Empty

Nothing to write and post recently... empty in my head... but still scribble something here since long time I didn't post anything already... too busy and too tired to think of anything at all... lazy also to figure things out... final year project started with journal searching and reading... need to start meet with my supervisor frequently and follow up the progress already... then every week will sure have 1 assignment for that specific subject... lots of work flooding me now... still wondering should I take the JLPT level 2 exam this year... sigh... feel like so restless... but seems like I'm the only one that is busy around only... others still can have their sweet moment and time watching drama, playing games... I just can't stop the tension for this final year...

Facebook-ing?

Facebook... a word everyone so familiar with nowadays... everyday I can see tons of update from all my friends doing this and that on facebook... but for me... I think I'm rarely show up in their friends update list... why? I just don't know how to play facebook... maybe?

I'm impressed that people can non-stop browse others' pictures and give all sorts of comments... play all sorts of applications and keep on adding people in... play all sorts of quizzes and making fun out of it... upload all sorts of things for others to see... search for all sorts of silly clip or picture inside and share with people...

Well... I just can't do all that... lazy? Maybe... just don't really have the motivation to even start to do so... rarely I'll go and comment on people's picture... I played some application before... fed up with it very soon... quizzes? Something I'm not so fond about... anyway... I'll still sign in facebook everyday to see all the happenings on my friends... it feels nice to see them... "alive"... haha...

Oh boy... am I too old to facebook-ing... I'm off track from the trends... hehe...

New semester

Final year starts soon... actually already started but just don't want to accept it and take it as not yet... then move to new house this sem... got a new motor also... new means different from the motor I rent last time... not "new"... then a lot of tiny bit of things mess around with me... laptop a bit strange... think need to format already... sigh... tired... just don't have the mood to do things at all yet... final year project also coming... sigh... just hope everything will turn right soon...

爱。金城武。

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爱，即谅解对方
不过，人要先爱自己才能爱其他人
爱不了自己，便会利用别人来爱自己
紧紧捉住对方不想放开
一旦对方不在身边就十分寂寞。
懂得爱自己，才愿意让对方自由，给对方想要的东西
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金城武。

报章上看见了这...看了心里一酸...刺痛着...
简单的几句话，意义非凡...
让我...重新认真的思考...认真的看待...

我，爱我自己吗？
我，爱得了别人吗？
我，知道什么是爱吗...

心。情。写。照。

失业了...并不是被炒鱿鱼，而是实习完毕而已...
忙着写报告，不知道该怎么写，毫无头绪，横冲直撞...
失去了一个可以暂时寄托自己的地方，毫无方向...
疲累，空虚...一涌上了心头...
人，开始又自我封闭起来...
希望几天的时间里，能够重拾自我...
回去开课后，希望能够完全寄托在学业与课业上...
汗水流完了...但是是值得的
眼泪流干了...已经无法挽回了
嘴角上扬了...因为还能感受到一丝的温暖
让自己再堕落几天吧...
但是必须在几天后...勇敢的...重新站起来...

End of Internship

10 weeks... sounds so long... but seems so fast... at first didn't put any hope on internship... ending up now I'm all into it... really great thanks to everyone under Fan & Motor Group... everyone of you, Eric, Joseph, Khai Shin, Hafiz, Yoke San, Cheng, Khatib... all of you have taught me a lot for the past 10 weeks... thanks to Redzuan, Nizam & Tan also for all the help... Thanks to previuos trainee, Poh Siang, Vincent, Narvin, Kian Giap... thank you for all the guidance too... thank you to many others, Kayu, Miss Chong, Teoh, Lee Fu Kang, Lee CL and many more for the badminton session every Wednesday and all the chit chating that we have... Thank you to Ah Boon for always saying bad words (haha...), Thanks to others that assited me in the completion of my testing, Tan JW, Kuey, Chew, Tan CC, Yang... and many other technicians and engineers that I can't even count them all... we are as if 1 big family... no barrier between us... work together, laugh together... really cherish the 10 weeks I have here in OYL... thank you so much for everything... hope to see you guys soon... touching... sob sob T.T

What language should we use for Math?

Government say the policy of studying Math in English is not reaching the target they expect, that's why they terminate it. The question is, what really do they expect? Maybe they just expect too much from it, so end up doesn't reach their expectation? What's more, they said that there are improvement, but too little... why got improvement but still want to cancel the policy?Although is small improvement, don't those idiots in the government know the phrase that says: sikit-sikit lama jadi bukit?

Some Malay say we must learn Math in national language... so call BM... this might be good for people staying in kampung and pedalaman, but unfortunately, this is not something good to other races. I must say there are many Chinese and Indian out there that doesn't fluent in BM at all... so BM is not really a language that everyone can share with, so study in national language learn better is actually bullshit.

Example, Singapore use English from the very beginning, their education level is far ahead from us. Well, this is because English is their mother tounge... so can't really compare in such a way, unfair... so, let's say Japan... studying in Japanese... national language... they suceed and advanced ahead... country of middle east, once upon a time, they are pioneer in Math, study in their own national language too... so, idiots from the government start putting example like these to say we should study Math in national language too... F**K OFF! They can excel using their national language all because they have a excellent translation and resources of knowledge from all around the world... all in their national language... what do Malaysia have? Nothing!

We need to change because this is what the Malaysian wants... I belive this is what the Malays want more than Malaysian... Tun Mahathir's blog survey tells it all.new report and survey from papers shows that none of the Malaysian wanted to change the language... changing the policy ends up wasting even more money in publication of new books and etc... don't end up got people getting rasuah through the shift of language...

Basic of Math is important. Learning Math in mother tounge is better. English is important for studying Math n Science. All of these are solid facts. Now, actually most lecturer in University still can't teach properly in English even though is already a must... this is already devastating the education of Malaysia, so please don't further rampage the already torned apart system... the best solution would still be remain to study Math & Science in own prefered language during primary to build up the basic... easier to absorb... then in Malay until Form 3... finally, in English for Form 4 and 5... same goes to University...

Sigh... government will never learn from lessons...

BIGBAND @ UM 09

Last night went to watch a live performance by the BIGBAND, I think there are about 50 peoples involve in the performance... I'm not sitting in a place with great view so I didn't took any pictures... anyway, at least I can see my friend there... yes, my friend, Cat... is performing with her saxophone within the band. She graduated from her study in musics... kind of cool... anyway, the performance last for 2 and a half hour, with great band performance and also vocal presentation by some local vocalist. The performance was held in UM Tunku Cancellor Hall... not really a big place... but reasonable and is full house. It is free to watch the show and I must say I'm glad to attend the performance. Cat even has a chance to play solo during the performance!

Proud of you Cat! Good luck and work harder! Hope to see your album soon. Haha...

柠.檬.茶

红茶，略甜略甘
喝下感觉清新芬芳
柠檬，略酸略烈
吃下感觉又爱又恨

红茶加上柠檬
略甜略酸，略甘略烈
这种又爱又恨，清新芬芳的感觉
只有柠檬茶可以做得到

两种属于两个世界的东西
结合在一起竟然变得那么的天衣无缝
不知何时开始，我...
已经不知不觉中恋上了这样的配搭

也许喝下时有些许深感同受
略甜略酸的柠檬茶
略甜略酸的人生
令我不知不觉中，已经无法自拔

Full report on Malaysian idiotic driver’s attitude

Statement:
I emergency break for 3 times recently, all just less than 1 inch behind the car in front.

Declaration:
I’m driving at speed of 60-80km/h, my car can’t drive fast also; my car’s break is not really that good in condition; my car’s tyre seems a bit unbalance.

Case study 1:
When my side of road got car accident, and it block the road… ok, it’s fine and normal for it to jam because people need to slow down to avoid them and those sharp pieces on the road. But even if the incident vehicles had moved to the side of the road, the road will still jam… wonder why… the reason? Those Malaysian with idiotic driver’s attitude of cause is the main contributor to the traffic jam. Why must you slow down when nothing on the road and only accident car by the road side? To see what happen? Why so busy body? Are you going to help? No for sure right? Then just kick your ass up and start driving! Want to see the car number to buy 4D is it? If the number really will be lucky, the car won’t accident there, stupid! If u accident at road side, u feel nice starred by people or not? Or maybe you just want to pray and hope someone accident there is someone you know so you can laugh at them?

The greatest part is when accident at other direction of road… the road here also can jam… totally nothing get in the way but still those idiot can slow down and watch free show like that… recently an accident at opposite direction which lure the idiot no 1 to slow his car down totally from a high speed at the highway… just to watch the free show opposite… the result of this is a poor victim me brake so hard until like AE86 drifting down the hill just to avoid sending tat idiot in front a journey to the west… WTF!

Case study 2:
Every car has side mirror right? Every human got eyes right? Why can’t they use their eye to look at the side mirror before diving into people’s lane? You think the road you buy one ar? Even Tungku Abdul Rahman also has to drive carefully when pass by Jalan Tunku Abdul Rahman lah… so? If can’t see don’t drive. Go hire a driver. The other day the idiot no 2 exit from bridge, straight cut into the middle lane, almost bump into idiot no 3. The idiot no 3 also just cut to my right lane without even see I’m coming… shit…

Case study 3:
Sometime the road is jamming... all cars drive slowly... after a few meters... then the road become clear... then would start wonder why it jam... no accident, nothing at all also can suddenly jam... at 3 lane high way some more... really beh tahan...

Conclusion:
Government should set new law to blind those who busy body go look at people accident… and chop the leg of those people that slow to stop without any proper reason in the high speed high way in the middle of nowhere all of a sudden. For those who cut lane as if cutting potato one… just cut them into pieces then settle. Damn it!

Failed to drunk

Went for a dinner and happy hour at Luna Bar, Pacific Regency Hotel Kuala Lumpur… nice environment with nice KL night view… due to happy hour reason we ordered 3 jug of beer… it’s cheap… in the end, YC boy boy drank 1 jug, I drank another… YC & MP drink the left over… and the outcome is YC boy boy half drunk, mp totally down… but I’m still alert… got a tiny feel of “after drink alcohol”, but I’m still 99% conscious. 1 jug of beer is not enough to drunk me… sigh… anyway, if I drunk already then really no one can fetch me home already. Sigh… just hope things will turn right soon…

再一次被感动

今天，早上睡醒，完成了我要完成的工作，时间是5点。是的，工作太多，只能这样。原本打算睡到6点多然后就去上班。但是突然看见电脑desktop的一个icon，忍不住就click了下去，结果就没完没了…

是L’Arc~en~Ciel的巴黎08年演唱会，下载了N年了，但是太忙了根本没时间去看。认识我的人，有看我blog的人应该都知道我非常喜欢这日本第一天团。他们的实力，无可否认。演唱会非常精彩，也许是因为难得的一次到巴黎演唱，全场爆满，他们以歌迷们最熟悉，他们最经典的歌曲，一首接一首的呈现出来。然后还特意的用法语和大家交流…此外，让我意外的是这次竟然4位团员都有机会轮流献唱，而不是单调的只有主唱在唱歌，这的确是对现场观众来说是十分窝心的。

但演唱会来到尾声，主唱Hyde再一次用法语向大家道谢，然后唱出最后一首歌曲，あなた(anata/亲爱的)。有一些意外，因为这首歌很少被唱出来。灯光变暗，歌声响起，大家沉醉在他们的音乐中，羽毛缓缓的被喷洒全场。在场的观众都几乎哭成泪人，朋友，亲人与爱人互相拥抱…Hyde唱至些许哏咽，停止了歌声，场下的观众很自然的开始接唱…这份默契，这份感动…深深的撼动了我的心，只觉得自己眼角也有些许的湿透。

再一次被他们的歌声给感动了。希望能够有看他们现场演唱的机会，一次就好。

Anata - Larc~en~Ciel

Rest in Peace... Michael Jackson

It's almost a week now... since the day I heard the news about him leaving this world. Last Friday if I'm not mistaken... during the night only I knew about it... I didn't read newspaper yet and didn't listen to the radio that day... by the time I heard my friend said he was dead... I'm a little bit shock... but still I'm calm. Later, when I start to think back... it makes me feel a bit sad to see him leaving. I'm not really a great fan of him, but still, sadness grows within me.

I believe most of the people with the same age group as me sure as some special feelings with him... we grew up under his songs... remember? Earth song and Heal the World... both of these songs are surely in great remembrance by all of us... Earth song can always been seen in the TV... the MV is really touching... then as for me, Heal the world is the song which I sang together with all my standard 6 classmate... so it really has a special place in my heart all the time.

Ignoring his controversial life... MJ is indeed the King of Pop, no doubt about it. He is the founder of all sort of dance which we practice nowadays... he lead the industry to a great peak with all of his top selling albums and concerts... he is always the focus point of all no matter where he goes. After such a long time he didn't really release any song and etc... but still, you can see millions of fan there saying goodbye to their beloved star... his influence has already sink down to the root of everyone's heart.

"You are not alone" is another song by him that I really like it...

You are not alone, MJ! Rest in peace.