Last day of July

Yup... today is the last day of July... nothing special, just stay home and take some rest... already one and a half month working... so far there are still a whole lot of things to catch up. Really hope that I can get independent as soon as possible and stop giving others trouble. August, for the whole month I will be station in one of my company's distributor's HQ, YORK. Office is situated in Damansara Uptown... not a familiar place for me at all, but I will try my best to survive for this month and hope to learn as much as possible... hopefully it will be helpful for my job in future time... and I will move to stay with my sister in Mutiara Damansara for the month of August too since it will be closer to the work place...

Miss the schooling life? not really... what I miss the most is all those activities I joined or organized during Uni life... tonight there will be the 2nd Japanese Cultural Night in UMS... I'd organized the first one and this year is the second one... wonder how's everything going on... hope that everything will be fine... pray for my juniors for their success. Friends are all busy with their own life... have to start get use to lonely life now... although I am so use to it... but still will get uncomfortable with it...

Just hope August will be a good month... and September onwards will be even better.

我只是想要

我只是想要…

在伤心的时候，有个人能够让我拥抱

我只是想要…

在无助的时候，有个人能够让我依靠

我只是想要…

在寒冷的时候，有个人能够让我取暖

我只是想要…

在寂寞的时候，有个人能够陪在我身旁

我只是想要…

在临睡的时候，有个人能够想想我就好

我只是想要…

在开心的时候，有个人能够和我一起欢笑

我只是想要…

在失落的时候，有个人能够让我从新振作

我只是想要…

在空虚的时候，有个人能够填满我的心灵

我只是想要…

在临终的时候，有个人能够和我白头偕老

我只是想要…

在睡醒的时候，有个人能够进入我的眼帘就好

我只是想要…

我…只是那么单纯的想要…但是却还是始终到不了…

无题

夜深人静

独自看着时钟，嘀嗒嘀嗒的

已经是凌晨时分，却完全没有任何睡意

望着电脑荧幕，右手托在滑鼠上

但是却连Facebook也没心情玩

痴呆了一阵，开始放空了视线与思绪

但是，渐渐的，大脑开始像旋转木马一样

许多烦恼，琐碎事，问题，开始在脑子里盘旋

想着，心情越是低落

想着，越是难以入眠

这时，想起了家里的那瓶威士忌

于是，拿了杯子，加了冰块，倒了一杯

喝了一口，味道十分强烈

灼热的燃烧着我的喉咙，然后缓缓地沿烧至肚子

原来纯威士忌的味道是这样的

就像我的心情，我的烦恼一样

在我体内燃烧，然后慢慢蔓延开来

嘴里那苦涩的味道，感觉像是和内心的苦涩产生了共鸣一样

原来借酒是消不了愁的…

秒针还是不停在嘀嗒嘀嗒的转动

我还是独自一人在这孤寂的夜里独自买醉

想起过去，想着现在，想看未来

也许是我想太多…也许是酒精作祟

为了让自己不再清醒，大口的喝下了一杯

带着一丝的酒意，躺在床上

如果这一刻能够有个人在我身边会有多好啊

空虚，寂寞，孤独，悲伤，无助，不安

在这失眠的夜里，一涌而上的把我压得透不过气来

躺在床上，左翻右滚，只能期望着我能够快些入睡

希望那一杯的威士忌能够让我得到短暂的平静

此时此刻，我的脑海已经变得大风大浪

躺在床上，喃喃自语…渐渐的…不再清醒…

My Name Is Khan

Yes, starring by Bollywood stars, but yet this is a Hollywood movie. A touching, lovely and yet meaningful story which I think should share with everyone. This is especially true for country like Malaysia which is multi racial. A story about love, a story about respect, a story about giving, a story about living...

Khan is just an ordinary man, although born with extra ordinary syndrome, he fight for himself to live in happiness, as a promise to his mom who past away. He is living happily as a Muslim, with his with and son in America, until September 11 where Muslims were all categorized as "terrorist". Besides losing his job, his son were dead being accidentally killed by schoolmates who bully him due to his religion. His wife feels so disappointed and sad, till she says that she regretted for marrying Khan, who is a Muslim. She told him to leave, and in the quarrel, she told Khan that only if he can meet the President of United State and tell him to declare that Muslim are not terrorist, she will not be seeing him again. So Khan set off his long journey, following the foot steps of the President and hoping to grab just a chance to meet with the President. Along his way, he spread his warm heart to people around him, until the end... his wish was finally granted...

Try to understand the story... and after that, try to understand people around you. Please stop any racist act as none of the religion in this world would ask for terror and fear. Stop misinterpreting the words from religious documents. Stop creating chaos at the name of God. Stop misleading people in the name of God. Stop abusing the purity of religion. As this world is only divided by just two different group... good people and bad people... stop being the bad people and start to show your humanity today...

pissed...

So far so good in my working life... actually not really started to do what I need to do within my job field... still just helping people do this and that, reading some manuals and also helping the company in organizing an event. Getting well with my colleague in my section, while for others... not so. Today should have been a nice day, but my mood were spoil in the morning. I was suppose to replace my colleague to attend the event committee meeting, but I was informed I need to attend a training at the same time as well. I told others who attend the meeting that I will go in a little late after my training which took about 1 hour. But what I get from them is a reaction of "black face"... What? Did I do something wrong? I informed you all ok... some more I just help people to attend... and honestly the meeting can carry on first and what is the big deal? In the end the one who ask me to replace him was forced to attend the meeting. And guess what? After I finish my training, it still haven't my turn to present the progress! So why they want to make such a big deal anyway? It just another routine meeting to update progress and I really have no idea why they want to make it until so chaotic. Keep on blaming people for not getting any good progress and the same time whatever people propose were all banned off... Sigh... suddenly have a feeling that "oh boy, what me and my friends do during University is much better than what they are doing now..." Some more I'm now working for food & beverage and also advertising & promotion section... for both I had been contributing a lot of ideas and quotation from suppliers as well... still no conclusion was drawn because being banned and what so ever. Sigh...

Just hope things wont get any worsen.

Settling down...

Slowly... bit by bit... life is settling down...
Settling down with working life...
Settling down with my currently daily life...
Settling down with my new friends...
Settling down with my own self...
But still... there are still something that haven't settle down...
Some feelings...
Some emotions...
Some thoughts...
Some problems...
Just hope things will slowly turn right soon...