End of University Life

Yup... finally everything is over... is nothing happened... well, packing up stuff and going back on Sunday afternoon... should reach KL by evening. 4 years have gone... long? not really... short? not really as well... just that things that happened 4 years ago still fresh within my mind... the day I left KL to Sabah... my first time surviving alone in a place I got don't know at all... until now, is time to leave... many memories were left here. Sweet and bitter.

Sabah is a nice place, at least pure Sabahan (or you may call the ethnic/bumiputera of Sabah) they are very friendly and not racist at all. They trust people in other races, can saw them eating in restaurant with Chinese cook, as long as they are assured that the food is halal, they won't mind. This will definitely not the case if back to KL. Not much entertainment, but enjoyed the well preserved nature of Sabah... a bit sad for no climbing the Mount Kota Kinabalu... can't find enough people to climb with me... anyway, the amazing view at tip of Borneo, the Padas river rafting and many many more will crave a spot in my brain.

The study... well, as long as studying in Malaysia I believe anywhere will be the same... met some great lecturer... really thank them for all they gave to me. Met some idiot lecturer as well, just hope won't see him/her again... the University's management sucks since the 1st year till now... and I believe it will continue to sucks... the environment of the University is rather the only great thing to be remembered... 

People that I met... from all around Malaysia... Terengganu, Negeri Sembilan, Melaka, Penang, Perak, Sarawak and etc... well, most of them are okay, although there are some minor problem in them... well, who don't have weakness anyway? So overall can consider to be nice to meeting them. Well, as everyone might know, except Penang people... I really can't stand most of them. I don't have Penang friends? I got good friends from Penang. But the rest of them... I really can't stand facing them. Most of them are from my school. Maybe is because the problem with "engineer" and not "born Penang"? No idea...

About my life... thanks a lot to all members and committee of Japanese Cultural Club... glad that we met with each other and have so much fun. Thank you to all the Japanese people who always helped me out in organizing club events... feel grateful to meet great gang of badminton friends... enjoyed every session we had although I'm not really performing well all the time. Thank you for other people such as Hadri, Julian and etc that I met here in Sabah and helped me a lot in all sorts of things. 

Thankful for being able to learn riding motorbike as well. Thanks to my housemate and Mr New. 2 years riding motor here and nothing bad happened to me before except puncture once. Thank god. Thank you for all the invitation sent by my friends for gathering, movies and etc. I'd been having some great time. Thank you to people that had helped me that I'd forgot to mentioned... who knows there might be people helping me without me noticing... 

All in all... already 4 years... good luck to everyone I know... in your future, no matter is work or study. Thank you once again for everything. And sorry if I'd made any mistake or offended any of you. So long.

Exam starting...

For people like me... who will not get a 1st class... and sure won't drop out from 2nd class... it brings no meaning already to study for the last time in the final exam... my study week had been spent on watching movies and anime in my collection... got a bad feeling that my external hard disk will die soon because can hear some moving parts sound in it... so better finish all my collection asap before it is too late... :-P

Spent some time in doing the slides for my FYP presentation... yeah, this is definitely more important than the exam... even if I die in the exam... should have been able to still pass it due to the course work and etc... but FYP... die means die... so don't play play... but 100 pages of thesis have to cramp into a 15-20 minutes presentation... this is really a disaster for me... shit... have to really drop out a whole lot of things and only touch and go those really important stuff... argh... having a hard time doing the slides...

Totally no mood studying... there is a paper tomorrow... sigh... forget it... don't think can score even if I really read it. Focus fire for the coming papers better... just hope these few weeks can pass by as soon as possible...

Mid of April...

Recently had been kind of lazy... sleep most of the time... study a little bit... watch anime the rest of the time... haha... too many anime in stock, so have to finish them... won't really have the time to watch it when working or back to KL... because there are still many things waiting for me to do when I'm back! haha...

Recently watched a few movies... Clash of the Titans is acceptable... at least better than Percy Jackson... The Blind Side is nice... talk about love that crosses the boundary of skin colour... then Dance! Subaru is a movie about a girl who dedicated her life just to dance on behalf of her brother... PRIDE is a story about 2 girls from total different background approaching their dreams to become a singer in 2 different ways... and City of Angels which is an old movie from Nicholas Cage that talks about the love story between an angel and a human...

Still no mood to study... weather is so hot here... feel like want to go out and don't want to stay home... but got nowhere to go... yup... no place to go indeed... in the end must admit that here is Sabah... no choice... not much entertainment around... people around seems getting mad due to rushing of FYP and etc... so just let them be and enjoy some great time being all alone first...

So glad leaving Uni soon

Starting from tomorrow will be the study week... then the exam will start for 3 weeks time... after that, just left thesis correction and binding and everything will be over... still got about 1 month time being here... already there are questions such as "will you miss your university life" flying around in the air... well, for me, there's no need to think deep and think twice on it, because my answer is definitely: NO!!! Everyone say that I will miss it once I start to work... well, currently I don't think so...

I do admit that there are moments which indeed is memorable. I'm glad that I joined a lot of activities in University, people that I know through the activities are really friends. Next, I will miss some of the great lecturer here, hope that I can keep in touch with them. Finally, I'll miss the moment when staying with my house mates in Lorong 3... they are really great friends... apart from these... nothing more for things that directly related to University.

I'd been feeling kind of fed up seeing people around... seeing all the ugly truth... must not deny that this is what I will see in future working life, but I do hope that I won't meet up with people like these in my future... really can't stand it... there are people that can be so ego until the whole world is wrong and only he is right... there are people that so parasite that will attach to who that can give advantage to him and leave when it is no use anymore... there are people that the skin on their face is few meters thick... there are people that will keep on saying bad things about others but doesn't realize that it is his problem... there are people that are so no manners... there are people that so racist... there are people that can be lazy beyond your imagination... and many many more...

Anyway, it's going to over soon. So glad about it. What a suffer for 4 years... besides dealing with people as mentioned, still have to coupe with the stupid University system and not so useful syllabus... give me a break... anyway, no matter I'm going to further study or working, there's no need for me to deal with all these shit anymore. Thank God. Now just have to focus to complete the remaining 1 month of my University life and say so long to it once and for all.

有些人

有些人，整天就只会埋怨...

去吃东西，说人家煮到很难吃

好吃的，又说不够饱

饱的，又说很贵

便宜的，又说自己煮的更好...

所有人他都看不顺眼

全部人对他来说都没有前途

整天只会说A君没用B小姐懒惰

其实他自己也不见得有多勤劳

也不见得很有用很有前途...

没发觉其实是自己思想有问题

却老是只会埋怨别人有问题...

好心帮他的忙还要被他翻白眼...

整天说自己长得很帅，像混血儿...

我呸！

做什么都只是会跟从自己的想法

别人说的都是废话

摆出一副我做我的，你做你的，看谁做得好的猫样

结果事实证明别人更好时就不敢出声...

好管闲事，别人的私事都要插一脚进来

明明就没他的事，搞到好像是他的大件事...

埋怨别人靠关系拿好成绩

明明自己根本也没做到怎么好

又怎样会拿到好成绩？

拿不到的时候就埋怨别人耍手段埋怨老师无能

真正无能的应该是只懂得埋怨却不懂得进取的本人...

说人家英文不好，写作很烂

也看不出他的英文写作有多好

说人家写的东西乱七八糟，看不懂

自己的就非常简单容易明白

结果还不是每次都是那些所谓“乱七八糟”的写作还更高分过他的“完美作”...

面对着这种不会吸取生活教训

不会吸取他人之长补己之短的人

真的无言了...

The beginning of 33% of 2010...

1 more week to go before officially end of 14 weeks semester... then study week comes and exam comes... is already April... 1 month + to go before finally graduating... great... can't stand uni life any longer...

Today is April fool... din fool people and din fooled by people... how old already... still wanna play with this kind of stuff?

Today is Leslie Cheung's memorable day... may him rest in peace...

Recently very good in sleeping... morning wake up breakfast can sleep 2nd round... then after lunch can sleep again... then evening before dinner can sleep again... at nite also can sleep early... WTF! can say got nothing to do... but actually got things to do just didn't do it... feels like wasting my time everyday doing nothing meaningful...

REALity

I dream a lot... day dreaming included... well, this is the best way to keep your brain active, busy and stop from functioning... however, I'd never really set any target from the things that I'm dreaming about... or maybe I should put it this way: I know that most of the dream will not become realistic. Therefore I not dare to even think of pursuing the dream... but still, I dream... I got a special feeling with my dream... how to describe it... a stubborn... lasting... kind of feeling... forget it...

When there's a chance for that to happen... I will definitely go for it with all I got. But sadly, how many people in the world had manage to have their dream come true... reality is indeed "REAL" and therefore dreams will only be dreams... knowing that my dreams will not come true, therefore setting none of them to become my target, but still... I will feel sad when I think about it... or when there's a slight chance for it to happen but again reality had pushed me away from grabbing it... sigh...

24 years of living... and already feeling tired with reality (-.-") wonder how am I going to continue my remaining journey T.T

25% of 2010 has gone...

Recently busy with FYP... but not really that busy also as a lot of work had been completed before this... just need to rearrange them, sort them nicely, check grammar, explain some new data and my draft should be able to complete... just hope that my supervisor don't give too much comment and ask me to change a lot of things... if not I will really start to be busy...

Apart from FYP... nothing special recently... everyday still eat sleep study... but my sister gave me a suggestion to apply for scholarship and study master... sigh... should I? Actually had already planned to work... but wondering now what should I do instead... already applied for 2 companies and still awaiting their reply... yet again I had lost myself... again and again... form 5 once... form 6 once... now after graduate still feeling lost... sigh... really have to think properly about it...

About one more month to complete my study and exam... and about two more months I will be back to KL... how I miss my home, my room, my friends, my family, my Gundam (^^)... everything... well, I guess people tend to think about things like this when they are feeling helpless, lost, and maybe afraid, lonely and tired... anyway... just hope everything will be fine soon... focus fire on my thesis first...

Gia Su & Gia Xi

昨天和一个coursemate谈起了gia su和gia xi的话题...结果我得到的结论是：槟城人的思想都有问题的...哈哈。也许你觉得我在一枝杆打翻整船人，但是至少我所认识的槟城人so far都是思想有问题的，也许是不成熟吧...槟城人是否全都gia su gia xi就还不能确定。哈哈...

认识我的人都知道我绝对不是gia su gia xi的人...有时甚至还会被我得懒散给气死（请自己对号入座^^）然而昨天突然被那条水归类为gia su gia xi...觉得有点被炸倒。我告诉他，我进了大学4年，没有目标，只要pass完毕业可以出来找到工作就算了，不敢梦想什么。他告诉我：pass完也是目标，不要假假。(=.=") 然后又说：如果那么没目标，为什么还要做功课，温习，考到好成绩？(-___-) Well... 就算pass完毕业也是个目标，如果不做功课，不温习，难道可以保证我会pass完吗？如果可以那我真的甘愿不读了。最后我还被他称为：那些嘴巴说不care成绩但是又那么用功读书的gia su gia xi的人... (@.@!!!) 那一刻，我无言了... 完全被炸倒粉碎了。

感觉上就像是小孩子在发牢骚那样。哈哈。真不知是可笑还是可悲。这世界上，还有另一样东西，叫做“责任感”，希望他能够明白这一点。我不care我考到什么成绩，但是身为学生，我有责任去学习。我必须完成我的功课。功课做完了，温习完了，考试了，考到什么样就听天由命，都无所谓了。仅此而已。如果我介意的，就会像那些gia su gia xi人那样，有pass year也不和大家分享，考试时坐在那些高手的身边，成绩不好去质问老师和要求重改，mid term考不好要求再加一个mid term，或是要求降低mid term的分数...

其实由头到尾，重点是在你怎么看待你自己，怎么去履行你的责任。就是这么简单。但是人往往就会妒忌别人，然后对别人所做的一切都感到不满，结果就这样忽略了自己应做的本份。想让他知道的是，我只是默默地坚持着我那卑微的责任，完成我那卑微的目标。就是因为这样，我才能够生存到现在，才能够至今屹立不倒。不是我比任何人强，不是我比任何人gia su gia xi，而是我比任何人都看得开...虽然有时也有执著的地方:-P 但是，已经快24岁了，大家学习让自己的思想成熟些吧！难道我就思想很成熟吗？那不一定，但是我至今经历的人生和大家大不相同，比较成熟也不意外。还记得一年级的时候，我的级任老师告诉我：你思想太成熟了，你应该活得更像你的年龄才对啊！哈哈...难听点应该是“老水”吧？T.T

分享完毕。又要开始埋头苦干了。无论如何，心里面还是希望快快毕业...实在没办法享受与爱上大学生活...唉...

SEIT Graduation Night Dinner

Well... a bunch of students who haven't even graduated... gathered here for a dinner under the event so called "Graduation Dinner"... eating and fooling around... having fun together... enjoying the very last moment together with all course mates and friends...

About 2 more months to go... just hope everything goes well and really can graduate peacefully...

Nothing...

Busy FYP

These few days internet down

Going home for CNY this Friday

Nothing special recently...

Wait for more update in near future...

I HATE GROUP WORK

Half semester already... and I'm still... wondering around... this semester although has many classes to attend... but assignment loads are reasonable... but FYP is the main problem... yet I had spent most of my time doing my FYP... but my progress now... can say is just 30-40% maybe... sigh... really is waiting to die now... yet there is no time left... and yet people can still so relax and wasting their time doing nothing... sometime I just hope that I can live my life like them... but I can't do so... sigh...

Just posted a shout out in Facebook stating "I hate group work"... yup... there're still some group work left in this semester... 2 presentation and my FYP also is group work one... damn... I really hate group work ever since the 1st year in my university. Group work is just a reason for people to be lazy and slacking off while others will work like dog and worry everyday... because I can't live my life like the others did... so in the end I was the poor dog all the time... what to do? Have to do it no matter what... and this is the thing that those people are exploiting... sigh...

Half more semester to go... just hope that I can manage to finish my FYP on time... as for study... don't really care already because what result I get also won't bring any effects to my CGPA anymore ^^ that's why I'd been a bit lazy for the mid terms and I guess I died beautifully in all of them... anyway... I got no time to bother about that as there are more important things to deal with. Just hope that the left over half semester of my university life can end as soon as possible... I don't want to stay here any longer!!!

people...

It's been awhile since my last update... well, seems like this had become the usual starting phrase in my post ^^ anyway, kind of busy recently... and don't really have the mood to do anythings as well... tired... stressed... boring... many feelings... mostly negative some more... sigh... what the hell had went wrong...

People are still relaxing and having their sweet time while I'm busy and rushing my Final Year Project... let them be... they will be the one rushing soon...

People keep on going out and having fun... so call last semester and must fully enjoy... Well, no comment... sometime really need to rest my mind... but not as frequent as what they did... I'm not rich at all... need to start save some money for my future...

People keep on complaining this and that... well actually all they need to do is just use their brain and think... think for others... think from others point of view...

People keep on say group work is good... honestly I hate group work because it means everyone is expecting others to do the job... in the end I'm the only one who complete everything... end up as group work = individual work...

Getting kind of emotional recently... thinking about a lot of things... past... present... and future... wonder why can't stop thinking about anything as others did... well, I guess that's what differ me from the others I guess... sigh...

1st week back in Sabah

My first week back here... starts with a whole lot of excitement... but ends up with a bunch of frustration...

Classes had finally started normally... just hope everything will be fine... so far so good... let's see what I can do this semester. Another thing will be the final year project, which is also the main thing for me this semester... hardness test has been repeated for many times and yet I still need to repeat myself to do it again... well, never mind... what to do? I have to get the result I want, no choice. But it is really tiring... because have to entertain many people... not just my supervisor only, but many other people... sigh... just hope it ends soon... although everyone still lazy with their project, doesn't mean I can stay still like them too.

Just hope no problem in my project as so far there's already enough problem from every single aspects... damn it... that's why I hate doing things like this...

Finally begins... my last journey

New hair cut...

New shirts...

New pants...

New pencil case...

New spectacles...

New water bottle...

New watch...

All these are not important...

What most important is...

A WHOLE NEW ME...

To tackle new challenges ahead...

To tackle new problems ahead...

To tackle new troubles ahead...

To tackle new enemies ahead...

And most importantly...

To tackle myself...

To keep on evolving...

To keep on changing...

To a better a more complete me in years to come!

let me go home~

Going home tomorrow... miss my home? Well... I donno... it's already 4 years... getting use to it already... anyway, it is nice to be heading home... finally reaching a place where I can really rest myself, taking off the mask, taking off all the armor and barriers on me... to be myself back again. Looking forward to have some badminton games with all the great players back there... Looking forward to all the shopping and yam cha-ing back with all my friends... Looking forward to model more and more Gundam... ^^

For those who got browse through my Gundam page... I'm currently renovating that page and it is almost done. Since this page already renovated, so everything will stay the same. Will try to finish as much movies and dramas as possible from my hard disk... when I go to Singapore that time I want to focus in completing my thesis already... a whole lot of works are waiting for me to do.

All in all... hope for a safe trip back home... and hope that it will really be a great holiday for me, a long waited one...

End of 4th year 1st sem

Yup... as the title say... finally... it's all over... this semester really is giving me a hard time... who say that final year is very relaxing? Anyway... decided to take the elective of Aircon instead of Automation... become the minority... but I never regret on my choice. Should be able to score some good result in Aircon... Control is a hard subject... I'm always not that good in derivation and stuff like that... should be die beautifully on that this semester... then another weird subject Microprocessing... nothing related to mechanical at all... not really that hard actually... just we are not used to those kind of things only... Maintenance... nothing much to say about this subject as the lecturer also a sucky one... just see how many marks he wan to offer to me and that's all...

The subject that brought the most trouble will be the Law and Ethics... damn that idiot lecturer causing so many trouble for all 4th year engineering student... maybe all old people also the same... do things didn't think with their brain or their brain already unusable... every week will have one assignment and his answer towards the assignment is so not logical at all... then suppose to teach Law and Ethics for Engineering... but he is teaching Business Laws and Ethics... sigh... a hopeless subject...

My final year project is full of ups and downs... kinda don't know what my supervisor want sometimes... he keep on giving extra things into my project... making it to become a huge project now... definitely can't complete all the task he gave... so I will ignore him and start doing things that i want to do only... his guidance was ok... but he expect too much from us... is good to have expectation to move us... but... sorry to disappoint him all the time... and as for the presentation of project progress... totally screwed up... my supervisor say I talk too fast and too much of reading only... sigh... what to do... only have 1 day time to prepare the slide and also the presentation... that's the best I can do already... at the very least I manage to answer all the question throw by examiner and the chairperson... that's the luckiest part... although i spoiled my image in front of my supervisor...

Aside from academic... nothing much happen to me throughout this semester... too busy to have anything to happen to me... really really no time at all...everyday rush assignments only... never stops... maybe is a good thing to be busy also... so that... i won't think too much......

Looking forward to this holiday... want to rest and enjoy myself... but still I will try my best to further enhance my project... if I still remember about it during this holiday of course... XD just hope that next semester I can really impress my supervisor... once would already be enough...

Chi Ma Gan... 2

Still remember I told you guys about the Chi Ma Gan friend awhile ago? For those who forgot or donno... please kindly refer to this post http://gpwk-no-monogatari.blogspot.com/2009/10/chi-ma-gan.html

Ok... so what story I'm going to tell this time? Well, is about him also... the other day he said sorry to me... fine... then everything is over... Yup... at least that is what i thought... but actually things never over yet. on Tuesday, there was a exam... the question is totally the same as the past year question... so those questions that we manage to find the answers and memorized we can easily answer them all, only left a few questions which we can't find the answer, so it is up to everyone to write in his or her own way... it is a 2 hour and 30 minutes paper... not really feeling well that day... but not really sick also... just not feeling well... go in, sit down and start vomit out everything I memorized... that Chi Ma Gan friend sit beside me... after I finish answer all the question, 1 hour has passed by. So I sit there and double check my answers.

Normally, we will try to compare answers in the final... Yup... although is a bit illegal to do such thing... but we do compare... but that day the examiner is damn strict, keep on catch people who peek to the side or compare answer or cheating or anything... well, I sit there for 30 minutes more and already a bunch of people was caught and their name were copied down by the examiner... well, I don't know will there be any further action taken or not... anyway, since is already last year... so why should I take the risk? Although there are about 1 question plus that I don't know the answer, I just write anything in and pass up the answer and leave the exam hall... since sit there also nothing to do...

Then, here comes the problem... after the exam, the Chi Ma Gan friend put on his MSN msg scolding me... words like "WTF! RUSH WHAT 7? SO RUSH FOR WAT 7? GO HOME SLEEP WHAT 7? TEAMWORK! FFFF!" and many more keep on come out from his MSN personal message there... then I ask my friend only found out that he did wrongly a question... is a calculation question... very easy question... well, I really no idea why he can get it wrong... I didn't even study that question because I didn't expect he will come out that... and yet I can answer it... he keep on study the past year... and yet he can't answer it... and now he blame me for leave early and didn't check answer or show him the correct way to do? WHAT THE HELL IS THAT?

My friend say that Chi Ma Gan fella got ask her to compare the answer... and when they found out the answer is different, she did show him the correct answer... and he didn't trust her and didn't follow her answer... and PUT THE BLAME ON ME! FUCK HIM! Then next time he can't PANGSAI also is MY FAULT is it? People give him correct answer he don't want copy and say I made him do wrong that question? What IDIOT THEORY is this? He really didn't use his brain to think at all... only want to make sure his answer is correct then risking others to be caught by the examiner as cheating...

And the best part is... Today there's another paper... and he didn't sit beside me and sit with others... and he compare answer and ask for solution from the guy beside him... and end up he is been caught and his name was taken by the examiner... well, I don't know should I laugh as loud as I can on his brainless act... but I do very pity the guy who sit beside him... innocence... and being drag into that Chi Ma Gan fella's dunk of shit... after that he still showing black face to me and didn't even talk to me... let him be... really no eye see him already... maybe his mind already lose control because he is going crazy to chase for his First Class Degree...

Again and again... he just didn't realize what he done is wrong... and I'm the one to be blame... I'm never mind... I'm already used to be blame by the world... just pity them for not being able to face their problems and fault by themselves... Just hope that I won't meet with any other people that Chi Ma Gan like this in my future... God bless me... and GOD DAMN THEM!

Why still haven't reach the end...

Final exam is ending soon... tomorrow will take another paper, then follow by Thursday and next Monday will be the last paper... but still not yet holiday because need to prepare for presentation for the Final Year Project progress... after 18 November only can officially declare holiday to me... but still have to settle the lab for my FYP... so many things still awaits to be done... sigh... anyway, I will be back on 27 November, will reach KL at night... so guys and girls... please start making appointment with me before I'm fully booked... haha...

Shit lo... tomorrow exam I'm still blogging now... totally no mood to study already... wait die only...

T-T

Chi Ma Gan...

"Chi Ma Gan" in Cantonese means someone had gone crazy, mad or insane. Well, recently a friend of mine really had become Chi Ma Gan already... I wonder did he realized it or not, maybe he is not, but maybe he do but just didn't admit it, but people around all noticed it... just no one really care what's going on with him... well, his Chi Ma Gan symptom actually already last for more than a month... at first everyone thought that it is just a normal transition of his emotion... sometimes people just will feel a bit down... but after this long period everyone started to believe that he is not in that situation... there's really something wrong with him... stress? Well, I don't know.

Forget about other incidents that occurred for the pass 1 month, the most recent case was happened yesterday... when he started to went mad again.

Class start at 10am, I reached the classroom and he is already in the room... so I sit beside him... the 1st thing come to my mind is... he finally looks to be back to normal already... the next thing i notice is he is doing the homework which need to pass up during that class... ok... the things come to my mind is: he skipped the 8-10am class and yet still haven't finish the homework? Never mind, sometimes things like that just happen during study... so I take a look at what he is doing... and I found out that he is doing it wrongly. So I decided to tell him about it.

"Hey, your graph wrong already."

"Correct ar, where got wrong?"

"Wrong already... see the minimum value... so big... wrong already..."

"Correct what? Given the value is 20, so i drop for 20 on the y-axis ma..."

"No, the value given is slope, not y-axis value..."

"Har?"

"Slope ar... the value is slope! Not do like your way... you donno how to calculate the slope with it?"

"ARGH... YALA YALA !!"

Then he slams all the books, bags, water bottle and sit at somewhere else...

So... what is really going wrong? I really wonder... if he think the way I speak pissed him out... then I would really say sorry on that... but the problem is... I don't really think there is a problem... I just want to make sure he submit the correct answer... so in the end I guess what I did wrongly is... I shouldn't be busy body and go bother about what others did... sigh... am I angry? YES, of course! Suddenly scolded and yelled by people without any solid reason... why can't I get angry about it? If he is stressed out, I can understand... sometime people just can't hold the stress and will explode out... but at least please do apologize after such action... scold people as you like due to stress is not a reason for you to act like a barbarian...

Some more he put in his MSN message saying "if the same thing happen over and over again, please think of it is it your fault or not"... I'm not sure is he showing it to me or not... assume he is, then what the hell does that mean? I do really think back is it really my problem or not... for all his act... I can't think of a reason which is caused by something that I had done wrong... honestly... I will only pissed people that pissed me off... that is my policy... the rest I won't treat them bad in any way... sigh... maybe he is just not happy because I force him to stay back during the holiday to work on the thesis experiment... although I don't think such issue can become any major problem... it makes me feel like want to throw the same phrase back to him now...

"if the same thing happen over and over again, please think of it is it your fault or not!"

Sigh... what is it that went wrong... can someone tell me...