Happy New Year 2010

Happy New Year 2010!

Hope that I can graduate successfully this year ^^

Hope to earn a lot money ^^

But have to hope to get a good job first ^^

Then hope to get big car & big house ^^

Then credit card, cash, investment and etc ^^

Okay, back to reality...

Hope I'm still alive in 2010... (die already nothing can happen ^^)

Hope I'll stay healthy in 2010... (sick already got money also no use ^^)

Hope I'll solve all the problems I have (if not can't concentrate in earn money ^^)

Hope that my friends and family will stay healthy and happy always (if not I won't be happy also)

Well, nothing wrong to dream wildly...

It's New Year Eve anyway!

Happy New Year to everyone!

Merry Christmas Everyone

Shopping...

Shopping...

And more shopping...

^^

and some travelling...

IS time TO move ON and START working!

Safely Arrived at Singapore

Few days had passed after reaching Singapore... so far nothing much had been done yet. Still getting myself settle down and some rest... soon need to start my thesis work... keep on saying this over and over again to ensure I won't forget about it... haha... doing some shopping around Singapore when arrived... Levi's jeans selling at only S$39, which means... less than RM100 you can get a Levi's jeans... a GREAT deal indeed... anyway, nothing much to shop around actually. Just want to walk around and see around... and probably hope to meet with some old friends staying in Singapore... it's been awhile since the last time I gather with them...

Anyway, I should have post something earlier but because the stupid LCCT and stupid Air Asia drained all my energy away, so therefore I'd been exhausted for quite some time. Don't know what's wrong with their system... like rubbish nowadays... for people who will be taking flight in LCCT... please go there as early as possible...

Christmas is coming! I'd already received by Christmas present... from my relative... haha... like it... wonder what it is? Hehe... don't want to tell... yet...

KL ---> Singapore

My holiday at KL is ending soon... this Sunday will depart to Singapore, to rest myself and also to accompany my grandmother... looking back my holiday in KL... just a short and about 2 weeks time... many things had happened in such a short period... there are happy moments... there are sad moments... well, already get used to all of these stuffs... sigh...

Need to start work again on my thesis after reaching Singapore... must make full use of the great internet speed over there and gather as many information as possible and digest them all... don't want to disappoint my supervisor again and again...

To all the friends I'd failed to meet during this holiday, sorry! For those who making effort in meeting me... thank you! I'll be back again for Chinese New Year break... so, hopefully we will be able to meet during that time. Till then... good luck to everyone I know in whatever things you are doing.

What a day...

Tired... nothing much to describe my feeling now... saw my Kelisa so dirty... so I go and wash it this morning... then saw the MyVi also dirty... so washed both... Tired... then want go to Time Square to buy something... but end up my Kelisa die in the middle of the road in my half way trip... luckily my car die in front of a garage... so just ask for help to push it into the shop for checking and repair... RM50 gone for a pipe change... T.T Tired... then finally reached Sg Wang area... JAM!! Because got sports car exhibition ON THE ROAD!! WTF!! Can't they find a better place to exhibit those cars? Again... Tired! Parked my car... then do some price surveying... walk between Sg Wang, Low Yat and Time Square... TIRED!! Then finally bought my things in Time Square... then need to put it back to my car in Sg Wang... then go back all the way to Time Square to redeem a free gift because what I bought was too big and heavy to carry around... TIRED~ then have to go to my sister's house... because there's a dinner at night at Sunway... now I'm totally exhausted... sigh...

6 December 2009

It is my sister's wedding day... drink tea ceremony in the morning... dinner in the night... everything smooth although a bit rushing and confuse sometimes... anyway, glad that finally everything is settled... so tired everyday but it's ok... seeing all relatives gather around feels a bit touched... mix feeling these few days... congrats to both of them and may happiness embrace them.

Shopping spree...

Well... went to KLCC this morning to collect my magazine... then I went to 1 Utama to shop for some paint and accessories for my modeling work... next... IKEA... looking for some nice cabinet to put my Gundam models... found something nice there, but was unable to carry it by myself... so have to find someone to carry it with me some other days... hehe... finally I went to The Curve... then I made a purchase of a new spectacles... it's been 3 years since the last time I change my specs!

Well... due to handphone no battery, so didn't really took any picture... wait till all the stuff are in my hand that time only I post some picture here... hehe... by the way... KLCC finally don't have the "Tallest Christmas Tree" as decoration already this year... they are putting some very ordinary ginger man and candy house... 1 Utama is putting White Christmas theme... as for The Curve... I didn't really see it exactly... hehe... damn tired... tomorrow will continue to shopping and play... ^^

Busy holiday...

Well... finally is holiday back at hometown... but still I'm so busy... busy with different things only... when only I will be able to have some sweet time to rest... T.T

Well... meanwhile just have to enjoy all my "busy-ness"... ^^

let me go home~

Going home tomorrow... miss my home? Well... I donno... it's already 4 years... getting use to it already... anyway, it is nice to be heading home... finally reaching a place where I can really rest myself, taking off the mask, taking off all the armor and barriers on me... to be myself back again. Looking forward to have some badminton games with all the great players back there... Looking forward to all the shopping and yam cha-ing back with all my friends... Looking forward to model more and more Gundam... ^^

For those who got browse through my Gundam page... I'm currently renovating that page and it is almost done. Since this page already renovated, so everything will stay the same. Will try to finish as much movies and dramas as possible from my hard disk... when I go to Singapore that time I want to focus in completing my thesis already... a whole lot of works are waiting for me to do.

All in all... hope for a safe trip back home... and hope that it will really be a great holiday for me, a long waited one...

靠近 - 李圣杰

很有感觉的一首歌...也许因为唱到我心底的感受了...唉...

走在人挤人的走道
我问了自己
没有爱情的人
是否会长命
那些常常让人感觉甜蜜
但是我 不相信

坐在没有人的角落
我也问自己
究竟应该继续还是该放弃
没有人能了解我
现在的心情
想看你想躲你
难以决定

每当我想靠近
你总会装冷静
眼看你的表情
仿佛已经说明
我只想要证明
我们这段爱情
也许在你眼里
他只是个游戏

我只想要靠紧
也很想要抱紧
回想到那过去
和现在新的你
我还想要参与
你的生活点滴
只要你肯相信
我一定会陪你走下去

能不能让我再说我爱你
还是你已不想听
能不能够把你彻底的忘记
我是真的搞不清

只要你再相信
我们会轻轻地靠在一起

End of 4th year 1st sem

Yup... as the title say... finally... it's all over... this semester really is giving me a hard time... who say that final year is very relaxing? Anyway... decided to take the elective of Aircon instead of Automation... become the minority... but I never regret on my choice. Should be able to score some good result in Aircon... Control is a hard subject... I'm always not that good in derivation and stuff like that... should be die beautifully on that this semester... then another weird subject Microprocessing... nothing related to mechanical at all... not really that hard actually... just we are not used to those kind of things only... Maintenance... nothing much to say about this subject as the lecturer also a sucky one... just see how many marks he wan to offer to me and that's all...

The subject that brought the most trouble will be the Law and Ethics... damn that idiot lecturer causing so many trouble for all 4th year engineering student... maybe all old people also the same... do things didn't think with their brain or their brain already unusable... every week will have one assignment and his answer towards the assignment is so not logical at all... then suppose to teach Law and Ethics for Engineering... but he is teaching Business Laws and Ethics... sigh... a hopeless subject...

My final year project is full of ups and downs... kinda don't know what my supervisor want sometimes... he keep on giving extra things into my project... making it to become a huge project now... definitely can't complete all the task he gave... so I will ignore him and start doing things that i want to do only... his guidance was ok... but he expect too much from us... is good to have expectation to move us... but... sorry to disappoint him all the time... and as for the presentation of project progress... totally screwed up... my supervisor say I talk too fast and too much of reading only... sigh... what to do... only have 1 day time to prepare the slide and also the presentation... that's the best I can do already... at the very least I manage to answer all the question throw by examiner and the chairperson... that's the luckiest part... although i spoiled my image in front of my supervisor...

Aside from academic... nothing much happen to me throughout this semester... too busy to have anything to happen to me... really really no time at all...everyday rush assignments only... never stops... maybe is a good thing to be busy also... so that... i won't think too much......

Looking forward to this holiday... want to rest and enjoy myself... but still I will try my best to further enhance my project... if I still remember about it during this holiday of course... XD just hope that next semester I can really impress my supervisor... once would already be enough...

等 - 陈百强/梅艳芳

第一次听到这首歌,是在黄子华和梅艳芳的“男歌女唱”那套戏里。其实当时听到的时候就已经喜欢上这首歌，最近才找了很久都找不到梅艳芳版本的，所以就听了陈百强的原唱版。一样的好听，一样的感动。歌词很有意思，听着心也跟着浸湿了...

希望...这样的事情，不会发生在我的身上...

等　寂寞到夜深　夜已漸荒涼　夜已漸昏暗

莫道你在選擇人　人亦能選擇你　公平原沒半點偏心

苦澀　慢慢向著心裡滲　何必抱怨　曾令醉心是誰人

自願吻別心上人　糊塗換來一生淚印　何故明是痛苦傷心

還含著笑裝開心　今宵的你可憐還可憫

目睹她遠去　她的腳印心中會永印

糊塗是你的一顆心　他朝你將無窮的後悔　這一生你的心裡滿哀困

Chi Ma Gan... 2

Still remember I told you guys about the Chi Ma Gan friend awhile ago? For those who forgot or donno... please kindly refer to this post http://gpwk-no-monogatari.blogspot.com/2009/10/chi-ma-gan.html

Ok... so what story I'm going to tell this time? Well, is about him also... the other day he said sorry to me... fine... then everything is over... Yup... at least that is what i thought... but actually things never over yet. on Tuesday, there was a exam... the question is totally the same as the past year question... so those questions that we manage to find the answers and memorized we can easily answer them all, only left a few questions which we can't find the answer, so it is up to everyone to write in his or her own way... it is a 2 hour and 30 minutes paper... not really feeling well that day... but not really sick also... just not feeling well... go in, sit down and start vomit out everything I memorized... that Chi Ma Gan friend sit beside me... after I finish answer all the question, 1 hour has passed by. So I sit there and double check my answers.

Normally, we will try to compare answers in the final... Yup... although is a bit illegal to do such thing... but we do compare... but that day the examiner is damn strict, keep on catch people who peek to the side or compare answer or cheating or anything... well, I sit there for 30 minutes more and already a bunch of people was caught and their name were copied down by the examiner... well, I don't know will there be any further action taken or not... anyway, since is already last year... so why should I take the risk? Although there are about 1 question plus that I don't know the answer, I just write anything in and pass up the answer and leave the exam hall... since sit there also nothing to do...

Then, here comes the problem... after the exam, the Chi Ma Gan friend put on his MSN msg scolding me... words like "WTF! RUSH WHAT 7? SO RUSH FOR WAT 7? GO HOME SLEEP WHAT 7? TEAMWORK! FFFF!" and many more keep on come out from his MSN personal message there... then I ask my friend only found out that he did wrongly a question... is a calculation question... very easy question... well, I really no idea why he can get it wrong... I didn't even study that question because I didn't expect he will come out that... and yet I can answer it... he keep on study the past year... and yet he can't answer it... and now he blame me for leave early and didn't check answer or show him the correct way to do? WHAT THE HELL IS THAT?

My friend say that Chi Ma Gan fella got ask her to compare the answer... and when they found out the answer is different, she did show him the correct answer... and he didn't trust her and didn't follow her answer... and PUT THE BLAME ON ME! FUCK HIM! Then next time he can't PANGSAI also is MY FAULT is it? People give him correct answer he don't want copy and say I made him do wrong that question? What IDIOT THEORY is this? He really didn't use his brain to think at all... only want to make sure his answer is correct then risking others to be caught by the examiner as cheating...

And the best part is... Today there's another paper... and he didn't sit beside me and sit with others... and he compare answer and ask for solution from the guy beside him... and end up he is been caught and his name was taken by the examiner... well, I don't know should I laugh as loud as I can on his brainless act... but I do very pity the guy who sit beside him... innocence... and being drag into that Chi Ma Gan fella's dunk of shit... after that he still showing black face to me and didn't even talk to me... let him be... really no eye see him already... maybe his mind already lose control because he is going crazy to chase for his First Class Degree...

Again and again... he just didn't realize what he done is wrong... and I'm the one to be blame... I'm never mind... I'm already used to be blame by the world... just pity them for not being able to face their problems and fault by themselves... Just hope that I won't meet with any other people that Chi Ma Gan like this in my future... God bless me... and GOD DAMN THEM!

陈威全 - 中途转机

很久以前听到了这首歌...

最近找回了...

连歌手是谁，长什么样子都不知道...

但是，这是一首不错的歌曲...

歌词也很不错...

听了，心也有一点酸酸的...

希望...她...不会是...中途转机...

最后一班的飞机划过天际
你和爱情的可见度越来越低
你的制服 依旧神气
最后一次送机
我在逆风中假装坚定

我知道其实你并不是故意
只是你还是比较喜欢飞行
我的天空 多不多云
气流稳不稳定
不如机舱的一件行李

原来你只是过境
没想过要安定
反而是我太任性
以为地面的风景 比天空美丽

原来你中途转机
只是路过了这里
顺便谱一段情
天空才是你最后的目的地

我的登记证握在手里
却早已过了期

Why still haven't reach the end...

Final exam is ending soon... tomorrow will take another paper, then follow by Thursday and next Monday will be the last paper... but still not yet holiday because need to prepare for presentation for the Final Year Project progress... after 18 November only can officially declare holiday to me... but still have to settle the lab for my FYP... so many things still awaits to be done... sigh... anyway, I will be back on 27 November, will reach KL at night... so guys and girls... please start making appointment with me before I'm fully booked... haha...

Shit lo... tomorrow exam I'm still blogging now... totally no mood to study already... wait die only...

T-T

Another year ~ In Remembrance

Finally… two years passed by… living my live normally… but once in awhile will think of him… when think of him, it will make me feel a bit sad… and tears will be falling… but it is good to hold such memory with me… this year, as usual, spending my day listening to some sentimental songs, becoming a vegetarian for one day, looking back at his pictures and videos, thinking back the old days when we used to be together… this will continue on year after year…

May God bless him… may he relieve himself from all the pain and sorrows, and continue his life into a better one… although we are far apart from each other now, but our hearts will still be together…

Thank you for everything.

Rest in peace… my dear rabbit…

Year 2008:

http://gpwk-no-monogatari.blogspot.com/2008/11/in-remembrance-to-my-rabbit-with-love.html

Year 2007:

http://to-my-rabbit-with-love.blogspot.com/

给天国的信

好久没见了，不知道现在的你还好吗？两年没见了，过得怎样了？开心吗？幸福吗？不要像以前那样，那么挑食，不然的话会很难找吃的，知道吗？记得不要那么调皮，不要那么坏脾气，要学会乖一点，不然样子长得那么帅都没有用了。

大家都过得很好，你不用担心。家里最近装修了，后面那块让你玩耍的空地已经没了。屋子其他地方也都修饰了，渐渐的，你以前留下的痕迹也慢慢的消失了。不过，我还有收着几张被你咬了几口的纸张，看来那是我现在唯一剩下的，你存在过的痕迹了…我的床也换了，但是姐姐的床现在让了给我，还记得那张蓝色的床吗？你很喜欢跳上去的，不是吗？现在在我的房间里了，随时欢迎你来玩闹一下。但是，房间因为装修变大了一些，不要以为进错了房间而吓了一跳哦…

大姐要结婚了，你知道吗？你应该没看过他吧？已经注册了，一个月后是婚礼，如果你能来，我想大家都会很高兴的，但是，应该不可能吧…虽然结婚了，但是她还是依然那么的爱你的，你放心好了。你在我们的心目中有着不可替代的位置的。希望你能够祝福他们… 二姐也过的很好，不用担心。不过养了许多的小老鼠…不是变心了啦，不要怕。可以的话，记得也要好好保佑她，知道吗？当然少不了我妈…你也受了不少她的恩惠，如果不是她，你哪里会天天都有那么多好吃的菜？她好像最近常常生病，所以希望你能够照看她一下，好吗？我还有半年就毕业了，毕业后应该会回到家里住，在附近找一份工作吧？应该是吧，还不是很清楚。有一些舍不得那间家啊…

希望你在天之灵已经得以安息。如果已经找到一户好人家投胎了，那就更好不过了。没能赶得上看你最后一眼，对不起。但是，庆幸的我还是赶得上送你最后一程。谢谢你给过我们的一切。祝福你。

It's November...

The day is approaching...

wonder will I be ok or not...

well...

I don't really think so...

starts to get moody and feeling down just to realize the day is coming soon...

I guess tears will start falling pretty soon...

自来也豪杰物语

Actually it is not really a news... for those who read the manga of Naruto... everyone should have know that Jiraiya is dead... yes... but for the anime, finally, this week released the story about it... a mix feeling in heart... although I'd already know he is going to die... but when watching it, I will still shout as loud in my heart: Don't give up! Jiraiya! Don't die!

Jiraiya... saying that he wasted his life and live for nothing... but actually he is not. He is strong... being the legendary ninja from Konoha... then follow by rejecting to become as the Hokage... until he had manage to save the 3 kids who killed him eventually... and the best of it is being able to bring up Naruto from a good for nothing idiot to a strong and promising leader.

It is sad for his departure... although he seems like worthless all the time, but he was such a great man... a great man that deserves the tributes from everyone... his sacrifice, his will, his mind, his thought... nothing will be wasted and buried with him under the soil... they will keep on living in the others heart... as the flame of Konoha will never dies...

Rest In Peace...

we are RAPED by Mc Donald's...

I wonder is it applicable to you or not... but I think is applicable at least to most of the people out there... believe it or not, admit it or not... WE ARE ALL RAPED BY MC DONALD'S!!

What am I trying to say here? Well... it all happened when they introduce the Mc Value Lunch... everyone in the town was going crazy on this promotion...

"WTF! So cheap!! RM6 for a McD meal!!"

Soon... our McD started to become one of the main choice for lunch already... isn't this something good? Well, it is... but there are some down side too... try to think of it... is the number of time you eat McD during dinner reduced drastically? Can you get my point now? YES! Now you realized that for the past few months, McD only appears in your lunch menu and not in your dinner!

"Dinner eat what?"

"McD?"

"You crazy? Eat McD at night? Eat for lunch can lah~"

By the time we saying others are stupid for eating McD at time other than 12-3pm... think again... we are actually a bit into the stupid condition also for forcing ourselves to only eat McD for lunch... letting McD to RAPE us under the sun... ^.^

So... will I still limit myself to eat McD as lunch only? Well... since I'm kind of poor right now... so what can I do besides trying to "enjoy" myself for being rape by McD for awhile... haha...

To be rape... Or not to be rape...

Chi Ma Gan...

"Chi Ma Gan" in Cantonese means someone had gone crazy, mad or insane. Well, recently a friend of mine really had become Chi Ma Gan already... I wonder did he realized it or not, maybe he is not, but maybe he do but just didn't admit it, but people around all noticed it... just no one really care what's going on with him... well, his Chi Ma Gan symptom actually already last for more than a month... at first everyone thought that it is just a normal transition of his emotion... sometimes people just will feel a bit down... but after this long period everyone started to believe that he is not in that situation... there's really something wrong with him... stress? Well, I don't know.

Forget about other incidents that occurred for the pass 1 month, the most recent case was happened yesterday... when he started to went mad again.

Class start at 10am, I reached the classroom and he is already in the room... so I sit beside him... the 1st thing come to my mind is... he finally looks to be back to normal already... the next thing i notice is he is doing the homework which need to pass up during that class... ok... the things come to my mind is: he skipped the 8-10am class and yet still haven't finish the homework? Never mind, sometimes things like that just happen during study... so I take a look at what he is doing... and I found out that he is doing it wrongly. So I decided to tell him about it.

"Hey, your graph wrong already."

"Correct ar, where got wrong?"

"Wrong already... see the minimum value... so big... wrong already..."

"Correct what? Given the value is 20, so i drop for 20 on the y-axis ma..."

"No, the value given is slope, not y-axis value..."

"Har?"

"Slope ar... the value is slope! Not do like your way... you donno how to calculate the slope with it?"

"ARGH... YALA YALA !!"

Then he slams all the books, bags, water bottle and sit at somewhere else...

So... what is really going wrong? I really wonder... if he think the way I speak pissed him out... then I would really say sorry on that... but the problem is... I don't really think there is a problem... I just want to make sure he submit the correct answer... so in the end I guess what I did wrongly is... I shouldn't be busy body and go bother about what others did... sigh... am I angry? YES, of course! Suddenly scolded and yelled by people without any solid reason... why can't I get angry about it? If he is stressed out, I can understand... sometime people just can't hold the stress and will explode out... but at least please do apologize after such action... scold people as you like due to stress is not a reason for you to act like a barbarian...

Some more he put in his MSN message saying "if the same thing happen over and over again, please think of it is it your fault or not"... I'm not sure is he showing it to me or not... assume he is, then what the hell does that mean? I do really think back is it really my problem or not... for all his act... I can't think of a reason which is caused by something that I had done wrong... honestly... I will only pissed people that pissed me off... that is my policy... the rest I won't treat them bad in any way... sigh... maybe he is just not happy because I force him to stay back during the holiday to work on the thesis experiment... although I don't think such issue can become any major problem... it makes me feel like want to throw the same phrase back to him now...

"if the same thing happen over and over again, please think of it is it your fault or not!"

Sigh... what is it that went wrong... can someone tell me...

My Eldest Sister's Marriage Website

Walau... nowadays what also go online... so marriage also go online already... check out my eldest sister's wedding website at the following link... got their wedding photo uploaded... and got prove that my sister is showed on 8TV!! Haha... anyway... congratz again for them... wishing them living happily ever after...

http://www.mywedding.com/wailoonhuiyin/

Here are a few great photos... looking forward for the big day on 6th December!

Legal right?

“Finland has made broadband access a legal right for their people”

This is a statement that has been in debating recently. Yes, everyone cheers towards Finland’s action for putting this in the parliament and enforcing it in the end. Many friends of mine asked me the same question recently that “when will Malaysia have such right put up?”

Well, my answer is just very simple… NEVER!

I’m not just saying this for fun or looking down on over government, indeed I reason this with a few point of view… people in Malaysia didn’t even have the legal right to speak freely, what else do you expect? Yup, anyone who talks bad about government… CAUGHT! Anyone who tells the truth… CAUGHT! Anyone who want to guide Malaysia back to the correct path… CAUGHT! Malaysia should be a nation with freedom, yup, SHOULD BE, by context of the “Perlembagaan”, indeed we were. But things turn out just not as it may seem to be…

I would suggest that the reason why Malaysians are often categorized as “unfriendly” is because we as a Malaysian just want to keep ourselves away from any trouble. We were educated by over government in such way to ignore what you see and mind your own business. Not true? Well, there’s the so call ISA which protect Malaysia from people who try to harm the nation… who decides one individual is he or she harming the nation? Well, I would suggest the government, and in the end the roots of the so called government will be those politicians.

In Malaysia, anything can become a politic issue… so anything will become an issue which can cause harm to the nation… so ISA can just catch anyone with any reason. Don’t think so? Well, Arvil Lavinge and Beyonce want to come and have a concert in Malaysia… this is good in economic aspect, but it is a political issue… they are not allowed to come here because they dressed sexy… who decides that? The politician of course. Come on! Just go and get yourself a newspaper and you will realize really any tiny little thing that happen in Malaysia can also turn into a political issue… even now when I’m writing this, Malaysia government also can just simply suspend my account and close down my site…

Well, is not that I want to create any chaos here. I’m a Malaysian; I love Malaysia, that’s why it hurts when things like these happened right in front of my eyes. Just hope that one day I’ll be able to see a real and healthy Malaysia… sigh… hope the politician can learn from other countries and try to do something good for our nation… for our future… just once would be more than enough…

Almost there...

Finally... 1 more week to go before this semester finally ends... but still there are a lot of things haven't finish in the schedule... next week got 2 tests and submission of 2 assignments... then the following week need to hand up the final year project paper work for chapter 1 and 2 together with aircon project... also there's another test during that week... OMG! These things seem like never end... sigh... work hard for it, nothing else can be done... looking forward for the coming holiday... but before that there are still a lot of lab work waiting for me during and after the exam... not to forget there will be a progress presentation for the final year project also after the final exams... T.T

Life is just full of torturing...

思绪。语录

心，忐忑。
已经是第几个夜晚，彻夜未眠
胡思乱想？忧心忡忡？
也许是高估了自己，过于自大
忘记了自己，那渺小的自己

觉得已经放下，但是可能不是
觉得已经放弃，但是可能不是
同时
觉得看见希望，但是可能不是
觉得看见寄托，但是可能不是

一次又一次的，回到了这交叉点
接受现实，追逐梦想
二选一的交叉口，残酷至极
曾经认为，自己已经意志坚定
最后还是，开始动摇

一次接一次的梦碎，也许已该清醒
一次接一次的受伤，也许已该面对
现实，就在眼前折腾着
梦想，只在远处消散着
是时候，坦然接受与面对

但是，还是制止不了
自己，一次又一次的
逃避现实，追逐梦想
结果还是，回到原点
流着泪，流着血

这样的轮回，到底还要转上多少遍
才能让我认命放弃，让我面对现实
或是，让我达到梦想？
理智这样告诉我，别再做梦了
精神这样告诫我，别再气馁了

夜，漫长。
不知所措，惊慌失措
也许寻找一个心灵寄托，也是一种奢侈
那么，让这心灵就此飘散就好了
顶着一个躯壳，行尸走肉的苟且残存下去…

Recent me...

Recently... got a friend keep on complaining about work

No one in the world like working...

What to do beside accept it?

Everyone can do it, I believe you can do it too...

Manage your EQ and mind set properly...

Hope things will be fine for you soon

Recently... got a friend keep on isolating himself

Sometime it is just normal to happen...

Just like girls having period... everyone will feel down once in awhile

But my friend here have been down for almost a month I think

Don't really know why, is it my fault?

Hope he can back to normal soon...

Recently... got too many things to do...

Project, assignment, thesis, lab work...

You name it, I got it...

Damn tired for just rushing them... really no other mood to do other things

Stress, tension, tiring, pressuring, rushing...

Feel like wanna drunk myself again...

Recently... got too many problems...

Too many things that happened against me...

What to do... have to move on

Mood had been down for some time also...

But will keep in for myself only...

Hope to smile in front others even though it's a fake one

天使

希望能够有双翅膀，能够带我逃离这个地方

希望能够有双翅膀，能够让我飞向未知远方

希望能够有双翅膀，能够带我回到过去那方

希望能够有双翅膀，能够让我飞到梦的一方

为了能够有双翅膀，我会努力改变得不一样

为了能够有双翅膀，我愿用尽我的所有力量

为了能够有双翅膀，我不怕越过一座座高墙

为了能够有双翅膀，我把天使化成我的方向

Happy Mid Autumn Festival

Morning raining... so can't go class... then suddenly no electricity during lunch time... then got discussion... later noon after a nap, start working my assignments... evening went for a jog... backside pain now... donno why... dinner is just something usual... go home continue to work out my assignments... then went to friend's house eat snacks and play poker... then go to another friends house later... that's wrap up my day... 1st time in my life didn't play lantern and candles during Mid Autumn... T.T

My Eldest Sister's Marriage Registration

Here I uploaded my eldest sister marriage registration ceremony... on 9th of September 09... hope they really can live happily ever after... T.T unable to attend because I'm at Sabah... anyway, nice clip here posted courtesy of Ethan on Cam... thank you for the video... congratulations to the guy's family as well... looking forward for the wedding dinner end of this year...

If you find this loading slow... try the facebook video here: http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=140550400628

My September...

Recently... very blur... wonder why just don't have the "ohm" to do things... starting of the semester things are different... slowly now getting lazier already I guess... anyway, really no idea whether things are getting better or worst now... last time around I will sleep early and wake early... my mind is fresh and workable during the morning and not at night... this semester so far... things turn out differently... wake up early in the morning but will still tired... zombie around until noon, after lunch then nap for 1 hour... then only start to get some energy pump into me... then sleep at 12 or 2am like that usually... yam cha a lot... but still didn't grow fatter... T.T

Well, that's roughly how's my life now... eat then sleep... then don't know do what and suddenly the end of the day... anyway... tons of work, assignments, projects and etc to be rush in the coming month... enough holiday and really need to start work things out already... hope can push for the rest of the semester...

我的天空

突然想起...确实有那么一句

我的天空今天有点灰...

应该说天天都那么灰才对吧...

乌云密布

也许需要一场倾盆大雨才能雨过天晴

但是，始终没等到大雨的到来

也许需要一阵风才能把乌云吹散

但是，始终没等到那阵风的出现

唉...到底...这阴天要持续到什么时候呢...

李承哲 - 再也没有这样的人

最近一直都让自己陶醉在这首歌之中，《比悲伤更悲伤的故事》的主题曲，非常有感觉的一首歌。希望大家会喜欢。

천번이고 다시 태어난데도
그런 사람 또 없을테죠 음~
슬픈 내 삶을 따뜻하게 해줄
참 고마운 사람입니다
그런 그대를 위해서 나의 심장쯤이야
얼마든 아파도 좋은데
사랑이란 그 말은 못해도 먼곳에서 이렇게
바라만 보아도 모든걸 줄수 있어서 사랑할수 있어서
난 슬퍼도 행복합니다

나 태어나 처음 가슴 떨리는
이런 사랑 또 없을테죠
몰래 감춰둔 오랜 기억속에 단 하나의 사랑입니다
그런 그대를 위해서 아픈 눈물쯤이야
얼마든 참을수 있는데
사랑이란 그 말은 못해도 먼곳에서 이렇게
바라만 보아도 모든걸 줄수 있어서 사랑할수 있어서
난 슬퍼도 행복합니다
아무것도 바라지 않아도
그대 웃어준다면 난 행복할텐데
사랑은 주는거니까 그저 주는거니까
난 슬퍼도 행복합니다


脱胎换骨重生一千次
再也没有那样的人~~wu~~
温暖悲伤的我
令人感激的人
为了那样的你 ,
我的心中装满了苦痛
爱不需要语言，即使在远方
注视着，也能给予爱
我即使悲伤也幸福

我的心第一次这样颤动
再也没有那样的爱
多年来珍藏在记忆中的秘密唯有爱
为你痛哭流涕
我忍受了许多
爱不需要语言，即使在远方
注视着，也能给予爱
我即使悲伤也幸福
不奢望什么
只要你笑，我就感到幸福
因为爱是给予，只有给予
我即使悲伤也幸福

再也沒這樣的人 - 李承哲

trick or treat...

Just realized something... I am myself, others will be others... I can only control my own self but not the others... so, I can only ask myself to treat others as good as possible... but I can't ask others to treat me as good as how I treat them... it sounds pretty sad for such fact to arise... but there's really nothing to be done.

Since others might not treat me well, shall I just treat them as bad as well? I don't think I can do so... I always said that when people treat me good, I'll treat them good also... if someone treat me bad, I'll double it and treat them bad... but this is just what I say... I can treat people bad, but won't for long... soon enough I'll start to regret... start to revert in treating others good... maybe this is just my... instinct? intuition? I also don't know why...

Sometime I feel I'm so stupid, because even though others are treating me bad, but still I'll treat them well... so stupid that wonder why I want to worry on others, get angry, get mad on what others did, when they don't even care about what I think... but still, I can't stop myself from worrying them... care about what they did... silly enough indeed... sigh...

You may treat others well, but you may not ask others to treat you the same...

A painful word indeed to be heard... and a painful fact to be accept... I'm just not fit enough for these kind of rules in the world... sigh...

BLANK

Another moody day... not really a day, but recently also very moody... again, many things are running in my head... no mood to study, no mood to do anything also... sigh... wonder what's wrong with me again... always like this... maybe getting depression soon... then find 1 day kill myself suddenly... hehe... don't worry, I won't do such thing... very painful when kill myself... I won't do that... still many unsettle issues... things that I had drag for few days, some a few weeks, some a few months, some a few years... unable to solve everything... so useless... my own problem also can't solve by myself... sigh... losing control... losing myself... what the hell is going wrong with me... why can't i just live like others, without need to worry anything at all... tension... stress... headache strikes... no idea what's wrong with me... confusing... donno what am I writing here already also... hopeless... sigh...

比悲伤更悲伤的故事

看了这部韩国电影，故事确实不错，但是…最大的缺点就是…因为这是韩国电影…所以一样离不开他们的风格…感动的故事，但是却没能完完全全的把那份感动给传达出来…如果是日本电影的话，或许会比较成功，因为这是他们擅长的戏码。

故事讲述K自小父亲因癌症去世，母亲抛下了他离开。然后K认识了孤儿Cream，两人相依为命，开始住在一起。虽然互相爱着对方，但是都没有说出口。K发现自己患上和父亲一样的病，剩下的日子不多，所以决定不向Cream告白。他希望能够在他临走之前，看见Cream得到幸福，所以开始替她寻找适合的人来托付终生。他察觉Cream爱上了一个牙医，然后他用尽一切撮合他们，婚礼当天，见证了他们的婚姻，然后…离开了他们。其实，Cream从一开始就知道K患了绝症，她为了不让他担心，所以假装爱上了那牙医，和他结婚。最后，在K离开了人间之后，Cream也跟随他…去了…

虽然电影能够更感动，有许多可以进步的地方，但是电影的拍摄手法确实非常不错。有一幕，当K哭着在街上走着，周围的人，渐渐的变得静止不动，剩下号啕大哭的K在边走边哭…那一幕让我印象非常深刻。主题曲是李承哲演唱的《再也没有这样的人》，非常棒的一首歌，相信大家听了一定会喜欢。

另一个让我印象深刻的东西，就是这一句对白：

如果谈恋爱必须以言语相对的话，那么…哑巴岂不是不能谈恋爱了？

感觉很有意思…

Jon Schmidt - Yiruma from the West

Well, saw this in the Facebook the other day... listen to it, it's nice, really... so end up searching for his songs... yup, it's Jon Schmidt, a musician who compose great piano songs... well, his songs are more to faster beat and happier rythm... you may visit his official website at www.jonschmidt.com for latest information about his creations...

So now we have Yiruma from the east and Jon Schmidt from the west... hehe... well he actually recomposed one of the Yiruma songs too... but I still prefer Yiruma's version, hehe... anyway, enjoy this video, Taylor Swift's "Love Story" recomposed into Piano and Cello medley...

你做初一，我做十五

Yup… nei zhou cho yat, ngo zhou sap nmm…
This is the best phrase for me now… why?
Because in my house now… there’s a fat bitch…
A fat bitch that turn her laptop on…
24 hours a day, 7 days a week…
And the main point is…
That God Damn bitch turns her download on…
Yup, 24 hours a day, 7 days a week…
And she turns on not just 1, or 2, but 3 download program…
Thunder, eMule, eDonkey…
All running at full speed…
I bet she sure download a few file at the same time also…
The house internet line is already slow… everyone knows that…
But just why on earth got such idiotic fat ass that don’t give a damn to others?
Ass hole like that, I bet even the hell also won’t accept her after she is dead…
Download until the line jammed, when others go to reset the modem…
She slams the door, slams the book, showing smelly fucking face…
Fuck off! U dumb ass! No one cares what shit you are showing there…
And the climax is… guess what?
That bitch goes and plugs her LAN cable directly into the modem…
What the hell? Can’t you use your brain to think?
If you are using your ass to think, your ass so big also can’t think it out?
Other people in the house no need online is it?
Why in such modern era still got such uncivilized sucker living on this earth?
Really can’t take it anymore… when I exceed my limitation…
I bet I’ll just go and cut her line into two…
Why so many good people die every day, and such fucker can still staying alive?
Go to die you bloody God damn dumb ass idiot ass hole sucker fat ass fucker bitch!!!

Damn No Mood...

Tomorrow will be midterm exam for 2 subjects... but really don't have the mood to study... too many bad things that go against me recently... sigh... just hope everything can be settle as soon as possible only... if not I'll continue no mood then really wait to die already... sigh... no mood until post also getting less here... somemore really is busy... maybe this year is just not my year... sigh...

太极旗飘扬

刚才无意中听到了这部戏的背景音乐...应该是从朋友那里录下来的...很久没听了呢...听着，心情也跟着起伏起来。还记得当时是我闹着要看这部戏的，因为有影帝张东健和帅哥元斌主演...当然看了故事大纲也是十分吸引我的...对于没有哥哥，也没有弟弟的我来说，兄弟情到底是怎样的呢？真的很想看个明白，所以当这部戏上演时，已经十分的想去看了，但是都没有机会。直到下画前，终于逼到一班朋友陪我去看。记得当时戏院里只有大约十多人，因为已经快下画了，所以没什么人看。除了我们一班年轻人，还有另一班比我们年轻的...还记得他们开场时还在那里闹，那里笑，结果收场时个个哭得稀里哗啦的，真的很好笑...

对，这是我第一次在戏院里面流泪。这部戏，讲述被强行征召入军队的两兄弟，弟弟有病在身，哥哥为了让弟弟离开军队，不惜冒着生命危险，进行任务。弟弟不明白哥哥的苦心，觉得哥哥是为了得到勋章而卖命。后来，弟弟没能离开军队，哥哥被骗了...气愤与伤心的哥哥，以为弟弟已经死在战场上，于是投奔了敌军。后来，弟弟在看到了哥哥写的家书后，明白了哥哥的心意。已经能够退伍的他于是回到战场上，寻找他的哥哥...最后，哥哥保护着弟弟，让他逃离了战场，然而自己...却倒了下来...

单单只是回想就已经能够让我眼睛都湿了。也许你并不能接受那些血腥的战争场面，但是哥哥保护着弟弟的那份情意，弟弟寻找哥哥的那份执著，兄弟认不出对方而互相殴斗，直到最后弟弟在白发苍苍的时候，回到之前的战场，看着那遗留下来的，亲生哥哥的骨骸...这些情节，深深感动了所有人...原来...这就是兄弟情...

不能错过的一部影片，希望大家也能够被它给深深的打动...

Merdeka! Merdeka! Merdeka!

30 August already... 1 more month to go then this semester is ending soon... damn fast, don even have the time to stop and breath sometimes... 1 week didn't put up any post because had been busy with my Mid term, quizzez, tests and FYP... tired doing my FYP writings... rewrite and rewrite for so many times... still looks very weird for me... sigh... have to settle it then let my supervisor have a look asap... somemore more assignments, projects and tests are coming... so really have to speed up everything and work harder and harder already...

Merdeka day... don't have any special feeling at all... maybe because I'm not born in the Merdeka era... so don't really hold any special feelings on it... anyway I do appreciate it... but after independence for so many years, Malaysia is still... a whole bunch of mess everywhere... politically unstable... economically behind other countries within the region... ethically most Malaysian seems to be still uncivilized... technologically still promoting some HIGH SPEED BROADBAND at 2mbps... educationally still making every student suffer with all the insane policy... socially still have a lot of issue regarding racism and futher more tons of crime everywhere...

Maybe it is the same for other countries too... but as a Malaysian, of course I'm addressing what I see as a Malaysian in Malaysia... a fairly hopeless country in the future if no improvement is going to be done soon... sigh... I love Malaysia, love the multi cultures and many more... but slowly... I'd been force to hate it already... indeed something sad to happen...

Just hope from this Merdeka day onwards... Malaysia will change for good... Peace!

两道彩虹

天气…阴

时间…傍晚

在公园附近…跑着

累啊…跑了三圈了

不如…停下吧

但是…刚才不是决定了跑四圈吗？

跑着…突然感觉到一点不一样

抬起头…仰望

啊…是彩虹

而且…是两道彩虹

这…是生平第一次看见

多么美丽…多么难得

也许…下半辈子都不会再看见

望着…提起干劲

跑着…第四圈

两道彩虹都可以被看见了…跑多一圈算得上什么？

跑着…看着

遗憾的是…没能拍个照留念

驾车的…放慢了车速

骑车的…抬头仰望着

行走的…停下了脚步

大家…视线都是一致的

看着两道彩虹…微笑着

瞬间…世界变得多么的美好

一直以为…彩虹永远都是孤单的

但是…原来彩虹也可以是一对的

看见了…才会相信

看见了…才被感动

感觉…好像已经没有什么跨越不了

感觉…好像已经领悟了人生道理

但愿所有看见两道彩虹的人…都能够继续那段微笑

但愿所有看见两道彩虹的人…都能够继续那么幸福

但愿没看见的人…也能够快乐的过着

但愿看见的人…能把那份温暖带给没看见的人

但愿那两道彩虹…能够永远的在一起

但愿有生之年…能够再看见那两道彩虹

Real sized Gundam @ Odaiba

Remembered I'd post something regarding a 1/1 real size Gundam will be built in Japan this year? YES! It's had already been built... for quite awhile... so here I upload all the info related with it... this model, although it is not movable, but the head itself can turn left and right, up and down! Believe it! And there will be mechanical movement sound which featured in the animation while the head is twisting... a real life sized Gundam, RX78-2 Gundam, stood up proud in Odaiba, Japan now until 31 August before it will be removed from exhibition for the Gundam 30th Anniversary. If you think that's all this model can do, think again... in night, this model will actually light up, and gas will coming out from it's thrusters and heat rejection valve! Sounds too realistic... but indeed... engineer in BANDAI are just simply genius in making this model come alive and the detail on the model too were stunning. Well, after all the words here... for those who are not interested would have been fall asleep... for those who want to know more, watch a few clips I have here for you! Like it when seeing the worker making adjustment on the model... just like a technician running maintenance on the Gundam in the anime... haha!

Happy 30th Anniversary to Gundam!

Clannad & Clannad ~After Story~

Synopsis for Clannad:
Tomoya Okazaki is a third year high school student resentful of his life. His mother passed away from a car accident when he was young, causing his father to resort to alcohol and gambling. This results in fights between the two until Tomoya's shoulder is injured in a fight. Since then, Tomoya has had distant relationships with his father, causing him to become a delinquent over time. While on a walk to school, he meets a strange girl named Nagisa Furukawa who is a year older, but is repeating due to illness. Due to this, she is often alone as most of her friends have moved on. The two begin hanging out and slowly, as time goes by, Tomoya finds his life shifting in a new direction.

Synopsis for Clannad ~After Story~:
A sequel to the recently wrapped anime based on the Key Clannad franchise. After Story is a path that opens in the original visual novel after all the other paths have been opened.
Life continues on for Tomoya. A few months have passed since he confessed his love to Nagisa. Now entering the second semester, he continues to meet a variety of different people, expanding his own world in the process. As well, Tomoya and Nagisa's relationship begins to enter a level of intimacy unlike before. Through his relationship with Nagisa, and his various encounters, Tomoya begins to understand the meaning and importance of family. Unfortunately, as Tomoya and Nagisa begin their own family together, they are faced with many hardships and challenges along the way.

By judging from the synopsis and the picture here… I don’t think you can get any clear idea of what the animation is talking about… one may think it is just another “girl’s favorite love story”… but it is not. Indeed, this anime bring you to think deep through into the roots of our life… things that we had forgotten… recalling the memory that we buried for so long deep within our heart… a touching animation series, meaningful, great storyline and characters… try not to miss this one out!

小猪教室

Watched this movie the other day… at first I’d downloaded this movie because I got nothing else to download. The movie’s synopsis itself… sounds very stupid indeed.

“This is a story about a class, when one day their teacher brought a pig to school and told the children they’ll raise it and eat it in one year time when they graduate.”

Yup, that’s the main storyline actually. Thought that it might be another stupid and idiotic comedy, but found it really touching in the end. To eat, or not to eat…yes, this has become the question after the children taking care of the pig for 1 year… everyone has a feeling with it, so in the end is hard for them to decide whether to eat it or not. Touched by the words and phrases they used in the movie to express their feeling and opinion… learn something about what life means to everyone… a rather sad ending, but in the end I’m glad that I’d download this movie.

Watching it reminds me about my rabbit… when think about it, tears start falling…

都市男孩

不会骑脚踏车，没放过风筝
我…是一个典型的都市男孩…是吗？
这么的认为着，但是却好像不是那样…

有着自己的观点，有着自己的执著
有着自己的感觉，有着自己的作风
这就是都市男孩吗？

小地方的人不是那样的吗？
很多人都说小地方的人都是好人
他们思想单纯，不会害人
真的是那样的吗？

当自己发现渐渐的无法忍受身边一些人时
往往就会怪罪为都市人与乡下人的代沟
真的是这样吗？不是吗？
已经开始模糊了之间的界线

我，是用逻辑去思考的人
我，是用感情去行动的人
我…是一个都市男孩…
也许并不是典型的，忙碌的，自私的那种…
但是，愿不愿意承认也好，我…始终是一个都市男孩

也许抵达都市以外的地方，应该入乡随俗
但是，也有一个限度…
我并不会强迫别人接受我，跟随我，模仿我
也并不需要…
人，不管是都市人还是乡下人…都是人
应该会有最低限度的共识
但是当连这基本的共识都已经消失的时候…
所谓的代沟…就此诞生…

开始发现自己和周围已经开始不搭调了
是我步伐太快了吗？是别人停下了吗？
被这种压迫的气氛弄得透不过气来
最后的最后…
也许因为我并不是都市男孩，也不是乡下男孩
融合不进这个界限分明的世界
唯有不断的徘徊逗转…直到失去力气…倒下为止…

Mid of August already loh...

Well, seems like a big deal recently... convocation wor... not mine so ma not big deal loh... hehe... anyway, congratulation for those who involve la... making the headline already... happy? Hope those who graduated can get a job soon... those that get a job already can work well earn a lot money and belanja me eat at Ah Yat Bao Yu @ Genting Highland... those continue study one good luck in study and research... those "measuring land" in house one... wait to get married la... hehe...

Next week got 1 week break... mid semester break... finally... long waited, but also no time to rest. Need to complete all the study that I'm left behind all this while... after the break will be all the mid terms... sigh... somemore hopefully can start my FYP experiment by next week too... busy non-stop... no time at all to even really rest myself... sigh... just hope things will go smooth for me and just hope everything can be settle asap. No more mood already...

Dear Friend...

Met an old friend today... my ex-housemate... he graduated already this year, waiting for convocation only... he come back to Sabah these few days to bring back all the stuffs he left over here... been wanted to meet with him when I know he is coming back... miss him? Kind of... although only know him for 3 years, but it seems like long enough as an old friend... can still remember when we first met... in a bus, heading to the hostel at IP... he is having trouble with his luggage... helped him out... and end up staying in the same house... missed those days when we go for lunch and dinner together at IP... do stupid things... played lantern... climbing the roof top...


Second year, we moved out together and stay at Kingfisher... by the time I haven't got motor yet, he willing to help me out, fetch me to buy things, help me buy lunch and dinner... sometime even fetch me to somewhere else when I actually planned to go by bus or other way... miss the time we watched F1 together at the mamak... can still remember we yell like crazy when Raikonen won the F1 championship... scream in disappointment when Massa lose out the championship by just 1 point... he teach me a lot in riding the motor too... so much fun living with him for these 3 years...


But everything have to come to an end sooner or later... after he graduated, don't think will have much chances to meet up already... I'll never forget him for sure... will go look for him in Perak when free... just hope he'll be around that time... getting a job in estate working in Pahang... he'll be alright... he is such a nice person... no worry on him...


Really glad to know him... he will surely be one of my best friend in my life... owe him a lot. Thank you very much! Pray for your success in your future. Eyes getting wet... sob sob... T.T

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突然发现原来已经post了365个blog post了...这是第366个...回想，原来真的没几个post是开心的。刚发现原来已经加入Blogspot一年零四个月了，时间流逝还真快。从以前一天一个post到现在的有空才post...不过总比十年都没update的人好...哈哈...反正post来post去也是些伤心的事迹，也许不post更好...最近太忙了，fyp实在是繁重的不得了...虽然很忙，还是忍不住花些时间消极一下...心情只有不断的往下滑，却没有向上攀。为什么呢？我也不知道...唉...昨晚心情也是差到不行...突然，脑海闪过一首歌...于是重复的播着...心隐约的痛着...不知为什么...算了吧...我都不知道我自己到底怎么了...

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张学友

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人孤孤单单躲避
转身刹那在这熟识的路旁
察觉身后路人是你

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思忆怎么要再返旧年
你说要走的一晚
连绵夜雨也似这天

总要在雨天逃避某段从前
但雨点偏偏促使这样遇见
总要在雨天人便挂念从前
在痛哭拥抱告别后从没再见

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人不知怎么躲避
终於看见在这热识的路旁
那个他静静凝望你

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临走的一刻亲近地
轻轻送我多真挚慰问
犹如逝去当天语气

为何你眼光年月未变
思忆怎么要再返旧年
你说要走的一晚
连绵夜雨也似这天

总要在雨天逃避某段从前
但雨点偏偏促使这样遇见
总要在雨天人便挂念从前
在痛哭拥抱告别后从没再见

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