad that she’s doing well… ad she coming back from the forest trip… not really a trip… is helping Bunga out in field work… Bunga is a human, not a flower… hehe… after went in forest, coming out that time sure very slim and pretty already… I guess… cause nothing to eat in forest… hihi…

Tired… exhausted… try my best to relax this few days. And for everyone out there, do enjoy your Raya holiday as well…

LIVE

Suddenly got such feel… feel like want to attend something “live”… well, actually got this feel after watching the L’Arc~en~Ciel LIVE concert… well, a download version of course. Hehe… anyway, come to think of it, I didn’t go to any LIVE event before… LIVE concert, LIVE sport broadcasting… anything… feeling like want to get myself involve with it at least once in my life time… want to go for a LIVE concert once… maybe want to go for LIVE sports action like Formula 1 also? Well, just feel like I’ll be enjoying the great atmosphere for sure… wonder when only will my LIVE come true…

End of September

Busy… lot of assignments keep on bombarding me… tired but still need to rush for them… mid-term exam also… yup, still I’m having all sort of mid-term exam… presentation some more on Thursday… club activity also… a bit busy with all sort of stuff and events…

Recently download speed very slow… wonder why… my Dear went into forest helping Bunga doing field work… miss her… she so cold blood sure didn’t miss me one, sad... Raya holiday is coming soon, looking forward for it… but still… assignments and mid-terms… yes, need to prepare all those things during the Raya break also… sigh…

L’Arc~en~Ciel

Introducing my favorite J-pop band… L’Arc~en~Ciel… their song before this might not suit most of our ears (that’s the style of the 90’s… if you can accept songs from those era, you’ll be able to accept their songs), but they keep on evolving and they are just getting better and better day after day! Love Hyde for his broad range of vocal, love Tetsu style bass playing, love Ken “always cool” guitar, and of course the great drum by Yukihiro! Get to know them from all sort of singles debut under anime or other media… and when I realize about it, I’d already fallen for this group. Enjoy their music very much!

L'Arc~en~Ciel ("the arc in the sky" or "the rainbow" in French) is a popular Japanese rock band, formed in 1991. The group has sold over 15 million albums, 30 million singles, and millions of other units, such as videos. They were ranked at number 58, in a list of Japan's top 100 musicians, provided by HMV.

In February 1991, bassist Tetsuya Ogawa (Tetsu), later band leader, recruited vocalist Hyde along with guitarist Hiro and drummer Pero, and formed a band under the name of L'Arc-en-Ciel. After a year of gaining notoriety in their hometown of Osaka, Hiro & Pero left the. To replace the two, Tetsu convinced his friend Ken Kitamura to quit his university studies and join the band as the guitarist. Later, a new drummer, Yasunori Sakurazawa, was recruited after Tetsu saw him perform in a few shows. After a drug scandal, Sakurazawa quit the band and was replaced by new drummer Yukihiro.

L’Arc~en~Ciel keep on producing singles which top the Oricon charts for all time besides having concerts and tours all around the world. They also go for solo project among their own. So, watch out for them as they’ll rock your world!