Kundasang + Lok Kawi Trip

Went to Kundasang with my friends on 28 & 29 April 2008… Ah Leong, Ah Sun & Ah Teoh. Rent a Kelisa, then Ah Teoh as our fellow driver, we start our journey climbing the mountain to Kundasang. Stop by for some photo in the middle, and finally arrive safely at Kundasang. After taking our breakfast, we went to the War Memorial. A lot of nice garden with flowers inside… a memorial park for World War 2. Then we went to Desa Cow Farm… unfortunately it is closed and scheduled to be open only when end of this year… so no milk squeezing action for us. Next, after some crazy ride, we reached Mesilau Nature Resort. Over there we enjoy some nice view and the Mesilau Gate entrance to KK Mount climbing. Next stop was Ranau area. Poring Hot Spring is the destination we’re heading to. We enjoyed some hiking, canopy walk, waterfall, and last but not least… the hot spring. We drove all the way to Sabah Tea Plantation, but unfortunately it has already closed by the time we reach. So we have our KFC dinner and took a nap due to a short blackout. After some board game at night, the rest of them went to sleep while I enjoying the nice breeze alone outside of Nabalu Lodge, where we’re staying overnight. I bought a slice of cake and slowly I ate it while relaxing myself, watching the starts and sky. The next morning, we went to the market nearby to buy some local product, such as the cracker, honey, flowers and etc. After breakfast, we went to Kinabalu Pine Resort to look at the nice view there. And then we went to Strawberry Farm and bought some nice strawberry to eat. After checking out, we’re on our way back home. After reaching home, we planned to continue our plan and so we went to Lok Kawi Wildlife Park together with Mun Yung and Kah Beng this time. It’s a very nice mini zoo indeed. We had our dinner over the Tanjung Aru beach and that calls up a 2 days trip from Kundasang

太想爱你

今天在外闲逛时，突然听到了这首歌，这首久违的情歌。细细品尝着歌词，突然觉得感触异常。可能是最近心情都不怎么好，而思考了许多的东西，然后这首歌却在这种时候，这种情况下出现了...也许我现在就如词中的含义一样，觉得无力，寻找着出口...

张信哲

慌乱城市中
连风都不自由
热闹的街头
就数我最寂寞
是爱的蛊惑
让我又兴起贪求的念头
有多爱我
够不够久
会不会走

藏在柔顺背后
你忠于自我
情爱里游走
从不曾见你低头
我却常犯错
像一个太忙太累太傻的陀螺
转个不休
只放不收
停不了手

太想爱你是我压抑不了的念头
想要全面占领你的喜怒哀愁
你已征服了我
却还不属于我
叫我如何不去猜测你在想什么
太想爱你是我压抑不了的折磨
能否请你不要不要选择闪躲
只想爱你的我
太想爱你的我
难道只能在迷雾中
猜你的轮廓

Short Freedom

Went for movie and dinner together with friend's today... Thank you Ah Leong, Ah Sun and Ah Teoh... thanks for treating me a late birthday dinner... hehe... watch "Forbidden Kingdom", ok lo... nowadays punya movie is like that de lo... then eat at Fish & Co... ok lo... nowadays punya restraunt is like that punya lo... Ah Teoh eat till want vomit some more... very happy la... and that is more than enough already... thank you once again lo...

Left 1 paper for final only... Japanese wor... only subject that got hope for "A"... must score... this few day must enjoy watching and clearing all my anime... looking forward to DotA with my house mate after he settle his exam... whole sem didn't DotA with him already... going Kundasang soon lo... hope it will be a nice trip...

选择

黑或白
咖啡或红茶
左或右
前进或后退

有些问题不一定有答案
有些画面不一定要协调
有些事情不一定要说明白
有些事物不一定要合逻辑

在这漫无边际的人生
人学会了一个取舍的方法
...... 选择

人生就是不断的选择
人生就是不断的割舍
人生就是不断的轮回

只有选择过的人
才知道失去的痛苦
只有选择过的人
才知道珍惜的意义
只有选择过的人
才知道生命的重量
只有选择过的人
才知道如何绘画出
...... 更出色绚丽的明天

生日...快乐？

那天晚上和housemate还有他们的几个相熟的coursemate一起去吃McDonald庆祝。大家好像很开心呢，那就好了。怀着一件小心事，所以也没有十分投入于庆祝上。谢谢他们为我庆祝，对不起没能把自己的100％奉献出来尽情享受。今天也settle了另外两张paper，明天的paper考了就号称放假了，因为最后一科要等到6号才考。空闲时会好好用功K完我的动漫，好好K回一个sem的DotA，好好写些blog，好好放纵一下，好好享受，好好休息。期待着回家的那一刻。期待着心事能够被解开的那一天。

祝我生日快乐

今年的生日，可以说很特别吗？也许吧...还是第一次在生日那天还得勤力读书。明天有考试，而且还是两科主修科...真是凄凉。3 天前我妈妈竟然传了简讯给我，祝我生日快乐。我在想，她该不会记错我的生日日期了吧？无论如何，她竟然会传简讯这回事已经足以让我震惊不已。半夜三更收到了朋友传来的简讯，谢谢你们。还好我silent了我的电话，不然就不用睡觉了。Housemate猜了好多天都没猜中我几时生日。我也刻意没告诉他们，没必要劳烦大家，还是专心考试重要。但是最后他们好像抢了我的钱包然后看了我的IC...

生日还是要那么老套的许个生日愿望吗？虽然对这已经绝望好久了，但是今年还是情不自禁的许下了一个奢望...没错，明知道没可能达成的，但是还是许下了这样的一个愿望。很傻吧？也许吧...我就是那样的一个傻瓜，所以到现在才还是那样一事无成吧...就在这另一个没什么特别与另类的日子里，让我一个人耍耍性子吧...

追求安全感

4月23日出生的人总会为他们那傲人的天赋寻找最好的避风港，而且，还 一定要等到知名或是势力庞大的公司组织发现自己的存在时，才会停下脚步，喘一口气。这并不表示他们一定要接受那家公司的雇用（虽然事实经常是如此），也可 能是那个组织扮演类似“赞助人”的角色，或是将他们推荐给别人，而开启成功之门。我们经常可发现4月23日出生的人在选择婚姻对象时，通常会选择进入一个能提供庇护的家庭。尽管这些人并不太在乎生活独立与否，但是却很需要在一个较大的社交圈子里展现他们的权力；而财务上的成功对他们来说则是最为重要的。

如果是艺文界的人（作家、记者、画家）或经商的人（制造商或商店老板）会靠着建立固定的支持群，年复一年，持续不断地购买他们所出版的书或产品。如果是从事服务业（医生、律师、会计师），也会谨慎地建立顾客群。他们非常清楚，如果没有了这些顾客，自己便一无所有。4月23日出生的人会设法让别人知道，自己是家庭或专业领域里的一员，而且当他们处在这个团体里时，他们讲话绝对不会太直、太冲，如此才不会失去这个团体对自己的支持。从这几个方面可以看出，这些人非常依赖别人的善意回应与信赖。

这天出生的人本性中有一种对激情的渴望。这种冲动的一面对于极需安全感的人来说，是很危险的。这类型的人有时候行为会很冲动，因而危及到他们现有的职位。如果能将这种对变化和刺激的渴望导入工作中，而使私生活保持平衡状态，那么他们就一定会成功；相反地，没有经过深思熟虑的行为所带来的，却很可能是事业和家庭的双重瓦解。

对4月23日出生的人来说，能够选择一个终生参与的活动，那种快乐是笔墨难以形容的。但是如果太过压抑自己的特色，别人就会对他们失去兴趣，这也挺冒险的。所以最好的策略就是，定期发明一些新鲜的玩意儿，提出一些已经考虑得很周详、并能帮助他们 攀上高位的新计划。这类型的人最好不要满足于停滞的现状，而应该朝着反方向，利用创造力丰富的本能，向目标一步步迈进。

对于别人的小缺点，4月23日出生的人非常明察秋毫，而他们对人类性格和动机的了解，也非常深入。他们在担任教育工作或为人父母时，应该小谨慎并且建设性的运用这个具高度洞察力。4月23日出生的人必须有智慧地运用他们对别人的深远影响力，学会控制他们敏锐的心智和令牙俐齿的快嘴。

幸运数字和守护星
4月23日出生的人受到数字5（2+3=5）和水星的影响。水星代表思想变化的迅速，因此在这一天出生的人必须设法在这种活力和对安全感的强烈需求之间，找到平衡点。他们体内激荡着追求快感的冲动，就像是在快速道路上开车一样。这些激情在火星（牡羊座的主宰行星）和金星（金牛座的主宰行星）的影响下更为强烈。所以他们必须控制这些冲动。在生命过程中遭受到的巨大打击，很少对那些被数字5支配的人有持续性的影响。

健康
4月23日出生的人必须为老年及早作准备。他们总会陷于一种固定的、重复的习惯中，随着年岁渐增，年轻时求新求变的能力消逝殆尽，想要改变现状就 再也无能为力了，他们也会逐渐变得不良于行。因此，最好是持续培养温和、适度的运动。花些时间和孙子们在一起，并且和小孩子们从事义务工作，将使他们保持 身心愉快，而且又能感受到年轻人的活力。这一天出生的人很容易得到各种关节炎，特别是在颈部方面。他们也很容易丧失听力以及产生眩晕， 严重的如梅尼艾氏（耳性眩晕）症候群等都是。在关节炎方面，他们应该有计划、有规律和适度的运动，如此可以延缓身体变差以及关节硬化，在进入老年期时，也 能维持较佳的柔软度。这样的人在食物方面的品味复杂而且多元化，但是对于奶油、面包和糕饼的热爱，却是对身体有害而无益。把这种对高热量食物的喜好，最好 能改为谷类食物、米饭和麦粥等。

建议
在施展自己的能力时要有信心，不要让自己一成不变，试着过得更有弹性。让你的情绪自然发泄，并且跟着你的感觉走。保持生活的平衡。别害怕吐露你的心声，不过要有技巧和友善。

名人
莎士比亚(William Shakespeare)英国伊丽莎白女王时代的剧作家和诗人，代表作有《罗密欧与茱丽叶》、《哈姆雷特》、《马克白》、《李尔王》等，也是一位戏剧导演、演员，被誉为英国最伟大的作家。

台湾偶像影歌星杨采妮，代表作《梁祝》。

英国早期印象派画家授纳(Joseph M. Turner)，擅长风景画及水彩画，中期作品显示出受到文学的影响，晚期作品最为成熟，代表作有《打架的冒失鬼》、《雨、蒸气和速度》。

德国理论物理学帕兰克(Max Plank)，诺贝尔奖得主，研究量子力学。

俄作曲家及钢琴家浦罗可菲夫(Sergei Prokofiev)，著名的作品有《三橘之恋》、芭蕾舞剧《罗密欧与茱丽叶》和《灰姑娘》、管弦乐作品《彼得与狼》及第三号钢琴协奏曲。

雷斯特皮尔森(Lester Pearson)，曾任加拿大首相，诺贝尔和平奖得主，他的新政府引进了深具民族主义的法律，用意在削弱外国人在本国的经济控制权。

塔罗牌
大秘仪塔罗牌的第5张是“教皇”，他是神圣、神秘事物的解释者，象征人类的认知及信仰。教皇的知识充满奥秘，即使抽象的事物也受它主宰。牌面正立时，表示信心十足、不疑不虑及对事物有正确理解力；牌面倒立则是爱说教、唱高调以及独断。

静思语
世界上总会找到一个可以让你独处的地方。

优点
善于社交、有安全感、谨慎。

缺点
缺乏弹性、焦虑、压抑。

Exam started...

Died 1 paper... manage 2 out of 4 question only... Advance Applied Mechanics wor... now settled 2 subject already, beside this is the FK Chung paper. Now just pray I can score something in the Numerical Methods and Machine paper... then Electrical Technology on Friday and lastly Japanese... Going to Kundasang on 2nd week of examination... no paper that week... hope everything goes well and fine... stomachache recently, don't know why... maybe eat too much... a lot of things running through my mind... thinking want to find someone to chat bout it, but sometime is hard to find the "someone"... just hope I can sort things out nicely...

How I miss…

Recently just found out that there had been numbers of gathering held within my primary school friends… I saw their pictures, trying my best to recall back their names… manage to get most of them, and really shock to see some of them appearing in the photo… some who I once believe I’ll never see him/her again… the feeling… is so touching… seeing everyone happily in the picture, knowing everyone is doing very well… I feel glad too. Really miss all the old days… how I wish I was there… being part of the gathering… but no one informed me about any gathering at all! I must go and scold the organizer already, haha… anyway, really happy to see those pictures… don’t know why, but just feel like so touching… eyes get soaked… sob sob… really miss all of them so much! I wonder any of them still remember me… T.T

Kiss the Rain

And when the sky turned dark
And when the lights were out
And when I’m all alone, this very moment
Air that I breathe, so still
Tearing me apart
How I suppose to, continue on

And when the crowd was gone
And when the noise fades off
And when I’m all alone, this very moment
I feel the emptiness
Deep within my heart
Searching something, to fill it up

How I miss you my precious one
You gave me wings and you taught me how to sore the sky
But this moment when I’d learn how to fly, in the end
But you are no longer by my side

And when the breeze has stopped
And when the road was blocked
And when I’m all alone, this very moment
The pain is stabbing me
Eating me inside
How am I suppose, to carry on

And when the moon has gone
And when the stars fade off
And when I’m all alone, this very moment
I start to lose myself
Start to lose my mind
Wonder how long can I hold on

How I miss you my dearest one
You told me be strong and stand tall until the end of time
But don’t you know that my life would have been meaningless
Without you be here right by my side

And when the sky still dark
And when the lights still out
And when I’m still alone, this very moment
The sun will soon shine out
Lights will soon turn on
It is just the matter of time

And when the rain has come
And when I kiss the rain
And when I’m not alone, this very moment
I found you in my heart
Found you in my soul
The rain has brought you back to my side

And I love you forever on...

Indulge for… YIRUMA

...Fallen for him…

...Moved by him…

...Touched by him…

...Became a fan of him…

Welcome to the world of Yiruma!

Many of you might not know who is he, but I believe many of you did heard his musics before, somehow, somewhere… the 1st and my favorite song I heard from him is “Kiss the Rain”… it really is a touching song… recently found a few of his albums, addicted after I listened to them. What a talented piano musician he is… took my breath away, stunned me with his great music compose… everyone out there must listen to his songs and musics… I bet you’ll like it as much as I do.

Yiruma (born 15 Feb 1978, Seoul, Korea) is a South Korea piano music composer. He is married to Miss Korea Son Hye-im. Although he formerly held dual citizenship as a citizen of the United Kingdom and South Korea, in July 2006 he gave up his British citizenship and entered the Republic of Korea Navy to begin his military service, which is mandatory for all male South Koreans.

Yiruma began playing the piano at age 5 and at the age of 11 he moved to England where he graduated from the Purcell School of Music for the musically gifted. In Dec 1996 he participated in the album The Musicians of Purcell (Decca).He went on to enroll in King's College where he studied under distinguished contemporary musician Harrison Bertwistle. During his studies at King's College, he was recognized for his musical talent and soon released his first classical album on the DECCA label.

In January 2002, he made history by becoming the first Korean to perform at the famous MIDEM music festival in Cannes, France. Yiruma's albums have since been released in Europe, Japan, Singapore and throughout Asia via licensing deals. He continues to top the pop charts in Korea and is considered to be one of the most promising new age artists of our time.

In 2004, Yiruma debuted on the Japanese scene with a theme song he composed for the Fuji TV mini-series, . His 'best of' compilation album was released by Universal Music Japan in October following his solo performances at the famous Tokyo Orchard Hall and the renowned Kawaguchi Lilia Hall. His performance showcased the talent that made him Korea's number one new age artist and he was received with ovation and praise across Japan.

Yiruma gained the love of the Korean masses after he wrote, composed and performed the theme song for the hit drama series 'A Winter Sonata'. He quickly gained mass popularity and became an advertising model for Korea Telecom's KT icom G-cube and Yamaha Korea.

As Korea's top new age artist and performer, Yiruma's 2003 release 'From the yellow room' had 30,000 pre-orders which was followed by his 2004 release 'Nocturnal lights...they scatter' which debuted at number 1 on the Korean pop charts. In the winter of 2004, Yiruma successfully closed out the year with a phenomenal 23 stop nationwide concert tour (2004 Drama Concert).

Yiruma continues to compose his unique style of music with an intimate meaningful touch. He has added strings, harmonica and an electric sound to compliment his passionate piano melodies and continues to pursue animation, drama and movie music with his diverse instrumental styles.

In April 2005, Yiruma will release his 'Destiny of Love' album which contains the theme song from and new original piano solos. This will be his final piano solo album as he closes that chapter in his career. He will return to his fans with a new style and sound in the near future.

Official Website

Kiss The Rain MIDI File Download

Kiss The Rain Music Sheet

Here’s my favorite song… “Kiss the Rain”

Our Journey

作詞: melody.
作曲: KURIS
By melody.

I've seen you before
In the back of my memory
I looked in your eyes
And felt the truth in me

You're finally here
Been waiting so long
You took my hand
And told me to believe

Now I know that you are the answers to my prayers and
You are my warmth and my strength, I'm not afraid now
Time will soon embrace our bound destiny
I'll spread my wings and fly to where I belong
This is our journey

You picked me up
From the shadows of pain
How was I to know
That I would love again

So I know that often our minds maybe misleading
But my heart is not willing to stop, I feel it burning
Time will soon embrace our bound destiny
I'll spread my wings and fly to where I belong

It hurts to be untrue
To what I've gained through you
I cannot live forever
I know that I belong to only you...

So I know that often our minds maybe misleading
But my heart is not willing to stop. I feel it burning
Time will soon embrace our bound destiny
Unfold my wings and I'm flying to you...

Now I know that you are the answers to my prayers and
You are my warmth and my strength, I'm not afraid now
Time will soon embrace our bound destiny
So spread my wings and I'm flying to you,
Cause I know that where I belong is with you,
And my heart will flourish on moments that I'm...
With you.

Hair Cut Craze

Cut my hair today... and something STRANGE happened that made me donno want to laugh or cry about it... hmm... went to the saloon, sit down, want my hair to be cut. A young lady come and serve me, "setting up" everything and ready to cut my hair. When she "toying" around my hair and ask me how I wish my hair to be cut, suddenly she say something...

"Are you mixed?"
"No I'm not!"
"Oh, really? I thought you mixed with Korean."
"Huh?"
"You look very alike with a Korean star... forgot about his name..."
"swt..."
"Want to cut the same hair style like him?"
"..."

1st, I don't really like Korean stuff... I would be happier if she say I'm Japanese mix (haha...)
2nd, I believe Korean are mostly long hair... I wonder how she is going to cut my hair from short to become long like that...

Anyway, she start to keep on talk donno what and ask a bunch of questions... thought got discount... but in the end no... cheh... then she really "takes her time" to cut my hair... slowly cut hair by hair, layer by layer, little by little... I wonder is she not pro enough or she just really taking her own sweet time "molesting" my hair... then she keep on persuade me to wash my hair also... then ask me want to wax my hair or not... etc etc...

Well, luckily the result is still quite ok... the only thing is just the non-stop disturbance... anyway, settled my hair already... must concentrate in study already...

星空 III

天上繁星闪烁着

永不停止

而我仍然留在原地

迟疑着

属于我的那颗星星真的存在吗？

如果真的存在着

那她现在到底在什么地方呢？

必须自己把她给寻找出来吗？

如果真的存在着

我并不介意继续寻觅

但是如果并不存在着

我就不需再花费力气

承受着再次被灼伤的痛

伸出我的双手

如果真的存在着

无论天涯海角

我也会努力的把她给找出来

然后伸出我的手

把她拥入怀中

天上的星星依然在闪烁着

而我依然留在原地仰望着

人是应该从不断的挫折中成长的

但是同时间却孕育出了胆怯和懦弱

何时才能够战胜自己呢？

何时才能够再伸出手呢？

也许会渐渐的不再抬头仰望

依恋着那苦涩凄美的回忆

独自拖着那伤痕累累的双手

静静的离开这星空闪耀的地方

星空 II

抬头仰望着星空

一颗星星徐徐接近

鼓起了勇气伸出双手

把那颗星星紧握在手里

这是多么温暖的感觉

但是

渐渐的双手开始觉得有些灼热的感觉

是错觉吗？

双手紧握着星星放到胸前

希望能够用我的心绪

感动这颗星星

不断地努力不断地耕耘

就这样

双手在灼热与温暖之间徘徊着

这亦苦亦甜的感觉

到底该如何取舍？

第一次感觉到“我爱你”真是多么的甜蜜

第一次感觉到“我爱你”也可以是那么的残酷

我并不舍得就这样放手

也许这只是另一个试炼

所以

无论是灼热也好温暖也好

我会尽我最大的努力握紧双手

希望这颗星星

能够留在我的身边直到永远

但是

伤痕累累的我紧握着的

是幸福吗？

还是只是另一场美丽的误会？

无论如何

只要我还能接受这灼热

我都不会放手

因为

我害怕着放手以后

我已经不会在有伸出双手的勇气了

星空 I

天上的星星闪烁不停

真的十分耀眼美丽

在地上的我不断的看着

也只能偷偷的看着

期盼着也许有一天

其中一颗星星会化成流星

掉到我的手心里

但是我自己也知道

这是奢望

是不可能会发生的

是不可能实现的

终于下定决心

决定用自己的双手去把一颗星星给捉下来

尝试这往最美丽的那颗伸手

但是始终是太遥不可及了

于是试着去捉旁边的一些小星星

最后却被它炽热的光芒烧伤了双手

我唯有把手放下

轻轻的吹着

等待伤口痊愈

看着别人一个接一个的把星星给摘下来

很是羡慕啊

但是我知道不能心急

我会把伤给养好才再尝试

但是我不知道双手何时会痊愈

也不知道痊愈后是否还有伸出手的勇气

于是

我一直在等

时间一分一秒一天一年的过去

现在的我仍然习惯望着漂亮的星空

但是始终还是没有伸出我的手

也许又开始奢求流星的出现

但是也知道结果是如何的

或许已经是时候了

双手似乎已经痊愈

无论如何我还是必须再次伸出我的手

不然就不知道最后到底会是在次熬伤双手

还是终于捉住一颗属于自己的星星

决定了

决不后悔

希望这次

能够愿望达成

能够梦想成真

E=MC^2 by Mariah Carey

Mariah Carey... the DIVA?

Well, overall a very nice album from her... as can be expected from the queen of pop. Listened to this album once it is released because a friend of mine, Mr Terence is keep on "selling" this in his blog... so I give it a look. Wonder how to describe... it's been awhile for me to listen to western songs "seriously"... recently only listen from radio sometime, built up some "gap" already with western music industry (hehe...) anyway, planning to chase it all back from this album. All sort of different styles of songs were included in this album, good work from Mariah! Song I love the most? Hmm... "Bye bye" is very soothing and nice.

Song list:
01.Migrate (featuring T-Pain)
02.Touch My Body
03.Cruise Control (featuring Damian Marley)
04.I Stay In Love
05.Side Effects (featuring Young Jeezy)
06.I'm That Chick
07.Love Story
08.I'll Be Lovin' U Long Time
09.Last Kiss
10.Thanx 4 Nothin'
11.O.O.C
12.For The Record
13.Bye Bye
14.I Wish You Well

逃生 by 张信哲

Jeff Chang... I listen to his song since the album 宽容... all along from EMI until SONY MUSIC... seeing him evolve in his music and singing... like him for the reason that his love songs are so touching... no other people in this world can sing out the same feeling as he did... all his sad love songs are my favourite... because sometime the lyrics really make me feel so touch...

This new album, 逃生, seeing him evolve once again, but I don't really like this album as his previous album. The love songs are a bit... normal... too normal I would say... can't feel enough "sparks" from it, can't really touch me deep. Overall the album is ok, but maybe I'd expect too much from him in his new album.

牧羊人, this song is nice. The 1st song that I enjoy listen too since the 1st time I listen to his new album. By the way, just want to comment on the cover... what happened to his hair? It's... weird... sigh... I would giv only 70% out of 100%... really miss the usual soul touching love songs from him... hope I can get what I want in his next album...

<逃生>
01.殘念
02.逃生
03.牡丹憂
04.可愛美眉
05.小木馬
06.最好的時光
07.牧羊人
08.單車與跑車
09.長途旅行
10.天使的眼淚

1 week from HELL

1 week left before all the major paper starts... REALLY have to start to study already... "REALLY"... if not will die beautifully... already died in most mid term, quizzes & etc... can't die in final anymore... sigh... if only I'm slightly more hardworking (hehe...)

15-days-old

Half a month since I started blogging here... pretty enjoying myself and used to this blogger already... will try to squeeze more juices out when I got the free time to do so.

Final starting... good luck to myself and everyone out there... no idea will die how beautifully this time. After finish exam is time for holiday... happy? of course. Long waited holiday has finally come... a lot of things are waiting for me to do... example? Well, Gundam here I come! Planning maybe learn how to ride a bike, then writing a new story which I plan to wrote in January and drag until now... plan to relax myself, meeting friends, clearing all the Anime I downloaded... working? If I got extra time for it... (^^)

Anyway, will try to keep on update my blog, maybe daily or few days once. Keep an eye on it. Recently transferring some blog from previous Friendster blog to here. Changed some layout of the blog, added "My stories", "My Photo Album", added facebook account, etc etc. Explore it yourself ok?

Just hope things will be fine... and God bless everyone! Take care.

到底是怎么了

最近生活中发生了两段小故事。虽然是两件不同的事，但是却拥有着共同点。

前些天，在车站遇见了她，和她打了个招呼 ，闲聊了两句，然后她就走到另一端坐了下来。也许还是被讨厌着？也许只是大家都不知道该怎么面对对方？不知道她到底是怎么想的，所以我也不知道该如何应变。我，到底在抗拒着什么？也许是害怕着些什么也说不定。但是，也许因为不知如何反应，所以被视为排挤对方？也许就这样进一步加深了她对我的厌恶？如果这对她来说是一件好事的话，我并不在意背上任何的罪名。

数天前，上网时遇见了另一个她，好久没有联络的她。前阵子因为她的朋友来了我就读的大学深造，所以拜托了我照顾她的朋友，聊了一阵。过后又失去了联系，直到最近在网上又遇见了。刚开始只是闲聊着，但是不知为何最后却闹得不欢而散。

很讽刺啊...两个不同的人，两个都是我希望她们能够快乐渡过每一天的人，但是最后却好像因为我而不开心了。多么想去守护和保护的东西，但是最后还是什么都办不到。是弄巧反拙吗？还是无能为力？也许由始至终都是我的问题啊...都是我不好，都是我的错，这样就可以了吗？仔细的想了想，这可不行啊，在这样下去，也许只会被更多的人伤害着，或者是伤害着更多身边的人。

到底应该怎么办呢？渐渐的开始觉得迷惘了...

想拥抱的感觉

忽然间
开始怀念着拥抱的感觉
不知到为什么
可能是曾经拥有而恋上了这感觉

但对孤身一人的我
一个简单的拥抱已经是多么奢侈的要求

一直都在憧憬着与渴望着
那曾经拥有与失去的感觉

那相互取暖着的相拥

那相互安慰着的接触

那相互依偎着的身影

那相互沉醉着的浪漫

空虚吗？也许吧...

寂寞吗？大概吧...

失落吗？可能吧...

孤独吗？应该吧...

也许像一句老套的言说

就像大海里的一只小船正在寻找着他的避风港

人类

毕竟是非常依赖安全感的动物啊...

如今能够肯定的是...

有着一种...想拥抱的感觉...

Eat a lot recently

Donno why, but I really eat damn a lot recently. Pregnant? How good if it is true. (at least this means at least got “want” me, haha…) Anyway, every morning 6am, I’ll take my breakfast. Then 10 or 11am when lecture break, 2nd round breakfast comes in… 12-2pm will be my lunch time, 3-5pm will be my tea break, finally 6-7pm my dinner time. Maybe it’s because my waking time is longer than my sleeping time and use up more energy than usual, maybe I’m still in the zone of growing (I’m still young and energetic?), maybe it’s a good sign of growing fatter (thank god if this is the reason), maybe is just nothing happen at all (T.T)… anyway, approaching bankruptcy if I keep on eat like that, hehe…

Sick of Friendster’s photo album

As what the title stated clearly and I believe a lot of people out there share the same feeling with me too. Upload problems, slow loading & many more. Anyway, I’m searching for alternative photo album now. I’ll post the album here once it is done. Suddenly realize that I slowly and gradually giving up all the Friendster functions… hehe…

Vacancy

Post: Girlfriend

Minimum requirement: Female

Basic requirement: Clever but stupid, mature but childish, independent but dependant.

Further requirement: If you found it hard to understand the basic requirement, here’s a simpler version. Must have good communication skills, able to share everything, don’t lie. There’s no need in experience for it, fresh graduates are welcome to apply too. Must be a clever person, but need to be stupid (or pretend stupid) sometime; mature but childish sometime; independent (when I’m not around) and dependant (when I’m around). Preferably not too demanding person, caring, knows how to cheer me up when I’m down...

Optional requirement: Pretty, cute, sexy, long hair, fair skin, able to cook

Facilities/benefits: All-weather worldwide protection, sweet memories, moments of two together and many more. Limited access to transportation (meanwhile), no accommodation provided (unless you are willing to share my bed), further facilities and benefits are negotiable.

Application: Please kindly send your application details to this email address beelze_gpwk@yahoo.com with the title of “GF Application”, or just simply call the 24-hours a day, 7 days a week, 365 days a year hotline 012-2843684 for further enquiries or application details. Please kindly attach all necessary document accordingly in your resume, which include recent photos, personal detail and etc.

P/S: For those who performed well in this post will earn a promotion to take the post as Wife.

Thank you.

what if? even if...

What if, when one day, you found out that you had falling in love to someone? It is a very nice feeling indeed, but what comes after that is actually not necessary to be something nice. What am I trying to pull out here?

Alright, what if you had fallen in love with your friend? Well, this is actually something that always happens around us. Anyway who will fall in love to someone who is not even a friend? What if you had fallen in love with your close friend? Best friend? What if you had fallen in love with your friend’s friend? What if when he/she is your friend’s boyfriend or girlfriend? What if, if really happen, someone that you not really know well or not close to? What if you had fallen for your classmate? Your course mate maybe? House mate? How about your roommate? (Well, anything can happen.)

Well, when you fallen for someone, what will be the next step? Some prefer to keep it in the heart as a secret, some prefer to show out all their kindness toward the “someone”, and some prefer to tell them how they feel. This next step is always crucial, is either you make it or screw it. This is what I’m talking about here.

Perhaps this is a path that must be taken by everyone. It is something representing how much of courage you have, and how much you like about him/her. But this is where the hardest of all come in. Yes, there had been people crying for it, dying for it, sacrificing for it… although the outcome is nothing you can ever imagine, but people still strive for it. This is something about love that fascinates me. Love really gives people courage, believe, and a strong will to move on.

So what will you choose to do? Keep it in your heart? Show all your kindness to that person? Searching for a chance to express your love to him/her? It’s a hard question that sometimes depends on the situation to answer. People are afraid of choosing the last option, sometimes, because it is really scary. Saying out how much you love him/her without knowing what will be the reaction from him/her. If it is an “ok”, of course it would be nice. But what if it is a “no”? Things can unfold in many ways after a simple “no”. Maybe both of you can still be friends; maybe both of you will still be friends, but there’ll be something different from before; maybe will starts to avoiding each other; maybe it’s the end of the friendship or what-so-ever. For this reason, there will be people who tend to choose the first option, remains silence. Will this make a person suffering? I wonder. As for the second option, normally it will follow by the third one, but sometimes it will just end at the second option forever, as it may integrate with the first option, which means keeping it in your heart and treating the “someone” the best you can.

Thinking back about myself, what had I done so far? Well, I wouldn’t dare to say I fallen in love with a lot of people, for me, love is the word only when two individual are getting together. So, for my own policy, I’ll stick with the word “like”. All the three option actually had been used by me before, I guess. There will be people you like, this is for sure. Sometime for some reason, I’ll just think that “it would be better if things just stay this way”. So for that, first option is chosen, I’ll definitely treat someone I like the best I can, no matter is friends or potential lover, so second option is always in my hand too. As for the last option, well, tried before but things always end up to the worst. It is sad; I wonder why… couldn’t there be a friendship after a rejection? Why things always end up ugly after a separation?

Kind of tired sometime, getting a phobia maybe? People will surely say that I’m still young, giving up so easily? Well, I wonder. I also hope to find the source of my courage, believe and will. But things won’t turn the way you want always. Anyway, so just let things be for the meanwhile. So, how about you? What will you do? What will you choose? How will you decide?

After all the “what if”, let’s just sum things up here.

Even if the future is unknown, people still put hope on it and continue dreaming; even if you might be able to predict the outcome sometime, but you still give it a try and hoping things won’t turn the way you imagined; even if love brings a lot of pain and sorrows along, but people still searching for it day after day; even if things will turn out against us, but we still continue to moving forward…

So, even if I’ll be alone forever, at the very least I’m still able to give my best to people I like. Even if there’s no one there for me to show my kindness, at the very least I do have some good memories of them with me before this. So, don’t hesitate. Just so the best you can and may God bless you all with love.

Meeting with Japanese

Due to "accidentally" elected as the Mr. President for the Japanese Cultural Club of University Malaysia Sabah... and due to suddenly called by the Japan Consulate to have a meeting with them... so, 4th April, I borrowed my coursemate, Ricky's car (Thank you Ricky!!), fetching 2 beauties... My Vice Jo-lin and secretary Li Yee... went to Japan Consulate which situated near to the Sabah Trade Center. All wear formal... smart looking... the 2 girl say want to "chase" the Consul General wor... that's why wear until very nice... in the end it was the Vice Consul who meet us, regarding about hosting some event through my club at UMS. Just hope everything will work smoothly.

Can't take picture in the office... but manage to take 1 shot outside of the office... nice to see when morning... but a bit "ghostly" when night, hehe...

Cute...

Click on the link to see something cute...

http://www.geocities.com/sense_angel86/cute.gif

時をかける少女/穿越時空的少女

Toki wo Kakeru Shoujo/A Girl Who leaps through time
When 17-year-old Makoto Konno gains the ability to, quite literally, "leap" backwards through time, she immediately sets about improving her grades and preventing personal mishaps. However, she soon realizes that changing the past isn't as simple as it seems, and eventually, will have to rely on her new powers to shape the future of herself and her friends...
“Time waits for no one”… yes, indeed. A very touching story which will makes us think twice... when you are given the chance to leap through time, what will you do? Makoto accidentally attained such power, at first she use it for her own self (selfish?). Later on, when she found out that one of her friend had fallen in love to her, she's so afraid and nervous, that she leap back the time to stop her friend from proposing to her... after a few time leap, Makoto finally used all the available chances to leap through the time... and this is where she start to realize that because of her selfish thinking in leaping through time, people around her might had suffer for that purpose. and she finally realize that just how much she likes him too. when everything seems to be too late for her, miracle happens...

Not to say to be very well drawn, but indeed it is a nice animation. Very meaningful story I should say, great plotting of story, very well play scenes, nice OST... A little bit surprised by how the story unfolds, but in the end it really brings the whole story to life… so don't miss the chance to watch it!

Very nice ending song here... enjoy it!
watch the ending video here

Garnetby Oku Hanako

Gutaundo kaketeku anata no senaka wa
Sora ni ukanda kumo yori mo jiyuu de
nooto ni naranda shikakui moji sae
Subete wo terasu hikari ni mieta

Suki to iu kimochi ga wakaranakute
Nidoto wa modoranai kono jikan ga
Sono imi wo atashi ni oshiete kureta

Anata to sugoshita hibi wo kono mune ni yaki tsukeyou
Omoi dasanakutemo daijoubu na you ni
Itsuka hoka no dareka wo suki ni natta toshitemo
Anata wa zutto tokubetsu de taisetsu de
Mata kono kitsetsu ga megutteku

Hajimete futari de hanashita houkago
Dare mo shiranai egao sagashiteita
Tookude anata no hashaideru koe ni
Naze da ka mune ga itakunatta no

Kawatte yuku koto wo kowagatteta no
Zutto tomodachi no mama ireru kigashita
Owatteku mono nado nai to omotta

Hateshinai toki no naka de anata to deaeta koto ga
Nani yori mo atashi wo tsuyokushite kureta ne
Muchuu de kakeru ashita ni tadoritsuita toshitemo
Anata wa zutto tokubetsu de taisetsu de
Mata kono kisetsu ga yatte kuru

Itsumademo wasurenai to anata ga itte kureta natsu
Toki ga nagare imagoro atashi wa namida ga koboretekita

Anata to sugoshita hibi wo kono mune ni yaki tsukeyou
Omoi dasanakutemo daijoubu na you ni
Itsuka hoka no dareka wo suki ni natta toshitemo
Anata wa zutto tokubetsu de taisetsu de
Mata kono kitsetsu ga megutteku

Parallel World

Watched Keroro Gunso episode 205. A very touching story… The story talks about this, the “Parallel World”. What is the “Parallel World”? Well, I’m not sure how to explain, but if you don’t understand, try to search through the internet, ok?

Taking an example, when making a decision, let’s say deciding to turn right or left, each decision will bring to their respective outcome. This means there are be two possibilities of future ahead of you. What people believes here is the two possible future, they do co-exist, but in different dimension. For the same time measure, there might be hundred, thousand or million of possibility happening at the same time in different dimension, this is what they call as “parallel world”.

The story start off with Keroro accidentally fall into a hole and ended up reappears at Hinata’s house. He thought everything is just as usual, not only when he found out that the Fuyuki in this world and dimension actually hasn’t seen Keroro before. Meanwhile, Fuyuki and the rest from the real dimension is dying in search of ways to save Keroro back from the “parallel world”. (That’s what it seems to be, ^^) Keroro slowly had built up some good relationship with Fuyuki from the other dimension, and here comes the time to decide when Keroro finally stand a chance to choose to go back to the real world or not. It’s a hard decision to make, as Fuyuki from both worlds also will miss Keroro so much if he leaves any of them. In the end, Keroro had chosen to return back to the real world…

Come to think of it… what if “parallel world” does exist? I wonder what will the other “me” doing at this time over the other dimension. Will he be alright? Is he living happily? Is he has a better live than me? Does he has any girlfriend? I wonder… wonder did he meet people and friends that I met in this world… it would be nice if in the different world, the other me and the other of my friends actually knew each other…

All the best to the other “me”… hope you can live better than I do…

Disastrous Day

Happily went to town to buy a 160GB hard disk, thinking of upgrading my current 60GB laptop hard disk, after swapping the hard disk, I start to install Windows in it. The format and file preparation is all fine, but the nightmare starts once it needs to reboot to install the Windows. After reboot, error shows... stating like error in initializing the setup process etc etc... I try using another Windows cd n do it all over again, same result comes out! OMG! Ok, now I try use the 160GB as external hard disk, it works flawlessly. Just what the hell is going on? NVM, so I use my 80GB external instead to replace my laptop hard disk, the installation is well done. (so I really wonder why i cant install Windows in the 160GB... T.T) after all the update & etc... suddenly another disaster strikes! after I restart my 80GB (which already Windows, driver & software ready), it fail to detect my LAN cable & I can't online at all! What the heck was that? I just use the internet to update those software and after reboot it tells me it can't detect the LAN? Reinstalling the software doesn't help also! Shit man... Wasted whole day doing diagnosis, in the end... my laptop still 60GB, but now I got 80GB and 160 GB external... sigh... I'll try to settle the issue during holiday... if anyone got any idea what in the world is going on... please kindly inform me, thank you...

私 vs 誕生日

Birthday? Well, actually it is not really something very meaningful and memorable for me. I wonder why... maybe ever since when I was a kid, I didn't really celebrate birthday like anyone else did. When I was small, maybe a small birthday cake will be there, maybe there'll be a present too. But slowly, cake and present had vanished from my sight, and birthday will end up being another ordinary day of an ordinary life.

Slightly better during secondary school when I meet my buddies now. They celebrate my birthday for me year after year... thanks a lot to all of them. Although I didn't really care about that day, but they still celebrate it for me. Well, at least I can take it as a chance for everyone to come out and have some fun together.

No present, no cake, no birthday wishes... something sad? Maybe, especially for those who always live happily with a "proper" birthday celebration every year (haha...) For me, it's ok without a birthday cake, I don't really enjoy eating it too. It's ok without the birthday present (just who the hell in this world had invented this "theory" stating that you must receive a present during your birthday?) As for the birthday wish, I wonder what's the difference for you to make a wish during your birthday or during any other day in your life? At the end, "birthday" maybe is just something created by people just to earn some extra $$ from you... (really?)

Ironic isn't it? People know that it is just another ordinary day, but still they celebrate it; people know that their wishes will bring no meaning and not necessary will turn to be reality, but still they'll wish for it... maybe we just can't afford to lose our one last hope on the "miracle of birthday". Thinking back the old days... do I really made any birthday wishes before? I guess there are some, but I bet none of them had ever become reality, that's why I'd been starting to giving up on this "miracle"...

Sorry if I brush the bubbles from any of you guys out there. This is just my personal comment, so please keep faith in what you want to believe in. Taking this chance to say Happy Birthday to everyone I know... just in case I forget to wish you during your birthday... so I better wish you all now when i still remember about it. Hehe...

Introducing My New Blog

Ladies & Gentlemen!

Allow me to introduce you all to my all new personal blog page... the address is kinda messy, but please remember it correctly ok? It's http://gpwk-no-monogatari.blogspot.com

I'd been blogging in Friendster for awhile, thinking of trying something new, that's why I'm here. I'll gradually move some of my old blog post here, and of course I'll continue writing new one here. The old Friendster blog I'll keep it as a memory over there, all new post will be post here from now on. So do remember to visit my blog often, ok? Don't hesitate to drop down any comment here, I'll be glad for any kind of comments.

Hope my blog can brighten someone's day...
Hope my post can made someone smile...
Hope my story can touch someone's heart...

Thank you.

秒速5厘米/byousoku 5cm

Do you know about it?

The speed of a falling Sakura flower...

It's 5cm per second...

A tale of two people, Tono Takaki and Shinohara Akari, who were close friends but gradually grow farther and farther apart as time moves on. They become separated because of their families yet continue to exchange contact in the form of letters. Yet as time continues to trudge on, their contact with one another begins to cease. Years pass and the rift between them grows ever larger. However, Takaki remembers the times they have shared together, but as life continues to unfold for him, he wonders if he would be given the chance to meet Akari again as the tale embarks on Takaki's realization of the world and people around him.

Tono Takaki and Shinohara Akari are close friends who, upon graduation from elementary school, are parted because of family movement. Their deep feelings for each other keep them in contact, but they worry they may not meet again. Then, one day, Takaki decides to visit Akari.........This is a movie in three parts that follows the thoughts and relationship of 2 young people as they meet and part, both from their point of view and from people around them.

A very sad story? Maybe. It's all depends on how you want to interpret the whole story. The main message that this 1 hour animation would like to tell us, is regarding something about time, love, distance & trust... how are they linked together? What impact will they give? Something that really close to everyone... so close, that it really touches the deepest part of our heart. Maybe because I'm in the rather same condition as Takaki in the movie, that's why I'm touched by this movie... very nice movie indeed... although there might be people who questioned about the ending of this animation, but I love the ending very much. It should be end this way... if not, the story will not bring out the meaningful moment for us to use our imagination and also to touch our soul...

The graphic of this animation is extremely well made. The OST and main theme of this animation is very nice too. A very nice, smooth, soothing, slow, relaxing and touching OST indeed... musics are all able to let you recall the scene of the movie... the sadness... the sweetness... and everything... nice main theme too... "One more time, One more chance"... I personally enjoy this OST & Singles very much... hope you guys out there like it too...

秒速5厘米OST
01 桜花抄
02 想い出は远くの日々
03 焦燥
04 雪の駅
05 Kiss
06 カナエの気持ち
07 梦
08 空と海の诗
09 届かない気持ち
10 END THEME
11 One more time, One more chance Piano ver.

秒速5厘米主题曲 - One more time, One more chance
by Yamazaki Masayoshi
01 One more time, One more chance
02 雪の駅～One more time, One more chance～
03 One more time, One more chance(弾き语りVer.)

洋葱

歌:杨宗纬

如果你眼神能够为我片刻的降临
如果你能听到心碎的声音
沉默的守护著你
沉默的等奇迹
沉默的让自己像是空气

大家都吃著聊著笑著今晚多开心
最角落里的我笑得多合群
盘底的洋葱像我永远是调味品
偷偷的看著你
偷偷的隐藏著自己

如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心
你会发现你会讶异
你是我最压抑最深处的秘密
如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心
你会鼻酸你会流泪
只要你能听到我
看到我的全心全意

听你说你和你的他们暧昧的空气
我和我的绝望装得很风趣
我就像一颗洋葱永远是配角戏
多希望能与你有一秒专属的剧情

如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心
你会发现你会讶异
你是我最压抑最深处的秘密
如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心
你会鼻酸你会流泪
只要你能听到我
看到我的全心全意

如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心
你会发现你会讶异
你是我最压抑最深处的秘密
如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心
你会鼻酸你会流泪
只要你能听到我
看到我的全心全意

你会鼻酸你会流泪
只要你能听到我
看到我的全心全意

Waterboys

SUZUKI is a high school boy who belongs to the swim team of Tadano Boy’s High School. The arrival of a cute new female swimming instructor sparks newfound interest in the boys. However, when she reveals her plans of turning the team into an all-male synchronized swimming team, the numbers quickly plummet, leaving only five boys; an athletically inept SATO, a skinny boy OHTA, a math geek KANAZAWA, a timid boy SAOTOME and SUZUKI. But she suddenly discovers she is 8 months pregnant and goes on maternity leave.

Inspired by her dream, the five boys struggle for preparing the high school festival. Once the summer holidays start, they do a training camp under the weird dolphin trainer ISOMURA in the aquarium. But the first exercise ISOMURA orders them is to polish fish tank... 5 boys “accidentally” entered a fake swimming club and end up preparing for the performance for the school annual event… this is how the story begins...

I watched this movie during the Japanese Film Festival in my university which I’m among the organizing team. A very nice movie actually, but I prefer Waterboys 2 drama series. This movie is very funny, but not really as touching as the Waterboys 2 drama series. If you still remember the teacher who is teaching the 5 boys in Waterboys 2… you’ll see him again in this movie, this time he is still a student. Which means you’ll get a chance to know about his past for those who watched Waterboys 2 like me.

Nice movie overall!