Some thoughts

Don't care how people look at you
Don't care how you look at other people
Sometime we just have to be selfish a little
Care for yourself, that's enough
Don't expect other people will live the way you wish for
So rather than not happy about other people
Why don't I just let them be and live happier myself?
Don't think too much
Don't expect anything
Don't do anything stupid
Just live my life as normal as possible...

-.-

no post for these few days... modem got problem... sorry
sigh...

Determine...

Busy preparing for final... so sorry for not putting in some "quality" post recently...Anyway, I insist of scribble something here daily... so when you feel bored in your study, hop in and have a look around ^.^

Today is aunty YC bday... wish her face will turn more yellow yr after yr... hehe...

Those who watch anime... here's a stupid site which I think you like it... http://hero_hki.mysinablog.com/index.php

I'm still working hard in study... can focus better already... but will get sleepy easily... sigh... I think everyone also the same like me is it? So don't think too much on that...

These few nights actually didn't study because went out to "wet"... hehe... went to dinner at different places and "yam cha" with friends since they rented car for field work purpose...

OK la... that's all for today. See you tomorrow.

losing out

Slowly wait for the "MAJOR UPDATE" la... take some time...
Rain for almost 3 days non-stop here... can't wash clothes like that...
Weather too nice due to rain... can't concentrate well in study...
Must really work hard already... this is the N time I say this... sigh...
Everyone work hard for your final also... Good luck!

wait patiently...

something big might be happening soon... please wait for it...
if you are curious about it... guess it yourself...
don't ask me what is that... still private and confidential...
when it happens... my blog will require a MAJOR update...
that's all... thank you

don't throw smelly egg on me ok? hehe...

Work hard please...

Teach me how to stay focus...
Too many "attraction" around me...
Too much noise around me...
I'm easily drift away from my study...
Time is running out already...
Really have to focus... and focus... and focus...
Study... and Study... and Study...

思念是一种病

张震岳

当你在穿山越岭的另一边
我在孤独的路上没有尽头

一辈子有多少的来不及
发现 已经 失去
最重要的东西
恍然大悟 早已远去
为何总是在犯错之后
才肯相信 错的是自己
他们说这就是人生
试著体会 试著忍住眼泪
还是躲不开应该有的情绪
我不会奢求世界停止转动
我知道逃避一点都没有用
只是这段时间裡 尤其在夜裡
还是会想起 难忘的事情
我想我的思念是一种病
久久不能痊癒

当你在穿山越岭的另一边
我在孤独的路上没有尽头
时常感觉你在耳后的呼吸
却未曾感觉你在心口的鼻息

汲汲营营
忘记身边的人需要爱和关心
藉口总是拉远了距离
不知不觉 无声无息
我们总是在抱怨事与愿违
却不愿意回头看看自己
想想自己 到底做了甚麼蠢事情
也许是上帝给我一个试炼
只是这伤口需要花点时间
只是会想念 过去的一切
那些人事物 会离我远去
而我们终究也会远离
变成回忆

当你在穿山越岭的另一边
我在孤独的路上没有尽头
时常感觉你在耳后的呼吸
却未曾感觉你在心口的鼻息
Oh 思念是一种病
Oh 思念是一种病 一种病

多久没有说我爱你
多久没有拥抱你所爱的人
当这个世界不在那麼美好
只有爱可以让他更好
我相信一切都来得及
别管那些纷纷扰扰
别让不开心的事 停下了脚步
就怕你不说 就怕你不做
别让遗憾继续 一切都来得及

当你在穿山越岭的另一边
我在孤独的路上没有尽头
时常感觉你在耳后的呼吸
却未曾感觉你在心口的鼻息

当你在穿山越岭的另一边
我在孤独的路上没有尽头
时常感觉你在耳后的呼吸
却未曾感觉你在心口的鼻息
Oh 思念是一种病
Oh 思念是一种病 一种病

当全世界都抛弃我的时候，我选择了离开这个世界

Tired... mentally & physically

Really feel very tired... sometime I wonder why am I working so hard for my club... what for I do all this and that... have meeting, members don't come also didn't inform me... come late... when meeting all doing their own things... sigh... don't feel like want to make the meeting those official style, but end up things turn to become ugly. As if I'm the only fella so stupid to keep on motivated to do things... senior are busy with their FYP, and juniors... don't really see their heart in this club... maybe I should have select a new AJK board and leave... then there's nothing for me to worry anymore... but I just can't do that... sigh... wonder is it worth at all for me to skip class, rush last minute assignment for this club... really getting tired about it already... physically and mentally... but there's nothing much I can do... but keep on exhausting myself for it...

Japanese Film Festival 2

Well, although is called Japanese Film Festival, I rather prefer to name it Doraemon Film Festival. Doraemon had been appointed as the ambassador of anime from Japan, that’s why this event was held last Friday and Saturday to promote this news to everyone at KK. The event was in UMS library auditorium hall 1… the place was nice… everything fine… only some technical issue regarding the sound system at the beginning of the show. Enjoy myself very much in this event… having lots of fun although it really makes me feel so tired… tired until when I fall asleep, my alarm also can’t wake me up on time… hehe… meet vice consu Mr. Okada, and also Consulate General of Japan at KK! A nice experience to have. Thank you every committee member for the hard work. Appreciate it very much. Hope you all have fun too.

Movie showed: Doraemon – Nobita’s Dinosaur 2006

The gigantic poster for publicity purpose… air mail all the way from Japan to Malaysia to display for 2 days then air mail back to Japan… wow!

Time to get serious

Final exam is coming... after lazying for the whole sem, is time to get serious in study... if not... will sure die beautifully in the exam... although I don't really think I'll survive nicely this sem with all those shit subject and lecturers... anyway... just try my best to work things out before it is too late... my friends, do scold me if know I didn't study hard ok?

I am who I am

Maybe people will think that I’m different in blog, real life, etc… well, it’s not really a different person. I do agree that everyone will have different side of your own self… is just that whether you show it out to others or not. I myself think that… yes, I seem complicated… but I didn’t hide away myself from the others… so no matter what side of me you are seeing… I am who I am… love it or hate it? haha... ^.^

Here’s a blog post I grabbed from my previous Friendster blog. Thank you for being a part of my life to everyone who may concern…

I don’t like sleeping, but when I’m not enough sleep I’ll get mad easily.
I don’t like to talk, but I don’t mind to become the talkative person among friends.
I like to give a lot of comment to some statement. I believe everyone in this world has the right to say things that they want to say. It’s better than keeping all of them and only say out those fake beautiful words.
I like to receive comment from friends.
I like to listen to my friends’ problem, and try my best to help them out.
I like to have fun with friends, but at the same time I do like to be alone sometimes.
I’m a clever person, but I’m damn lazy. That’s why I always screwed up my exam.
I don’t like to think a lot; don’t like to decide things like where & what to eat.
I’m patient person; I can wait for hours without any words.
I hate people who talks big but do nothing, ego, hold their pride high.
I like to try things that I’m interested only, so don’t force me for something that I rejected.
I hate people disturb me when I’m in bad mood.
I might mumble a lot, but I don’t always angry about the things I said.
I do easily get angry sometimes, but the reason I angry is because I angry about myself.
I’m easy going with almost anything, but there are a few things that I can’t tolerate at all.
I can be friend with any type of person as long as they willing to be friend with me.
I choose to trust every single person of my friends.
I don’t have many friends. The rest of them are just “people that I know”, they’re not friends.
I’m very mind about friendship problem. I don’t want to lose any of them.
I only mind about what is inside. I don’t care how it is from the outside.
I can’t accept anyone that betrays me, not even once.
I won’t go along by just being praised by others.
I prefer my life to be as low profile as possible, rather than become a well-known person.
I like to dream, but slowly I’d lost the courage to do so because reality is always so cruel.
I like anything related to art and design, animation, CG and etc.
I don’t keep secret myself. I will say anything when people ask; it’s just that no one ask me about them.
I never ever break my promise with friends.
I don’t smile a lot because I can’t really find a reason to do so.
I like to try all kind of sports and all sorts of activities.
I just hope to find someone that can understand me, treat me good & has good personality to be with me for the rest of my life.
I’m not greedy at all. I got what I need, it’s enough.
I don’t really mind how others think about me, but I really mind how my friends think about me.
I’m willing to say sorry for anything that I done wrong and do my best to cover it back.
I’m willing to spend money on things that I want.
I don’t look down on people.
I’ll touch by sad scene, story or people.
I don’t really believe love in first sight, but I believe like in first sight.
I care about others more than my own self.
I like to disturb people sometime when the atmosphere is too down.
I like to see my friends falling in love. I will pray for them being able to be together forever.
I’ll say some pointless thing sometime; just ignore them if you don’t like it.
I like to learn all sort of new things, but I don’t like exam.
I like Malaysia, but I hate the politics, policy and etc.
I’ll treat girls well because this is what a man should do.
I don’t mind to become a clown or what so ever if this will make others feel better and have fun.
I’m quite stubborn sometime depending on the issue involved.
I don’t like to be control tightly by others.
I hate people who don’t serious or play around with relationship.
I hate people that treat girls bad.
I don’t like aunty attitude.
I’m good in withstanding pressure & etc.
I never compare myself to others. I just need to be the best I can be then it’s enough.
I can accept the existence of lesbian and gay.
I’m a very choosey person when I’m searching something for myself, such as clothes & etc.
I prefer fan than air con, sunny day than rainy day.
I’m sentimental person although I don’t look like one.
I got all sort of bad habits such as biting my fingers & etc.
I don’t like noisy environment (except when it is needed such as party music & etc)
When I like someone or something, I can like it for my whole life and it won’t change.
When someone pisses me off, I’ll return it in double.
I don’t give face to people.
I’m just… who I am…

Sem ends...

Finally... this sem is going to over soon... just died another mid term today... wonder why can die so many mid term in 1 sem... tired today... just finish Doraemon Film Festival in UMS today... I'm the organizer some more... hehe... although at first was asked by the consulate of Japan to host such event... anyway, the event was successful... wil talk more bout that next time... today too tired to type already... exhausted... still got a pile of assignment to do... but finally... is coming to an end... just hope everything goes well for the very last week of this sem... sigh...

Muacks~ my dear...

Photo taking VS taking photo

Photo taking… well, people around me should know this well… I don’t like to take photo… to be precise, I don’t like to be in a photo… sometime I’m kind of can’t stand people that can take picture non-stop no matter where they are and what they are doing. But I do agree that photo is something nice for memory keeping. But unfortunately (well, I have to use this word since people are thinking I’m abnormal because I don’t like to take photo), I do enjoy taking photo… this time around I mean I take the photo using camera. I really enjoy every moment I have when I’m holding a camera… searching for the best moment… the best shot… the best scene… the best angle… picture I take actually got some quality in it (well, this is just what I say myself, no professional point of view in any sort of it)… come to think of it, have I ever dream of being a photographer before? Think… thinking… can’t really recall. Maybe I did… but it brings no meaning to me anymore now… another dream that can’t be achieved… sad…

Shopping

I miss shopping back at peninsula...

Wait for me... Sungei Wang... Low Yat... Pavilion... Time Square... 1 Utama... The Curve... Ikano... Sunway Pyramid... KLCC... Mid Valley...

Meet in 2 months time!
^.^

Ugly Hamilton

Watched the Japanese Formula 1 Grand Prix on Sunday… Hamilton starting at pole position as a drivers’ championship leader, beside him was Kimi Raikonen, follow by Alonso, Kovailen and Massa. The race started with Kimi dashing ahead of Hamilton. Kovailen was obviously faster than Hamilton too, but everything went wrong when Hamilton force his own teammate aside, and speed himself up to a limit where he can’t even control his car properly, over braking, locking wheels, dive into the first corner deep and pushing everyone out of the track… what an ugly move by someone who has the potential to become the youngest F1 World Champion… due to the reckless act by Hamilton, everyone starting from Kimi, Massa til all the way back to the end of the field have to run wide to avoid colliding with him… in the end most of the front runner lose out places, and I do believe that the accident in the first corner at the back of the field was due to Hamilton’s foolish driving. I would say Massa do take a penalty for colliding with Hamilton at one of the corner later on… but a drive through penalty is just too little to punish Hamilton for creating such a chaos… and at the last lap, Hamilton who was lapped by the race leader Alonso was charging against Alonso… and again, recklessly… just to un-lapped himself from being 1 lap behind the race leader… this act really piss me off. I would label this as “completely no manners” and I do believe that he doesn’t even have any sporting spirit in him… once I do think he is good, but now… he had made his way into my blacklist of F1 driver, together with Alonso, Montoya & Hakkinen, where all of them are in the same category… ego driver…

It is really sad and mad to see things like this to happen. Even if you do grab the grab the Drivers’ Championship this year, Hamilton, you don’t deserve it at all… never… thumbs down on you…

L.O.V.E.

What is love? I wonder… I would define it to be something simple… a simple feeling that rises from the heart, unpolluted by other factors. Do Adam and Eve fall in love to each other? I wonder… all this while, what am I looking for my love? I wonder… come to think of it, I do belive I’m looking for the same simple thing as what defined just now too… someone that I like, and someone that like me… this is the only requirement that I’m looking for to start a love… wonder why other factors will matter… really can’t figure it out. I believe human should live their life as simple as possible, back to the basic and don’t think too much because you’ll get drift away.

Human were spoilt by their good living… and since then they start to demand more and more, day after day… who said boyfriend must be handsome and girlfriend must be pretty? Who said the guy must be rich? Who said the guy must give everything he has to the girl? Feeling that the world is getting distorted… people are forgetting the basic theory… that’s why people are suffering here and there, living their life unhappily. I do believe in this deeply.

Often girls will say that the guy can’t give her a “secure” feeling… that’s why she leave him or what. Wonder where the “secure” feeling come from. What “secure” means? Is that a demand? Or is it a must? I do believe that “secure” is just a word created as a fake reason to make someone feels better when be with someone or dump someone away.

If you really like someone, or love someone, you won’t care how they look, how they act, how they talk, how they live… for this reason, only the phrase “love is blind” came in… you won’t even think twice before doing anything for someone you love. Just do what is in your mind and that it. If you love someone, you should be able to accept everything about him or her. If you ask for something from him/her, let say a change in something… you should be able to do the same in return… changing something for him/her. Love is never a one way road… both should work things out, and this is important… work before you demand… “Give and take” is what I believe is true all this while… a basic concept that I hold on for so long…

This is a something that I would like to share here:
True love does not mean possession or jealousy.
Love is a decent word; it carries all your pains and sorrows away.
Love is patient. Love is giving. Love is forgiveness.
One day, when you find love, your dream is just become…

伤

言语，一个人类用来沟通的工具
原来，也可成为锐利无比的武器
也许，无意之间我也用了这利器
但是，我真的并不知道错在哪里
只是，现在感觉我心正在淌着血
因为，我也被这把利刃给割伤了
如果，我做错了这就是我的报应
可是，不知来龙去脉已让我崩溃
或许，只是在身上多加一道伤痕
可能，已经来到该梦醒的时分了

Nodame Cantabile – Paris hen

This is the second season of the nice anime – Nodame Cantabile. I like the first season of the anime very much and now comes the second season… of course I won’t miss it out too! The first season talks about Chiyaki’s life in striving to become a great musician… but his life was interrupted by Nodame, a girl who has great talent in playing piano but weird from inside out. I kind of like the story between Chiyaki and Nodame… like to see those stupid actions from Nodame, like to see the funny relation between them… a very nice anime indeed… the second season talks about what happen after Chiyaki finally overcome his fear of taking a flight… so both Nodame and Chiyaki arrive at France to further their study in music… the story starts here…

Really looking forward on what will happen in this season… the first episode had just released… already watched it… really nice and didn’t disappoint me… a soothing and nice anime, hope u guys like it too.

Pit Stop...

Finally... a brief moment to take a breath... but still there are lots of works piling up there waiting for me to do... rao assignment, tutorial, mid term next week... (really like never ending...) then need to pass up methodology assignment... math quiz next week too... sigh... but the big good news is no need to see a fat ass lecturer face anymore... the school send him for training wor... he somemore dare say he donno why school send him for training course... what else idiot? You are too shit to be a lecturer la... that's why! So will busy until next weekend only got some free time... but final is already around the corner... study... hope so la... and to my dear... sorry for you to continue to wait lo... when i free that time only I'll start dating you... OK? Next week my club is showing Doraemon Movie - Nobita's Dinosaur 2006 in UMS... hope the program runs smooth... tired... need to take some rest before I continue my work...

Happy birthday to my fren Kae Luen...
Muacks~ to my dear...

Last minute rushing

almost 1am in the morning... tired... sleepy... but no choice... need to continue work for some stupid idiot lecturer's assignment... what to do... sigh... doing my best now... good luck to me...

WTF

Stress out...
Tension...
Headache...
Running out of time...
Dying...
Shit...
Double shit...
Bullshit...
Sigh...

busy + busy = BUSY!!

Too busy... busy with club's latest activity... busy with all my assignments... don't really have time to write some quality post recently... feel very guilty... but still I'll try my best to write something nice... but not today... haha... really in a rush... only 3 days left to complete a project... hope it can be done without major problem... other assignments really no eye see already... just try to complete it and pass up and don't care about it already... kind of tired... but what to do? really a very shit semester... sigh... learn nothing at all... keep on dying in test and mid terms... really hopeless...

Wet Ride

Rain for almost 1 day yesterday… and I’m so busy whole day need to go here and there… end up I keep on riding my bike here n there “fighting” against the rain for whole day… wet of course… from top to bottom… luckily got so many spare underwear… haha… indeed troublesome to ride in the rain… I don’t have rain coat, so I just use my sweater as a rain coat… hehe… so end up pants all wet… sweater is slightly water resistance, so nothing much to worry about it… in the rain, some might ride as fast as possible to escape from the rain… but it is dangerous… but if you ride slowly… the rain is torturing… wonder what should I do? The rain hitting like needles… but once get use to it then is ok already… and is so cold during rain… well, I’m just that kind of person that afraid of cold… sometime hand is shaking… but still need to hold tight and continue the journey… need to avoid all the “traps” on the road… if not your leg will extra wet…

Well, not the first time already. Starting to get used to it after became a motorcyclist. Anyway, just hope I won’t fall sick from that.

Remioromen – Tsubasa

New singles from this J-pop band Remioromen… this song is nice, but what I like the most is actually this MV… the view inside is just so beautiful… hope you guys enjoy the songs and also the MV as I do.

rubbish post?

Become very good in sleeping recently... wonder why...
A lot of undone work... stress... must get them done asap...
Didn't sleep well recently... during night... wonder why... easily awake...
1 month left before final exam strikes... still I'm not studying... wait die...
Feel like myself getting not that healthy recently... wonder why...
Maybe I'm just getting old... aging?
Too busy to write blog recently... so just post some rubbish in to fill up the space...
Till then... good luck everyone...

稻 香

词曲：周杰伦

对这个世界如果你有太多的抱怨
跌倒了就不敢继续往前走
为什麼人要这麼的脆弱 堕落
请你打开电视看看
多少人为生命在努力勇敢的走下去
我们是不是该知足
珍惜一切 就算没有拥有

还记得你说家是唯一的城堡 随著稻香河流继续奔跑
微微笑 小时候的梦我知道
不要哭让萤火虫带著你逃跑 乡间的歌谣永远的依靠
回家吧 回到最初的美好

不要这么容易就想放弃 就像我说的
追不到的梦想 换个梦不就得了
为自己的人生鲜艳上色 先把爱涂上喜欢的颜色
笑一个吧 功成名就不是目的
让自己快乐快乐这才叫做意义
童年的纸飞机 现在终於飞回我手里
所谓的那快乐 赤脚在田里追蜻蜓追到累了
偷摘水果被蜜蜂给叮到怕了 谁在偷笑呢
我靠著稻草人吹著风唱著歌睡著了
哦 哦 午后吉它在虫鸣中更清脆
哦 哦 阳光洒在路上就不怕心碎
珍惜一切 就算没有拥有

还记得你说家是唯一的城堡 随著稻香河流继续奔跑
微微笑 小时候的梦我知道
不要哭让萤火虫带著你逃跑 乡间的歌谣永远的依靠
回家吧 回到最初的美好

还记得你说家是唯一的城堡 随著稻香河流继续奔跑
微微笑 小时候的梦我知道
不要哭让萤火虫带著你逃跑 乡间的歌谣永远的依靠
回家吧 回到最初的美好

boom...

Well, heavy rain... thunder strike a tree in front my house till explode... then the fuse jump... my Ethernet switch burned... so won't see me online this few days... sad... hope it will be replace asap...

Dear, I miss u... muacks~

Whole holiday should be very busy... but end up do nothing at all... really shit...

Recently very bad luck... wonder why...

D.Gray-man

Allen Walker is a young Exorcist who has a cursed eye that can see the suffering of the Akumas created by The Millenium Earl. He travels to England to the Headquarters of the Exorcists where his Master has sent him to meet with the other Exorcists. The battle with the Millenium Earl and the Noah Family vs. the Exorcists intensifies when some of the best Exorcists begin to get killed by hoards of Akuma. Japan takes center stage in this end of 19th Century plot in order to not let the entire human race be turned into Akumas and the Exorcists have the power of "Innocence" that was given to them by God on their side.

Allen Walker, a young man with a cursed eye, lives to destroy a weapon known as Akuma. These weapons created by the Milleneum Earl are sent out by his command to purge the world from humans. Allen Walker uses an anti-akuma weapon, Innocence, to counter the Earl's attempts at destroying humanity. He travels to the Black Order by his mentor's directions. There he meets with others who also fight against the Milleneum Earl's plans. But more questions start to appear as Allen and his friends move further along to reach their goal. And these questions that seem to connect to Allen's past.

A very nice anime overall... although the ending is a bit like... too rush and a lot of things are left with question mark... (season 2 maybe?) enjoy watching this anime very much... definitely better than Bleach or Naruto out there which seems like never end and getting boring day after day. Hope you guys like it too...

Opening Theme:
#1: "INNOCENT SORROW" by abingdon boys school (eps 1-25)
#2: "Brightdown" by Nami Tamaki (eps 26-51)
#3: "Doubt & Trust ～ダウト&トラスト～" by access(eps 52-76)
#4: "Gekidou" by UVERworld (eps 77-103)
Ending Theme:
#1: "SNOW KISS" by NIRGILIS (eps 1-13)
#2: "Pride of Tomorrow" by JUNE (eps 14-25)
#3: "Yume no Tsuduki e" by surface (eps 26-38)
#4: "Antoinette Blue" by Nana Kitade (eps 39-51)
#5: "Anata ga Koko ni Iru Riyuu" by Rie fu (eps 52-64)
#6: "Wish" by Sowelu (eps 65-76)
#7: "Regret" by Mai Hoshimura (eps 77-89)
#8: "Changin" by Stephanie (eps 90-103)

Something…

searching for something… wonder what is it
looking for something… wonder what is it
waiting for something… wonder what is it
chasing for something… wonder what is it
hoping for something… wonder what is it
working for something… wonder what is it
sacrificing for something… wonder what is it