给蔡老师的信

昨天晚上，上了倒数第三堂的吉他课

因为老师教的一首歌弹了两个星期都还没练好

所以一进去就先向老师自首：“没什么进展呢，不要期望太高”

他只是笑笑，叫我快点弹

一切就像往常一样...他不断地纠正我弹错的地方...

“手要软一点...姿势不对...换弦快点...跟好拍子...”

弹着，他把一片guitar pick拿出来，示范弹了给我看

“学下用这个弹...这样捉住...弹轻一点...要快...”

一瞬间，感觉上好像许多的东西被灌输到脑海里

半个小时很快就过去了

临走之前，老师把我叫住了

“我在书店里看到一本书，四十多块，从浅到深的教你弹吉他，可以去看看...”

应了老师一声，我到书店里转了一下...

内心，切实的感受到了一股温暖

老师他看来似乎比我还要紧张...

也许想尽可能的在我离开前教我更多的东西，好让我未来慢慢自修

感动，非常的谢谢他的这份心意

这将会是我未来继续自修的最大动力来源

还记得第一次上他的课时，总觉得他很严肃，没什么谈话

但是渐渐的，一切都改变了

也许他和我一样，都不习惯和陌生人说话吧

刚开始的那份距离感...如今已经烟消云散

对不起，因为我是一个那么没天赋的学生

谢谢你，因为一直努力教导我和没放弃过我这样的一个学生

希望将来还有机会再向这位恩师多多学习...

九月

现在看到的，九月就只有一个“忙”字

做不完的工作，解决不完的问题

平服不了的情绪，预见不了的未来

真的让我有点喘不过气来

护照到期了必须更新

手头上有大大小小的工作必须在这个月里完成

还有不少的东西要交代清楚

周末看来也会忙着工作吧...

也没什么关系吧...就那么一个人

平时也是呆在家而已

看到报纸刊着张信哲的演唱会广告

自己只能低头叹气...这次去不成了，下次吧！

家里也有许多必须解决与交代的事物

虽然到现在还不知道十月会变得怎样

但是还是事先安排一下吧

到时候就不必慌乱了

无法控制的事情...无法克制自己一而再的去想它

算了吧，想想就好了，反正什么也做不到

让自己的心绪跌入谷底也不是什么好玩的事

但是这九月的我...应该会过得很阴沉吧...

那天跟吉他老师说将会暂停三个月左右

惊讶的是，他的表情并不是我想象中的平淡

可以感觉到有一丝的失望...

希望我能够把这份感觉化为我前进的力量吧

经过了风风雨雨，来到了九月

除了累，其实已没有什么其他的感觉了

希望自己行尸走肉的日子可以快些过去

我并不想在这样过完我的下半辈子...

九月雨

趁着难得的假期

难得的只有我一个人呆在家里

翻开了自己收藏的影片

看着一部又一部感人的电影

放纵着自己让眼泪直流

让自己的情绪难得的失控一下

好久没有这样坦然地面对自己了

现实的生活往往造就了我把任何事情都往心里掩埋

是时候让他们倾泻了吧？

想起了曾经，想起了过去

有甜美的回忆，有苦涩的往事

现在的我，有怎样呢？

当未来的我回想起现在的我时...会联想到什么呢？

就这样在过去，现在和未来之间周旋，徘徊

眼泪，湿了又干，干了又湿

希望自己难得的被洗涤干净

然后更有勇气，更加坚强的把路走下去...

岁月轻狂 - 李治廷

岁月神偷电影主题曲

水一般的少年
风一般的歌
梦一般的遐想
从前的你和我

手一挥就再见
嘴一翘就笑
脚一动就踏前
从前的少年

啊~ 漫天的回响
放眼看 岁月轻狂
啊~ 岁月轻狂

起风的日子流洒奔放
细雨飘飘 心晴朗
云上去 云上看
云上走一趟
青春的黑夜挑灯流浪
青春的爱情不回望
不回想 不回答
不回忆 不回眸
反正也不回头

啊~ 漫天的回响
放眼看 岁月轻狂
啊~ 岁月轻狂

起风的日子流洒奔放
细雨飘飘 心晴朗
云上去 云上看
云上走一趟
青春的黑夜挑灯流浪
青春的爱情不回望
不回想 不回答
不回忆 不回眸
回不了头

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August End

Wonder why... my blog post is getting lesser and lesser...
Maybe I'm too lazy to blog? Maybe I'm too busy to blog?
I wonder...
Anyway, 8 months passed by... and all that is accumulated in me are frustrations... and more frustrations...
Well, there are many "contributors" that contribute towards these frustrations...

Work will be the main contributor...
Feeling a little lost again... can see the direction... can't feel the future clearly...
Maybe is time to move on and go for a new challenge?

My physical ability is another contributor...
What I want to put out is I'm losing energy... maybe is just a sign of aging?
But I found myself harder to coupe for sports activity more and more, day after day...
Oh boy, am I sick or this is just normal? Pain and ache everywhere... my body just doesn't seems alright...

Life... contributing frustration as well...
Relation issues are yet to be solve... not love issue here... just some family problem
And all I did all this while is just ignoring it and running myself away...
Sigh... what a mess

It's been more than a year since I'm back home
It's been more than a year since I start working
But my life is still... seems to be unable to settle down...
Ended up with more and more frustration accumulating
Wonder when will it blows up?

A week of hard earned and long waited holiday is ahead of me
Hope I can press on the "reset" button and re-order my life
I don't want my life to go on like this
I need a way out... and I'm eagerly searching for it...

杨宗纬 - 那个男人

现不谈论这首歌是否好听，我只是想说...我很喜欢这歌词。很有感觉，唱着我的心声，触动我的心灵。希望你们也会喜欢。

那個男人

有個男人愛著你 用心愛著你
那個男人愛著你 徹底愛著你
他情願變成影子 守候著你 跟隨著你
那個男人愛著你 心卻在哭泣

還需要多久多長 多傷
你才會聽見他 沒說 的話
堅強像謊言一樣 不過是一種偽裝
他只希望有個機會能被你愛上

還需要多久多長 多渴望
你才會走向他 貼在他的身旁
微笑像謊言一樣 是最起碼的假裝
眼淚只能躲藏

那個男人愛著你 忘記了自己
從此他小心翼翼 靜靜等待愛情
他情願選擇相信 為了你 不言不語
那個男人愛著你 傷埋在回憶

不論要多久多長 多傷
他還是愛著你 一如 往常
就好像一個傻瓜 對著那空氣說話
他會不會有個機會能被你愛上

還需要多久多長 多渴望
你才會走向他 貼在他的身旁
微笑像謊言一樣 是最起碼的假裝
眼淚只能躲藏

那個男人就是我你知道嗎
還是知道卻假裝不知道嗎
問到沙啞
你也不會
回答

還需要多久多長 多傷
你才會聽見我 沒說 的話
堅強像謊言一樣 不過是一種偽裝
我只希望有個機會能被你愛上

不論要多久多長 多受傷
我還是愛著你 每分每秒一樣
就好像一個傻瓜 對著那空氣說話
等著被你愛上

Venture to the unknown...

Wondering what I'm wondering...
Been thinking a bit lately... well, maybe a lot...

After half year learning guitar, I'm beginning to get a hold on it...
And there comes the "disasters"... job transition to other country...
Feel a little "sad" about it (maybe my guitar teacher will be happy about it? haha...)
I will try to continue on self learning... I don't want to end up half way...
I really want to make this stick... and I will try my best...

Same goes to photography... well, this is not that big issue...
I can still bring all my gears over and continue shooting...
Really got to sharpen my skills further...
And of course, my target for getting myself a DSLR next year is still on...
This is what I want... so I will try to make it a dream come true as well...

For my Gundam modelling hobby... I will still continue on whenever I can...
I like to use my hand to craft out things...
I enjoy the process, and the moment of the finishing touch...
Although it may not be the major hobby for me for next year...
But I will still continue on when it is within my reach...

Up to now, I'm still searching for what I really want for work...
Maybe this is a good chance for me to explore and decide what I really want...
In fact, I'm still searching for what I really want for life...
Need some time to think and decide... on my needs, my dream, my goal
Is time to plan nicely and get all the puzzle pieces together...

Talk about dream... I really hope to attend the L'20 World Tour which is next year...
Place is not confirmed yet, maybe Hong Kong, Bangkok, Taipei or Shang Hai...
I really hope that I can get myself a ticket and attend the "once in a life time" event...
This will definitely be the best "star chasing" experience...
Will try to make it happen so that there will be no regret in future...

For my family... there's nothing much but "sorry"...
All this while I have not been a good child in the family...
I just don't know why... but I don't know what to say when the time comes...
I don't know how to be a good child in the family...
Sorry for always being the black sheep among the white...

And for the someone I adore...
I don't know how far we can go... and whether you are willing to do so...
But still, I'll pray for your happiness...
It may not be both of us, but still you will live your life a great one...
Crossing my fingers and blessing you with all my wishes...

I can't foresee the future...
But I can anticipate and plan for what might be coming...
Really hope that I'll not disappoint anyone...
I'll do my best, as what I always do...
And we'll see what will be the return...

Better stop wondering what I'm wondering...
And start getting my ass move and get the job done...

Wu Xia (武侠)

Went to watch this movie... well, how can I miss the movie of Takeshi Kaneshiro... haha... anyway, let's talk about what I feel about this movie here.

The story begins with an incident happened in a small village, where 2 wanted criminals attempt to rob a shop. And Donnie Yen saved the shop owner and "accidentally" killed the 2 criminals. And here comes Takeshi Kaneshiro... investigating the truth behind this incident. The way the story unfold is very interesting and tempting. The more he investigate, the more truth has been unveiled. He found out that Donnie Yen didn't killed the 2 criminals by accident. In fact, he is a great kung fu master, and he killed them both by his intention.      

This is where the turning point of the story begins. Donnie Yen admitted he was a murderer before this, and now he want to have a new life again being an ordinary people, a good guy. But Takeshi Kaneshiro didn't think so. He believes that there are no "good guy" or "bad guy" in this world. We decide to be good or bad by our intention and things will change at any time and any moment. He wanted to arrest Donnie Yen. However, Donnie Yen's father (who had trained him to become a murderer and kung fu master) has managed to found him and want him back to his side to help him. Donnie Yen refuse, and then the conflict between them begins.

Well, up until this point the story is still very interesting. But things turn out to be rather disappointing towards the end. At the very beginning,  the story is emphasizing everyone has a good and bad personality inside, and this can be shown clearly from Takeshi Kaneshiro's act and also Donnie Yen's act. However, towards the end, this point is no longer being the center of the story line. In the end, Donnie Yen lose his left arms, Takeshi Kaneshiro died protecting Donnie Yen, and his father died "accidentally". And Donnie Yen live on happily ever after in the small village with his wife...

So, first I don't know why the director has lose his focus on the main theme towards the end... secondly, I got no idea why this movie have this title. It is not about action or kung fu... rather there are only some fighting action towards the end of the movie... which is only a small portion of it. The story is talking about something deeper within everyone. Third, the ending is rather lame... if the main theme of this story is able to carry on until the end, this would have been a great movie. They should ditch those fighting scene and work more on the emotional side. Like in the end, when Takeshi Kaneshiro died, the "bad guy" inside him is standing in front of him and crying... crying for the sacrifice of the "good guy" in him... this is a rather good interpretation which brings out the whole concept of the story.

Well, all in all, the movie did make me think about some of the things like what I have mentioned above... some are quite true... and leaves me ponder for awhile. Worth to watch in cinema? Hmm... I don't think many will like this movie. I like the concept, like the beginning... but dislike the ending. A good story, but poorly told. That is how I can conclude this movie.

突然好想你

到底是何时开始...喜欢上了这一首歌？

已经不记得了...但是，没关系。

除了歌曲好听，当然最重要的还是因为他的歌词

说真的，句句都写到我心底去了

这难得的共鸣，让我沉醉在这首歌曲里...无法自拔

如果我能够有这样的才华，把我内心的想法，感触与情怀都写下来...

那...会有多好啊...

无论如何，这首歌已成为了我的K歌，我的“饮歌”...

也许唱得不好，没关系

只要让自己沉溺在这段情感，这段旋律里...

那...就足够了...

突然好想你
五月天

最怕空气突然安静
最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆突然翻滚绞痛着不平息
最怕突然听到你的消息

想念如果会有声音
不愿那是悲伤的哭泣
事到如今终於让自已属於我自已
只剩眼泪还骗不过自己

突然好想你，你会在哪里
过的快乐或委屈
突然好想你，突然锋利的回忆
突然模糊的眼睛

我们像一首最美丽的歌曲
变成两部悲伤的电影
为什麽你带我走过最难忘的旅行
然後留下最痛的纪念品

我们那麽甜 那麽美 那麽相信
那麽疯 那麽热烈的曾经
为何我们，还是要奔向各自的幸福和遗憾中老去

突然好想你，你会在哪里
过的快乐或委屈
突然好想你，突然锋利的回忆
突然模糊的眼睛

最怕空气突然安静
最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆突然翻滚绞痛着不平息
最怕突然听到你的消息
最怕此生已经决定自己过，没有你却又突然
听到你的消息

July... nothing special

Yup... nothing special this month except quarrel with a Manager which is not my Manager also...
Anyway, don't want to talk about those ass hole here...

July... it's already half way through... time do flies quickly...
My boss is keep on asking me on "something"... and I'm yet to give him an answer
Don't feel like saying "yes" to that "something"...
Haha... "something" is just "something"... if it really happened, only will inform.

Planned a trip to Singapore in August... will take 1 day to walk around Singapore and shooting some pictures
And will spend some time meeting my friends in Singapore...
And of course the main objective is to pay my grandma a visit...
Love you... you are the best grandma in the world...

Planning a trip in September as well (technically, I'm not the one who plan for the trip...)
Wonder it will make it or not... because if that "something" happened...
This will be my last trip this year...
Pray hard... cross fingers...

Spent some time thinking about many things recently...
First one... hobby order re-shuffle: 1. Photography 2. Guitar 3. Gundam modelling...
Next... start saving for my first DSLR... target getting one by next year...
And... some decision has been made for my life... moving to the better future!!

Lastly... so eager to make one of my dream to become a success next year...
But it is not going to be easy to plan... Really hope that I can make one of my dream come true!!
What dream is that? Secret...
Will review only if I have successfully planned it...

2011 is ending soon... yes, it will end without notice...
Let's dash for the remaining 6 months in full force!!