Tuesday, July 20, 2010

我只是想要

我只是想要…
在伤心的时候,有个人能够让我拥抱
我只是想要…
在无助的时候,有个人能够让我依靠
我只是想要…
在寒冷的时候,有个人能够让我取暖
我只是想要…
在寂寞的时候,有个人能够陪在我身旁
我只是想要…
在临睡的时候,有个人能够想想我就好
我只是想要…
在开心的时候,有个人能够和我一起欢笑
我只是想要…
在失落的时候,有个人能够让我从新振作
我只是想要…
在空虚的时候,有个人能够填满我的心灵
我只是想要…
在临终的时候,有个人能够和我白头偕老
我只是想要…
在睡醒的时候,有个人能够进入我的眼帘就好
我只是想要…
我…只是那么单纯的想要…但是却还是始终到不了…

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

无题

夜深人静
独自看着时钟,嘀嗒嘀嗒的
已经是凌晨时分,却完全没有任何睡意
望着电脑荧幕,右手托在滑鼠上
但是却连Facebook也没心情玩
痴呆了一阵,开始放空了视线与思绪
但是,渐渐的,大脑开始像旋转木马一样
许多烦恼,琐碎事,问题,开始在脑子里盘旋
想着,心情越是低落
想着,越是难以入眠
这时,想起了家里的那瓶威士忌
于是,拿了杯子,加了冰块,倒了一杯
喝了一口,味道十分强烈
灼热的燃烧着我的喉咙,然后缓缓地沿烧至肚子
原来纯威士忌的味道是这样的
就像我的心情,我的烦恼一样
在我体内燃烧,然后慢慢蔓延开来
嘴里那苦涩的味道,感觉像是和内心的苦涩产生了共鸣一样
原来借酒是消不了愁的
秒针还是不停在嘀嗒嘀嗒的转动
我还是独自一人在这孤寂的夜里独自买醉
想起过去,想着现在,想看未来
也许是我想太多也许是酒精作祟
为了让自己不再清醒,大口的喝下了一杯
带着一丝的酒意,躺在床上
如果这一刻能够有个人在我身边会有多好啊
空虚,寂寞,孤独,悲伤,无助,不安
在这失眠的夜里,一涌而上的把我压得透不过气来
躺在床上,左翻右滚,只能期望着我能够快些入睡
希望那一杯的威士忌能够让我得到短暂的平静
此时此刻,我的脑海已经变得大风大浪
躺在床上,喃喃自语渐渐的不再清醒

Saturday, July 10, 2010

My Name Is Khan


Yes, starring by Bollywood stars, but yet this is a Hollywood movie. A touching, lovely and yet meaningful story which I think should share with everyone. This is especially true for country like Malaysia which is multi racial. A story about love, a story about respect, a story about giving, a story about living...

Khan is just an ordinary man, although born with extra ordinary syndrome, he fight for himself to live in happiness, as a promise to his mom who past away. He is living happily as a Muslim, with his with and son in America, until September 11 where Muslims were all categorized as "terrorist". Besides losing his job, his son were dead being accidentally killed by schoolmates who bully him due to his religion. His wife feels so disappointed and sad, till she says that she regretted for marrying Khan, who is a Muslim. She told him to leave, and in the quarrel, she told Khan that only if he can meet the President of United State and tell him to declare that Muslim are not terrorist, she will not be seeing him again. So Khan set off his long journey, following the foot steps of the President and hoping to grab just a chance to meet with the President. Along his way, he spread his warm heart to people around him, until the end... his wish was finally granted...

Try to understand the story... and after that, try to understand people around you. Please stop any racist act as none of the religion in this world would ask for terror and fear. Stop misinterpreting the words from religious documents. Stop creating chaos at the name of God. Stop misleading people in the name of God. Stop abusing the purity of religion. As this world is only divided by just two different group... good people and bad people... stop being the bad people and start to show your humanity today...

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

pissed...

So far so good in my working life... actually not really started to do what I need to do within my job field... still just helping people do this and that, reading some manuals and also helping the company in organizing an event. Getting well with my colleague in my section, while for others... not so. Today should have been a nice day, but my mood were spoil in the morning. I was suppose to replace my colleague to attend the event committee meeting, but I was informed I need to attend a training at the same time as well. I told others who attend the meeting that I will go in a little late after my training which took about 1 hour. But what I get from them is a reaction of "black face"... What? Did I do something wrong? I informed you all ok... some more I just help people to attend... and honestly the meeting can carry on first and what is the big deal? In the end the one who ask me to replace him was forced to attend the meeting. And guess what? After I finish my training, it still haven't my turn to present the progress! So why they want to make such a big deal anyway? It just another routine meeting to update progress and I really have no idea why they want to make it until so chaotic. Keep on blaming people for not getting any good progress and the same time whatever people propose were all banned off... Sigh... suddenly have a feeling that "oh boy, what me and my friends do during University is much better than what they are doing now..." Some more I'm now working for food & beverage and also advertising & promotion section... for both I had been contributing a lot of ideas and quotation from suppliers as well... still no conclusion was drawn because being banned and what so ever. Sigh...

Just hope things wont get any worsen.

Sunday, July 4, 2010

Settling down...

Slowly... bit by bit... life is settling down...
Settling down with working life...
Settling down with my currently daily life...
Settling down with my new friends...
Settling down with my own self...
But still... there are still something that haven't settle down...
Some feelings...
Some emotions...
Some thoughts...
Some problems...
Just hope things will slowly turn right soon...

Sunday, June 27, 2010

Emo...

A friend of mine is currently staying in my house... he is from Sabah, plan to look for a job in KL area. Interviewed a few, some rejected and some waiting for reply... is like in a "hanging" condition now... if manage to find a job, he need to settle his transport problem, accommodation problem and etc. If he can't get an offer, should he continue to search here or should he go back to Sabah... life is in such a miserable condition.

A friend of mine is currently working as an intern in my company, same department with me. He is still studying, just completed first year of his degree and he came to have an internship in order to gain some extra experience even though the internship is not really a need in his course yet. It is good, I mean for him, because he can really get to learn a lot through internship just as I do last time. On top of that, he started to know the reality more. The working life... the different work scope... and get to know all sort of people. Hope he can find the direction he wanted to follow after completing his internship.

As for me? Well... I wonder what I really want... already 24 years old... it seems too late to really try this and try that. Hope I can do my best to love my job. And hope that I can really do well and won't disappoint anyone. My job is heavy but I will try my best. And yet, my life is also in a miserable condition... is time to really plan everything for my future. Is time to think of all sort of things that will influence my life now or in coming days. Is time to worry about this and that. Getting kind of "tired" and "emo" when thinking things like this. Things about life, things about work, things about relation, things about whatever it is.

Well... whatever it is... life goes on and all these things will never end...

Sunday, June 20, 2010

再一次...秒速5厘米


虽然已经看了几十遍
虽然已经买了DVD
虽然已经不看字幕都记得台词在说什么
虽然连小说版都看了几遍... 

今天,终于在戏院的大荧幕上看了这部动画电影

始终还是那么的完美
始终还是那么地感动
始终还是那么的扣人心弦
始终还是让我流下了眼泪

感慨人与人之间的时间与距离有多么的遥远

依然会继续重复看着这部作品
依然会继续流下我的眼泪
依然会继续的被它感动
依然会继续的在时间与距离之间,找寻着你和我...

Friday, June 18, 2010

Life as an Production Line Operator...

1st week of my working life had ended... well, it's not really my REAL working life... to be clear... yes, I'm hired as Technical Engineer under Global UP Marketing Department in O.Y.L. Manufacturing. But all executive engineers who don't have more than 1 year experience working are considered as "Young Engineer" and have to undergo the company's "Young Engineer Program" which is consist of 2 days of orientation and 3 days of "life as an operator" training.

The 1st day is mainly briefing about company background, structure, safety, benefits and etc. The 2nd day is a workshop training our hands on skill such as screwing and assembling air con. Then the 3rd day I'm working in Production line F, which is a line producing ceiling cassette (normally saw in some small shop or restaurant, integrate with ceiling one but not those office type). The executive of that line is good, he brief me through all the process and he told me almost everything about production planning, material planning, man power planning and up until the packaging of the final product. Then, the line head also is a nice guy... keep on talking non-stop, giving some valuable input for me which might be useful in near future. People working in this line are all very friendly and I have a lot of fun with them :-)

2nd day is in production line B2, whole day assembling the outdoor unit. screwing compressor, carrying compressor, screw motor bracket and etc. Tiring but also learn something good and kind of fun as well. But the person in charge for this line is a bit "not so responsible"... just throw me there and didn't even communicate with me anymore. 3rd day still in line B2, but had move to another section which is assemble of fan, control box, packaging and etc... the line head here is slightly better... keep on asking and checking on me and see I'm ok or not... but people here are less friendly compared to previous days.

Ok... after all the long "report"... I still haven't enter into my real topic yet. I must say I really admire the operators in the production line. They are working hard, and their job is not that easy to be done actually. They are risking themselves dealing with all the machines and etc and what do they really get? Their salary is so little... the lowest is probably around RM400... those who work for more than 20 years maybe can get RM1000+ I guess... I know they are not highly educated, but wonder why should we differentiate it this way... that amount of salary, how to survive in the world today? And yet, they still accept it and working... and what amaze me the most... they are enjoying their job as well. During the working time, everyone is busy rushing the assembly process before the conveyor starts to move... and yet they can still chit chat with other operators around... making jokes and having fun.

I can hardly imagine my life ended up like that... after some conversation with them, it makes me respect them more... although there are some that just wanted a job, come by and lazying around. But majority of them wanted no more than something for them to spend for their living. Have to really salute them nicely and thank you for all the lesson being taught through the 3 days training...

Sunday, June 13, 2010

岁月...是最无情的神偷...

岁月...是最无情的神偷...


看了《岁月神偷》这部影片,更深深地体会了这份感觉。这是一部讲述一个小康之家,在无情的岁月中如何熬过来,如何变化,如何成长的电影。温馨,伤感,现实,感动的一部杰作。

自古以来,大家都说岁月无情,渐渐的也明白了其中的原因。身边最简单的例子,就是家人。一直以来,一家人都住在一起,兄弟姐妹们一起长大,“在一起”已经变成了一种“理所当然”,一种“习惯”。但是,这一切始终还是敌不过岁月的摧残。大姐结婚了,自然就和丈夫搬了出去住。家,从此就少了一个人。虽然放假或周末会回来吃饭,但是,始终还是不一样了。迟些,二姐也会结婚,也会搬出去吧...最后就只剩下我和妈了。现在想着,真的会有一种害怕的感觉。但是,我知道始终还是得面对这一切的。

看着我的亲戚,只有过年过节才会聚在一起,一股莫名的伤感一涌而上。但是,就算没什么见面,大家还是对彼此那么熟悉,这又是另一种莫名的安慰。确实大家有了新的家庭以后,就有义务去照顾它。但是,之前的家人还是应该好好联系的。总觉得,害怕那一天的到来,亲生兄弟姐妹,却必须因为家庭,因为工作而各散东西...讨厌这样的感觉,不喜欢这样的生活。但是,又无可奈何...如果再加入离开人世这可能性...一切,就变得更可怕了。

岁月流逝,难免。
只能希望它不要对我太残忍...那就好了...

Friday, June 4, 2010

June 2010

Been busy with many other activities which is away from my laptop... that's why very few post and update recently... was offered a job as Technical Engineer in OYL Manufacturing... a aircon manufacturer for York and Acson... I think most probably I'll accept the offer... job will start on 14 June... one more week to rest and prepare myself for a different phase in my life...