again...

2011 first half kicks off with a shit and mess...
2011 second half kicks off with another shit and mess...
both cases are due to the same people giving me trouble...
sigh...
what to do?
just hope second half will also pass through smoothly like first half...
really no eye see...

Half done for 2011

yup... June is coming to an end...
is time to sit back and recap the first half of 2011
what I have wanted to achieve...
what I have achieved...
what I have failed to do...
why I have failed to do...

In terms of work, so far everything is progressing in the right direction
besides getting daily job done, I have managed to see some of my weakness
Things that I need to improve, way of thinking and solving problem
will work for that direction in second half of the year

In terms of life... more or less still the same and nothing has been progressing well
maybe I spent too much of my focus on work?
well, not really...
maybe I'm just not capable of multi-tasking...
Anyway, will try to improve my life a little as well...

All in all, although the downs are more than the ups as usual
but yet again I had survived through another 6 months... and crossing 1 year in my job
hope I can slowly gain back my feet, my rhythm, my momentum
and make it more ups than downs for the second half of 2011...

I am Me

I'm not talented in anything
Nor clever or smart

But...
I'm gifted and blessed...
With a heart full with determination
Together with hard work and the spirit of never give up
I have made some small wonders in my life

From empty, I picked up a book and learn
From nothing, I picked up the racket and play
From zero, I picked up the guitar and strum
From nowhere, I picked up the camera and start shooting
From the beginning, I picked up the pieces and mold them into models

This is how I was born into this world
And this is how I will live for the rest of my life
Without any doubts and regrets

一厘米

手指间仅有一厘米的距离

心却被一世纪的沉默隔离

嘴唇间只有一厘米的缝隙

心却被一公升的泪水沉溺

虽然我们只间隔着一厘米

但是这还不是我们的爱情

就算你我的心仅差一厘米

还是无法串成你我的爱情

一千次的问候能否把你的心留住？

一千遍的呼唤能否让你感到归宿？

一千封的情书能否让感情升温几度？

一千句的爱你能否让我们靠近几步？

背对背却有一厘米的差距

肩并肩仍有一厘米的微距

一厘米用一光年的速度都不能追

只好忍痛承受这一厘米的暧昧

Back to school?

Recently bought some books...
Every month when I pay Kinokuniya a visit to collect my monthly magazine, I'll end up grabbing something extra...
Got about 3 books in my hand now, 2 for photography, 1 for travel.
Gosh, I like reading...
But can hardly imagine I'll be able to read all of them
When was the last time I read a book without falling asleep...
Anyway, half done for the travel one, 10% for one of the photography book...
If only I'm so hard working when I'm in University...

Last of May

Not a great way to end my month of May...

Getting rather frustrated sometimes with work...

Mainly is people around me that I deal with when I work...

Workload is still manageable, but people...

Should have expected in the very first place...

As this is the so called "culture"

But still can't stop myself for feeling disappointed

In the end, I shall continue to stick with my believe...

Do everything on your own and forget about getting help from others...

Sigh...

她和她

遇见了一个长得很像她的她

虽然心里非常明白她不是她

但是还是无法克制自己的想法

无法阻止心里一涌而上的阵痛

回忆过去，我和她之间的一些过往

虽然并没有手牵手，心连心的甜蜜

但是却有过许多的欢笑与快乐

也有着一丝丝的失落与不甘心

看看现在，我和她也只是相识不久

我们之间的关系是单纯的简单而已

希望自己能够阻止自己的思绪

别再留恋这那消逝已久的过往

她不会是她的替代品

我不会让她来取代她

她，很像她

她，不是她…

a small pause in May

May is ending and June is around the corner
Feel like have been a little off-the-pace in work recently
Have to catch up again and go for it

As life... continues it's miserable and emptiness
With a slight of joy for the past few days as having some great moments with colleagues at Cameron Highland
When the lights go off, curtain goes down
I'm back again sitting on the thinking chair
Thinking about past, present & future

Just hope that I'll be able to pull myself together
And take on another journey in life
To seek for what to be achieved & to fill up this empty soul of mine...

Mothers' Day

Pre-celebrated last week
Just the usual shopping and dining with mom together with my sisters
Nothing special
But it used to be a special day for me, before this
I wonder what's wrong
Seems like we are not getting along as well as before...
Was it my problem? I'd changed?
I wonder...
Wonder when can this be resolve...
Just hope that things will get better in future...

Malaysia... no future...

I'm born as Malaysian, I must say I really love Malaysia
There's no other country in this world which can have a blend of culture like this
Where people living together in peace
Yes, we have always live in peace regardless of the religion
The word of "racism" and all other act which breaks the relations between different races...
They are here due to politics... if there's no politics in Malaysia...
Malaysia will never face this problem...

Anyway, this is not what I want to tell this time.
Yes, I love Malaysia, but I'm now starting to hate it. Why?
Because I cannot see a future... for Malaysia, for me, or for anyone...
A little to harsh to jump into a conclusion all of a sudden?
Well, the other day, I took KTM Komuter from KL Central back to Kepong
There was this pregnant women, bringing along her daughter and took the same train as me
When the train arrive, I step back to let her enter the coach first...
But sadly, there isn't any empty space to sit...
And there's no one standing up and giving out the place for pregnant woman to sit down!

Forget about 1 Malaysia
Forget about what economy transformation
Our so-called future leader, the present and coming generation...
They don't even have the simplest moral value in them
What else can we expect for years to come?
I must say I'm totally disappointed... Malaysia is such an uncivilized country...
What the hell do I pay my tax for to build a country which only produces idiots and barbarians like this...
Hopeless, speechless... this is the result from our education system
This is our Malaysia... sigh...