Tuesday, April 27, 2010

生命最后一个月的新娘



看了这部电影,故事讲述一个男人对一个女人的爱,不离不弃,就算那女的患上了绝症,他仍然守候在她身旁,在她临终前,和她结婚,完成了她的心愿。故事十分简单,遗憾的是未能深刻带动出那份情绪...最吸引我的是电影的插曲,“The Rose”。也许我不是第一次听见这歌曲吧...无论如何,一听见就觉得很有共鸣,很漂亮的一首歌,简单却带出了歌词的意义。网上搜索了,发现许多人都唱过这首歌。原唱者已经过世,但是听了几遍,还是觉得电影里头,由Juju演唱的版本最好听。这是下载地址:

Juju - The Rose

歌词如下:

Some say love, it is a river
that drowns the tender reed.
Some say love, it is a razor
that leaves your soul to bleed.

Some say love, it is a hunger,
an endless aching need.
I say love, it is a flower,
and you it's only seed.

It's the heart, afraid of breaking,
that never learns to dance.
It's the dream, afraid of waking,
that never takes a chance.

It's the one who won't be taken,
who cannot seem to give.
And the soul, afraid of dying,
that never learns to live.

When the night has been too lonely,
and the road has been too long,
And you think that love is only
for the lucky and the strong,

Just remember in the winter
far beneath the bitter snow,
Lies a seed, that with the sun's love,
in the spring becomes a rose

Monday, April 26, 2010

私の物語 Ver. 2.5

Yup... is a version 2.5... not really happy with this theme so might change it again in short while... but meanwhile just let it be... it's really had been some times since I started blogging here... can still recall last time blogging in Friendster... haha... will try to start writing a new story... same time I will try to write something about myself... and post it here... feel like my memory is getting weaker recently... a lot of things can hardly remember... Alzheimer? Maybe... old already... so better note down 1st before I lost them...

You can see there is some new tab on top of this page bellow the clouds... "我最重要の小事" will host the new page where I will put up some "secrets" about me from time to time... feel free to read it if you want to know me more. "About me" tab will have a brief profile of mine... all the stories I wrote will be in "My Stories" tab... "home" of course will lead you back to my 私の物語 blog... as "Blogger" tab is link to bloggers page... relocated the labels of some post too... new "Uni" label appears where all the things happened related to my university life will be label by it... take your time to get use to my new theme and layout :-)

Saturday, April 24, 2010

第二十四年的第一天


一次接一次的碰钉,一次接一次的失去,一次接一次的错过
一次接一次的跌倒,一次接一次的站起,一次接一次的受伤
一次接一次的做梦,一次接一次的梦醒,一次接一次的梦碎
也许是时候面对,也许是时候接受,也许是时候承认
童话是不会降临我身上的,梦想是不会莅临我身上的,愿望是不会还愿我身上的
二十三年后的今天,第二十四年的开始,踏上新旅程的开始
是时候该学会放手,是时候该学会放弃,是时候该学会忘记
是时候该学会听天由命,是时候该学会不再做梦,是时候该学会从新开始...

Friday, April 23, 2010

Just another of those day

Well... today is my birthday... so... what? Birthday is just another day for me... well, nothing really special actually... still have to eat, sleep, study or work or anything... some times feels like can't really understand why this day has to be made so... special? Haha... maybe I'm the weirdo here rather than the others.

Anyway, can't really recall any memories on birthday celebration... when I was young, I know there are celebrations around... but I think by the time I started my primary school... such celebration has no longer exist anymore. No cake, no birthday song, no present... nothing. So just "another day" for me... Sad? Well, maybe, but that's what made me strong today XD

So, pardon me because I'm really not use to birthday celebration. Don't get enough practice. If you want me to celebrate for others, I'm willing to do so. But for me... it's ok to just skip it... sometime just not feeling... comfortable or at ease when celebrating my own birthday. Haha... wonder why... not enough practice again... maybe...

Anyway, thanks for all the birthday wishes from my friends. I know you all care about me... and I appreciate it. Well, guess I just have to start getting use to this day... a fearsome day where you will officially older by 1 year... enjoying my day this year all alone watching movies and studying... lazy to celebrate, no one to celebrate with too... no one that I want to celebrate with and maybe no one want to celebrate with me too? Haha... anyway, just another day... don't think too much and everything will be over soon in 24 hours.

Thursday, April 22, 2010

初恋红豆冰


因为身边的人都在狂推这部戏,所以便去看了。之前已经看过了许多人的“影评”,说很好笑啦,有童年的感觉啦...什么的。在我看完这部影片后,只觉得这样评论这部戏的人...好肤浅。不过,如果没有这样的人,商业片就不会卖座,电影业恐怕就要垮了。所以并不能否定这些人的存在。唉...为什么大家都不能用“心”去看电影呢?只是单单用“眼”看,满足自己的五官...这样看电影,感觉上太没意义了。这样的影评...阿牛看了一定会很伤心...

言归正传,看完这部电影的感想...该怎么说呢,有一种莫名的感动。故事发展很简单,剧情很简单,对白很简单。但是拍摄的手法,沉静的画面,不做作的配乐...都独自散发出个别的讯息。众多的人物,但是他们之间所牵扯的关系与情感...却是那么以外的直接与明了。父母与长大的孩子之间那微妙的关系与转变,朋友之间渐渐成熟而各奔前程的转变,一段纯纯的友谊,暗恋与相恋而没相爱的转变,知道最后时间冲淡一切过后的那心境的转变...就这样,被简简单单的带了出来。这样的情节,可以说对现在这样年龄的我们来说是非常贴切,窝心与深感同受的。已经跨过这年龄的安哥安娣们,也许可以重温过去那段遗失的美好...还没到这年龄的,就当作是一部普通的电影看好了,将来可能会发现到这故事的美妙之处吧...

在学业上,事业上,友谊上,家庭上,爱情上,亲情上的交叉路口,此时此刻的我...会怎么继续走下去呢?大家又会怎么做出选择呢?在这转折点上...一切可能将要改变...但是我们过去的那份回忆...不知是否还能保存呢?无论如何,希望自己能够昂首走出自己想要的下一步,不会后悔。也希望我在大家的记忆里,有着一个还算正常的存在吧!哈哈...最后还是会推荐大家去看这部电影,记得...用“心”去看...希望你们也会喜欢。

Monday, April 19, 2010

Exam starting...

For people like me... who will not get a 1st class... and sure won't drop out from 2nd class... it brings no meaning already to study for the last time in the final exam... my study week had been spent on watching movies and anime in my collection... got a bad feeling that my external hard disk will die soon because can hear some moving parts sound in it... so better finish all my collection asap before it is too late... :-P

Spent some time in doing the slides for my FYP presentation... yeah, this is definitely more important than the exam... even if I die in the exam... should have been able to still pass it due to the course work and etc... but FYP... die means die... so don't play play... but 100 pages of thesis have to cramp into a 15-20 minutes presentation... this is really a disaster for me... shit... have to really drop out a whole lot of things and only touch and go those really important stuff... argh... having a hard time doing the slides...

Totally no mood studying... there is a paper tomorrow... sigh... forget it... don't think can score even if I really read it. Focus fire for the coming papers better... just hope these few weeks can pass by as soon as possible...

Thursday, April 15, 2010

Mid of April...

Recently had been kind of lazy... sleep most of the time... study a little bit... watch anime the rest of the time... haha... too many anime in stock, so have to finish them... won't really have the time to watch it when working or back to KL... because there are still many things waiting for me to do when I'm back! haha...

Recently watched a few movies... Clash of the Titans is acceptable... at least better than Percy Jackson... The Blind Side is nice... talk about love that crosses the boundary of skin colour... then Dance! Subaru is a movie about a girl who dedicated her life just to dance on behalf of her brother... PRIDE is a story about 2 girls from total different background approaching their dreams to become a singer in 2 different ways... and City of Angels which is an old movie from Nicholas Cage that talks about the love story between an angel and a human...

Still no mood to study... weather is so hot here... feel like want to go out and don't want to stay home... but got nowhere to go... yup... no place to go indeed... in the end must admit that here is Sabah... no choice... not much entertainment around... people around seems getting mad due to rushing of FYP and etc... so just let them be and enjoy some great time being all alone first...

Sunday, April 11, 2010

So glad leaving Uni soon

Starting from tomorrow will be the study week... then the exam will start for 3 weeks time... after that, just left thesis correction and binding and everything will be over... still got about 1 month time being here... already there are questions such as "will you miss your university life" flying around in the air... well, for me, there's no need to think deep and think twice on it, because my answer is definitely: NO!!! Everyone say that I will miss it once I start to work... well, currently I don't think so...

I do admit that there are moments which indeed is memorable. I'm glad that I joined a lot of activities in University, people that I know through the activities are really friends. Next, I will miss some of the great lecturer here, hope that I can keep in touch with them. Finally, I'll miss the moment when staying with my house mates in Lorong 3... they are really great friends... apart from these... nothing more for things that directly related to University.

I'd been feeling kind of fed up seeing people around... seeing all the ugly truth... must not deny that this is what I will see in future working life, but I do hope that I won't meet up with people like these in my future... really can't stand it... there are people that can be so ego until the whole world is wrong and only he is right... there are people that so parasite that will attach to who that can give advantage to him and leave when it is no use anymore... there are people that the skin on their face is few meters thick... there are people that will keep on saying bad things about others but doesn't realize that it is his problem... there are people that are so no manners... there are people that so racist... there are people that can be lazy beyond your imagination... and many many more...

Anyway, it's going to over soon. So glad about it. What a suffer for 4 years... besides dealing with people as mentioned, still have to coupe with the stupid University system and not so useful syllabus... give me a break... anyway, no matter I'm going to further study or working, there's no need for me to deal with all these shit anymore. Thank God. Now just have to focus to complete the remaining 1 month of my University life and say so long to it once and for all.

Saturday, April 10, 2010

Things to do...

Renovate my blog... change the theme etc
Continue make some Gundam... want to make a custom one
Learn how to play guitar... hope it will go smooth
Write a new story... or maybe two new stories
Renovate my room... need a table, book rack and etc
Learn photo shooting... hope can make my dream album come true

But before all these...of course
Study for final exam... come on!
Prepare for presentation on my thesis... got to wear the bullet proof vest again
Settle all the left over troubles before leaving Sabah... at last!!
Hope I get grab a job as soon as possible... so no need wonder to further or not anymore

GO GO GO!!

Sunday, April 4, 2010

有些人

有些人,整天就只会埋怨...

去吃东西,说人家煮到很难吃
好吃的,又说不够饱
饱的,又说很贵
便宜的,又说自己煮的更好...

所有人他都看不顺眼
全部人对他来说都没有前途
整天只会说A君没用B小姐懒惰
其实他自己也不见得有多勤劳
也不见得很有用很有前途...

没发觉其实是自己思想有问题
却老是只会埋怨别人有问题...

好心帮他的忙还要被他翻白眼...

整天说自己长得很帅,像混血儿...
我呸!

做什么都只是会跟从自己的想法
别人说的都是废话
摆出一副我做我的,你做你的,看谁做得好的猫样
结果事实证明别人更好时就不敢出声...

好管闲事,别人的私事都要插一脚进来
明明就没他的事,搞到好像是他的大件事...

埋怨别人靠关系拿好成绩
明明自己根本也没做到怎么好
又怎样会拿到好成绩?
拿不到的时候就埋怨别人耍手段埋怨老师无能
真正无能的应该是只懂得埋怨却不懂得进取的本人...

说人家英文不好,写作很烂
也看不出他的英文写作有多好
说人家写的东西乱七八糟,看不懂
自己的就非常简单容易明白
结果还不是每次都是那些所谓“乱七八糟”的写作还更高分过他的“完美作”...

面对着这种不会吸取生活教训
不会吸取他人之长补己之短的人
真的无言了...

Thursday, April 1, 2010

The beginning of 33% of 2010...

1 more week to go before officially end of 14 weeks semester... then study week comes and exam comes... is already April... 1 month + to go before finally graduating... great... can't stand uni life any longer...

Today is April fool... din fool people and din fooled by people... how old already... still wanna play with this kind of stuff?

Today is Leslie Cheung's memorable day... may him rest in peace...

Recently very good in sleeping... morning wake up breakfast can sleep 2nd round... then after lunch can sleep again... then evening before dinner can sleep again... at nite also can sleep early... WTF! can say got nothing to do... but actually got things to do just didn't do it... feels like wasting my time everyday doing nothing meaningful...