Ending soon

1 more week to go before holiday ends... i'll back to Sabah on 6 July... now trying my very best to finish all unfinished things here before i left... end of my part time job soon, a lot of mess here and there, just hope can get my salary as soon as possible. will go to Tioman next week, hope it will be an enjoying trip. after back to Sabah, then i can start blogging frequently again, downloading non-stop again, suffering again... whatever is it, good luck to everyone who will start their new semester as i do. Good bye to all my friends here at Peninsula... take care & etc...

New Laptop?

Well, my sister is desperate in buying a new laptop. And she asked me is my laptop still good in condition or not. Well, my NEC is in fine condition of course. Then she said she’ll buy one laptop, and then she’ll let me use the new one and she take my NEC and use. If I’m not happy with the new laptop, then only I switch it back with her.

So, here’s the detail of the laptop she bought:

COMPAQ Presario V3795TU

RM3099

Intel Core 2 Duo T8300 2.4GHz

14.1’” WXGA HD Widescreen Display

250GB 5400rpm SATA hard drive

2GB DDR2 RAM (Dual Channel)

Intel Graphic Media Accelerator X3100 with shared graphics memory

Super multi 8x DVD+R/RW Double Layer

Intel PRO/Wireless 3945a/b/g 802.11a/b/n

WLAN

Bluetooth

5-in-1 card reader

Webcam

Optical mouse

1GB Pendrive

Laptop bag

Well, I think is worth by looking at the specification and the price. Just hope this baby can last long just like my NEC because I’m a heavy laptop user. It is a free DOS machine, and the installation of Window is actually a damn strange and funny process. You’ll need a floppy disk to get the job done. Weird? Yup. So I bought a external floppy drive, so just in case I need to reformat my laptop next time… anyway, facing some minor problem in installing the driver, some of the driver just don’t allow me to run, saying that “minimum requirement does not met”, I wonder what is that actually. Well, the whole laptop is functioning well so far, so I just put the problem aside first. So just hope that everything goes right and the new laptop can “gradually” belong to me… hehe… miss my NEC a lot… the 15.4” screen is really a cinema entertainment effect… this 14.1” is really… small… alrght, whatever it is, thank you to my sister first. Hope she’ll be fine with my “heavy weight” NEC laptop. Good bye to my dear NEC which has “take good care of me” for such a long time… 2 years in total… just hope everything will slowly goes to the better side.

What your birthday tells about you

I saw this book the other day at Selayang Mall Popular Bookstore, under the Oriental section, where all the “Feng Shui” books are. The title of the book is something like “what your birthday tells about you”, red cover and dictionary-like book. Well, I read about my birthday… I think is quite accurate though, if you don’t mind you may try to find the book and check you birthday out!

April 23, Taurus

There is an elusive quality to people born on this date that is difficult to pinpoint and even harder to define. Although you are a nonconformist with beliefs that often run counter with conventional wisdom, your affable surface personality can mask your determination to do what you think is right – regardless of other people’s opinions. As an innovator and visionary, you can sense future trends, and by staying in touch with practical reality, you’re able to put your cutting-edge ideas to use in enterprises that are productive and profitable.

Although you may act as a guide for others, you’d rather do your own thing than follow in someone else’s footsteps. When dealing with facts and figures, your clear headed, forthright manner of presentation helps you make a convincing case for your ideas. Your progressive outlook allows you to see future possibilities that the less imaginative can’t even conceive. Intellectually, you are usually light years ahead of your peers. Emotionally, however, you can be set in your ways. You normally don’t welcome change in your personal life, especially not abrupt changes to your habitual way in doing things.

You attract many casual friends and acquaintances, yet you’re quite particular when it comes to close relationships. There is a possessive streak to your nature that belies your own desire for freedom and independence. Ultimately, your deep-seated need for the stability and consistency of a loving, intimate union helps you overcome your inner reservations.

Early June of 2008

Back from a trip to Port Dickson recently. I went there with my primary school friends. It’s a nice trip; everyone is having fun playing, chit-chatting and fooling around. It is just like a small gathering for all of us. I’m happy that I’m part of them this time. A two days one night trip staying at a friend’s apartment, having a BBQ dinner and drunk each other up with the whisky... really have a good time there.

I’ll start working part time during weekends soon, so no more shopping time for me on the weekends. Luckily I’d already visit all the major shopping center before this, so there’s no regret from me anymore. I hope I can manage to earn some bucks up so I can have enough to spend during my Tioman Island trip on early July with my friends.

Motor learning progress is better than I expected. But recently no more motor for me to practice daily already, so just hope I can still manage to ride it well next time. My skill is still not that good; I don’t think I’ll ride straight to the main road... I’ll spend more time touring around the housing area first.

Busy with my story writing and anime watching recently, just hope my story can be done on time... by the way, get my result already... PNGS 3.56, better than expected, my result consist of a lot of B ad A-, just hope next semester I can do better than this.

Anyway, I’m chasing back all the old memories this holiday. I do hope that I can get something from it and makes me get better mentally. Well, all I can do now is just pray that I can get out of the box soon. I hope that everyone enjoy their holiday as well. Take care to all my university friends, we’ll meet very soon.

爱•穿越时空

你那大步奔向操场的背影

比飘浮在天空的云更自由

连那笔记上整齐排列的字

也宛如照亮一切的阳光般

我并不清楚喜欢的感觉到底应该是怎样

但是那不会再倒流的时光

却教会了我爱的含义

和你一起共度过的时光，已深深地烙印在我的心中

即使将来不再想起，也不会将它们忘记

即使有一天我会喜欢上他人

你在我心中永远都是很特别，很重要的...

看来，这个季节将再次离去

你对我说永远都不会忘记的那个夏天

那个只是属于你和我的季节

时光无情地流逝着，此时此刻我淌出了泪水...

在这无止境的时空中，因为能够和你相遇

使我变得更加的坚强

即使终于到达了那个自己不顾一切奋力追寻的明天

你在我心中依然会是很特别，很重要的...

也许，这个季节将会再次到来也说不定

珍惜着你我的一切

祝福着你我的未来

希望我的爱，能够穿越时空

给在遥远的你送上

只是简单的一份心意，一份感觉

就算只是那样，我...已经心满意足了...

Home

Saturday, just when I landed at KL, went for a mother’s day dinner with my sisters and my mom at Pavilion. Eat at “Dai Guan Shan”, the food is just ok lo… Amazed by the parking autopay station that able to change notes rather than coins… the next day, is Sunday, went for a movie and dinner with my friends… Iron man lo… ok lo… Monday, went to sing K with my friends at The Curve… sing from 3pm till 9pm… we had been waiting for the bill to come around 6pm and yet it still don’t want to come… so we got no choice but to continue sing all the way until 9pm… hehe… the next day I went to grab some Gundam back home from Low Yat and Time Square… meet my University friend also… borrow him my memory card because he is going to Thailand to backpack travel. Wanted to go too… but I don’t think I can eat any Thailand spicy food… so never mind la… wish him got a safe and enjoying trip… the 3 days I’m home, every day I spent half day outside with my friends… in the end? My mom starts mumbling already… but don’t care… taking course and will get the L license for learning motor soon… can’t find any motor to learn le… don’t know how now… just hope things can settle soon, if not my mom will continue to mumble and mumble and mumble… sien…

The End

Finally, this is the last day for me to stay at Sabah, later I’ll fly back to KL at 3.45pm, reach KL around 6.15pm, hopefully. A long waited holiday? Maybe… no matter what it is, it’s always a nice feeling to go home… there’s no place like home… as what everyone saying. I had been dislike university life since the day I enter university… after 2 years of study, I still can’t find myself like any part of it. Sad as it may be… but what can a helpless and useless me can do to counter such fate in my life?

After today, my blog here will “officially” hibernate for one and a half month… don’t expect as many post as now… almost 1 post a day (hehe… what to do? Very free everyday…) I’ll still try my best to post some post from time to time… but don’t expect many from it.

Want to build some Gundam this holiday, even though no more space to display them… hehe… will complete the story I propose to write early January… will complete it and post it here too... need to enjoy some nice holiday with my friends back at KL… miss them a lot. In the end, they are the only people which I can really relax and trust myself to them… I think I’ll stop my plan on “forcing” my mom to get a streamyx account for my house, don’t think I’ll have any more time for holiday in the future… so just let it be first… and pray the WiMax will cover until my area… hehe… want to learn motor, so there’s another option for me in the future… but I don’t even know how to ride a bicycle… just hope I can manage it.

Looking forward for the short break… hope that it won’t end that fast, but just 1 and a half month… nothing much can be expected from there… sigh… happy holiday to all my friends… enjoy yourself!

南风

坐在窗口边 望着窗外

一阵风迎面吹来

清醒了头脑 冷静了心绪

我问自己

我为什么会在这里?

我到底在这里干什么?

我到底还有做梦的权利吗?

我到底还能寻找自己的未来吗?

我到底……还活着吗?

已经渐渐的感觉不到自己的存在

已经非常厌恶现在的自己

已经……结束了吗?

我的人生可能是一个错误

我的生命可能是一文不值

我的存在可能是毫无意义

风

依旧一如以往 轻轻地吹着

依旧一如往常 温柔地吹着

但愿这阵南风

能够吹去我所有的忧愁

能够吹去我所有的苦闷

多么希望这阵南风

能够把我吹到遥远的北方

能够把我带到北极星身旁

但愿一切能够如愿以偿

但愿人生能够变得光亮

但愿生命能够有着星光

南风继续吹着

我依然还在这

我似乎……还活着

我好想... Kira Yamato...

Kira Yamato，他是一部卡通－Gundam SEED 和Gundam SEED Destiny的主角。他是一个少年，一个热爱和平的少年，一个爱哭的少年，一个空虚的少年... 不知道为什么，突然有这种感觉，我好想成为他，成为Kira Yamato... 并不是说希望像他那样解救世界，而是希望能够像他一样，看透一切，不断的成长。 在故事刚开始的时候，他是一个天真的少年，机缘巧合下和朋友乘搭上军舰。厌恶战争的他后来开始参战，因为他要保护军舰上的朋友。战斗中他却发现自己的好友 竟然也从军，而且还变成了敌人。这段期间，他失去了许多想要保护的东西。直到他遇见了Lacus Clyne，一个来自和平协会的女子，终于能够看透一切，尽自身的能力去保护大家，保护这世界。 一路走来，在与好友战斗时，被人误会时，被人背叛时，被人指责时，目睹死亡时，失去珍贵的东西时，筋疲力尽时... 他流过了不知多少泪水，但是依然坚强的走向前。在得到Lacus Clyne的指引下，他看透了一切，从这时候开始，他就不再哭泣。任何时候都能够沉稳的面对问题，爱哭的Kira Yamato也成长了，成熟了。 总觉得现在的自己和他有些相似的地方，都是被许多事情苦恼着，都是借着泪水来清洗自己。但是，我真的能够好像他一样，能够有一天看透一切，不再哭泣，变得坚强吗？其实我一直都在渴望，渴望着我的生命中能够出现一个Lacus Clyne，一个真的了解我，一个能够引导我的人。这可能性应该微乎极微吧... 我何德何能呢？ 所以，我好想... 成为... Kira Yamato...

3月9日の粉雪

季节就像回轮一样不断的流转

不知不觉中又到了粉雪飞舞的季节

人群之中的你和我都目睹着从空中飘落的粉雪

风一阵阵的吹来，只觉得一丝丝的冰冷与孤寂

漫长的日子在寂静中渡过

多么想和你一起描绘出我们的未来

3月的风静静的吹着

樱花也随着风将花瓣洒满街道

这时候感觉到了早晨的阳光

在寒冷中默默的送着温暖

独自一个人站在这街头

仿佛期待着久违的身影出现在眼帘

轻轻的闭上眼睛

只看见你那张熟悉的脸

就算有再多的话语想对你说

但是始终还是开不了口

何时何地我才能变得比现在更勇敢与坚强

有没有人能够为我解开这谜底

清澈蔚蓝的天空覆盖着大地

天上的白云也随着风而摇摆

树上的樱花正美丽的绽放着

虽然我们可能像被吹落的花瓣各分东西

但是我仍然衷心的祈祷着

希望有一天你能够找到你要的幸福

踏着街上的花瓣静静的走着

悲喜交错的感觉冲澈了我那空虚的心

抬头望着天空

感觉多么的悲泣

我只能对着苍天叹息

责怪那阵风将我们的距离吹得越来越遥远

但愿这些雪白的粉雪能够将我的身心净化

但愿粉雪飘向的远方能引导我到永远的未来

街道好像漫长的无尽延伸

粉雪仍不断的飘落

我此刻的心已经被它所动摇

我此刻的孤寂甚至能够把天空也给遮盖

多么想逃离冰冻寒冷的这里

倚靠着彼此互相温暖着对方

感受着你的体温

让粉雪也能被我们所溶化

只要你轻轻握住我的手

我就已经感觉到我的存在

只要有你同行

这街道也不再漫长

这寒风也不再冰冷

樱花为我们献上花瓣以示祝福

一起走到了街道的尽头

一起打开前往未来的那道门扉