突然。

突然心情有点低落
突然思绪有点茫然

想着自己的过去
想着自己的近况
想着自己的未来

工作还是老样子，不知道为了什么而在忙碌
突然想想，还有六个月必须待在这里...
感觉好像很漫长

摄影还是老样子，也许自己并没有那天份
不断的尝试，始终还是不够好
感觉好像已经无能为力

写作还是老样子，兴致满满的开始写
最后还是草草了事的把故事结束
自己毕竟还不是拥有这番才华的人啊

吉他还是老样子，进度缓慢
虽然很想多花时间去学，但是始终还是办不到
结果还是那样...拖泥带水的

生活还是老样子，庸庸碌碌的得过且过
悄悄的来，然后悄悄的离开

也许是我不够努力吧？
也许是我得不到上天的眷顾吧？
也不知道为什么，突然之间就有着这样的想法...

希望短暂的消沉后...一切...会渐渐进入佳境吧
希望自己能够好好的...活出自己的未来吧...

梦醒时分

在这几天的低落情绪里
我梦见了他
他一如往常的来到我身边
躺着，撒娇着，舔着我的手
然后懒洋洋的伸着懒腰
舔干净自己的毛发
蹦蹦跳跳，装着可爱
梦醒，总觉得有一丝丝的暖意
谢谢他...谢谢他再一次的开解了我
也许他还没把我忘记，放不下心
所以才会再一次回来看看我，安慰我吧
情绪...多少恢复了。
不能再让他操心啊...
这样想着，希望自己能够脱离这低谷
然后好好的活下去...

I will be back...

It's been awhile since the last time I become this down and moody...
5 months passed and entering to the 6th month in Dubai...
Looking back to some of the things that I wanted to figure out
Looking back to some of the things that I wanted to achieve
It seems like nothing much has been done and will be done after this 6 months...
After much consideration and thinking...
I have decided to stay for 6 more months until the end of September
I'm staying here not because of money...
I just want to achieve what I have not achieve in this past 6 months
And hopefully everything will turn better when it all ends...
I really have to start working things out... sigh...
Hopefully I can get myself recharge and on track again soon...

累…

睡了一个早上，吃过午饭，又睡了一个下午

吃了晚饭，又继续睡到第二天天亮…

人生中，偶尔会有这样的一天啊…

什么都不想做，提不起劲

感觉身心疲累，仿佛心力交瘁

只是想就这样…一直睡下去

希望睡醒过后，人就能够把电池充满

然后为明天，后天，大后天而继续努力

突发奇想......

开始对现在的工作与生活感到厌恶

对一成不变的循环和沉闷感到害怕

好想改变这样的生活

好想逃离这样的框框

不想让自己被所谓的宿命与生存给压抑着

好想能够让自己鼓起勇气…追梦去

突发奇想...

突然很想放下所有，不顾一切的去环游世界

走到哪里，找户人家借宿一宵，然后继续前行

偶尔干点小活，赚点零钱来买点吃的

慢慢的，一步一步，走下去

拍下照片，写下心理历程，弹下吉他

和不认识的人交谈着，感受下人情温暖

然后在到达了一个理想的国度后

就让自己卸下包袱，落地生根，安定下来

静静的过着与世无争的日子，直到终老...

私の旅行手記

For those who are interested, I just created my second book - My Travel Note.

This book includes all the pictures I have taken during my business trips, and also some of the thoughts and feeling I have before, during and after the business trips. 

It has been a good experience for going to so all sorts of different places where people will never imagine of going... and also at the same time it is very tiring. 

People used to say "It's great that you can travel so often". But in the reality, it is not something that "great" after all... well, you will know what I mean when you get the chance to travel continuously like this...

私の旅行手記

For those who interested, you may download from the link above. Thank you.

February

Time really flies...
Already we are almost into the mid of February...
Life has changed a little from what I've planned before this
Nowadays I'm getting less time to write
And my blog is seems to be getting fewer post day after day
Well, I won't stop blogging even though the post becomes less
There's reason behind, because most of my time is now dedicated to something else
Anyway, I will surely write something whenever possible
And whenever inspiration is coming to me
I can still recall the life I've imagined I'm living now few months ago
Indeed is a total different story
Well, life goes on with surprises and changes everyday
Just hope that everything will slowly get better in the year of 2012

Tiger in the Year of Dragon

Every year my family will let someone in the temple to check on our "yearly luck"

This year due to some problem, the checking result will be available a bit later

But from what I read about from the internet and heard from radio

The general "luck" for Tiger this year is rather so-so

There's one saying that Tiger will have a lot of "running here and there moment"

Whereby this denotes either business trip or travelling or being forced to go here and there

And that is extremely accurate up until now

I have been non stop going here and there... for no reason at all

Tired... but nothing else can be done... 

Some say this is the year for Tiger to look for new job... 

So again I started thinking about it... for what I'm working on now, is it really what I want?

No idea or clue on what job should I take on if I was to change my job...

That's why I'm still stuck in here...

Have to really start to do some thinking again on this... just hope everything will be ok soon

Happy Chinese New Year

Today is the 4th day of Chinese New Year
Perhaps it's a bit late to greet at this time?
Well, maybe... but it's never too late
Been very busy with work throughout the eve, 1st and 2nd day of Chinese New Year
Glad that I manage to get all the work done and start enjoying my holiday from the 3rd day
And on the 4th day, I'm here in Singapore...
As usual, I'm here to pay my grandmother a visit
Have been back from Dubai for around a week
And there's a lot of things happening in these few days
Need some time to digest and catch up with it
And because of me falling sick on the week before Chinese New Year
And some business trip and mountains of workload
My life starts to get a little mess up
Hopefully once everything slowly restoring back to normal
I will be able to start living my life again...
It's been awhile for me to play my guitar
It's been awhile for me to write something
It's been awhile for me to take some photographs
Still got another week of holiday, although I still need to go back to my office in Malaysia
But still I hope I can take some time to rest well and recharge myself
And hopefully I'll be able to start moving forward to chase my goals and dream again