A sickening feeling...

Having this sickening feeling again...
Wondering what the hell do I work so hard for everyday
Is it because of money?
Is it because of everyone else is doing it?
Really needed a breakthrough somewhere...
Tired of pretending to be someone that is not me
Honestly I don't really care about earning money from working...
What I care most is the job satisfaction feeling which will last longer than my monthly salary
Which is something I found to be losing day after day
Maybe it is my problem... and maybe it's not
Tonight, I can't even squeeze a word out of my mouth...
Tonight, I can't even squeeze a smile out of my face... Sigh...
Not sure how long I can continue to hang on like this...

2012...2013

熬过了世界末日，我的日子是否就会比较好过与快乐？

在这2012年的最后一天，我一如往常的回顾着过去

看看过去一年的点点滴滴

叹息着所失去的，错过的，做错的

感恩着所得到的，耕耘的，成功的

这一年，过得忙碌，过得迅速

甜酸苦辣，东奔西走，有得有失，有高有低

回顾过去，并不是为了让自己后悔所失去的，所做错的，所错过的

而是为了让自己在新的一年里不再失去，不再做错，不再错过

新的一年里，工作上当然希望能够有所进步

然后会把更多的精神花在吉他上，摄影就暂时让让步吧

还是希望能够腾出时间看看书，写写故事

最后，当然是希望生活能够过的美满一些

2013年，一个值得期待的一年

Venturing from the dark side... again

I have just adopted into the Apple eco system not long ago with my first Macbook. And now, I'm switching from my android phone to iPhone. The reason? Well, it is actually not that complicated. The local telco is offering some very good bundle plans for the iPhone. So... I'd got myself one and experience myself to see what's the hype others are shouting about

First, let's talk a little bit on the hardware. The iPhone 5 is indeed the phone with best built quality ever existed... you will like it at first touch. The mix of glass and aluminium back is very nice to hold, giving you the premium feeling. It feels just like the Macbook Pro's unibody aluminium casing, sleek and smooth. It is slightly taller than iPhone 4S, which a lot of people has been making fun about it. Well, honestly I do feel that it looks better with current dimension as compared to the 4S. On the inside, people may start to mumble that it does not have the fastest processor, not the most cores, not the best graphics, not the best camera, not the best ram and etc. Indeed these are the things that possible to change how you feel when operating the device, but if the available specification is already more than enough to drive for great user experience, why do you need more? The same applies to iPad as well.

I guess the main thing for Apple product is not always the spec, is about the eco system, as well as the user experience, in which, Apple has already found the winning formula with its iOS. After using both iOS and Android for some time, I feel that iOS is better and more user friendly as compared to Android. Android is having a lot of customizable ability, and it is packing a whole lot of functions into the platform, but most of the functions could end up never been used or even discovered by the user himself at the end of the day. The simplicity of iOS is what really amaze me. Android platform (similar to Windows) offers too much for user to take in, and requires a whole lot of processing power to drive it, forcing larger battery and faster processor to be developed, but still, Android phone will lag as the pace of development between the OS and the hardware are not in line. For Apple, both software and hardware are developed under one roof, therefore they are able to ensure user to get the best out of both world. Not to mention that each phone manufacturer are customizing their own version of Android, which gives a whole lot of variants of Android OS out there. This further mix up the user experience towards Android, and as an Android user, you will need to cry for an software update to become available from your manufacturer. The last but not least, as a Mac user, iPhone just sync seamlessly with everything that I'm doing on my Mac... this is something brilliant and something that Android will not be able to do so. And another thing that is great about iOS is the exactly same interface from phone to tablet. This is another area where Android is left far behind as they need to have different UI to cater for phone and tablet application, which creates more variants and making things even more complicated.

So, is iPhone and iOS really almighty? Well, if someone say yes, he or she is either an Apple fanboy or they have never try out something from the others. There are still plenty of rooms for iOS to grow, the first would be the notification center, shortcuts and widgets. Apple may not need to include fancy widgets like those in Android, but basic things for quick access to turn on GPS or wireless should really come as a standard in iOS. File transfer can perhaps be a little bit more "user friendly" like Android by giving direct access and copy & paste from PC to phone, rather than everything has to be done through iTunes. Other than that, I personally dislike the Home button as it eats out a lot of space. Even now I'm just using the touch assistance instead of the button. Well, I believe it is hard for Apple to remove it as it has been their iconic design of all time. All in all, I'm impressed and fairly in love with my new phone. Hope it will serve me well together with my Macbook Pro for years to come.

Happy Anniversary With Love

One year in building our relationship

One year of happiness, madness and sadness

One year of you & me becoming us

Hoping for more years to come ahead of us

And Happy Anniversary to the one & only... with love

梦境

同样的一个梦境，一个人会重复的梦见多少次呢？
说来奇怪，直到数天前重游了那梦境之后
我才突然发现，这已经不是第一次梦见同一个地方了
这地方，在现实中并没看见过
这地方，在现实中真的存在吗？
虽然并不知道这到底是什么地方
但是在每一次的梦里，这地方是我的家
每一次梦见这个地方时，都是以“很久没回来了，难得回来一下”的形势展开
回到这个“家”，顿时觉得温暖，放下防备，卸下负担
如果这个“家”在现实中真的存在着，那该多好啊？

请安息

虽然我们并不能算是熟悉彼此
我们更没有直接或间接的血缘关系
但是，还记得那时候在医院里
看着躺在床上的你，那瘦弱的身躯
心，还是莫名的感到疼惜
以为一切已经雨过天晴
但是，噩耗却突然的来袭
不知道该怎么反应过来
也许我能够做的，就只有在这里默默的为你祷告
希望你一路走好，得到安息

再见单身

有人说，如果我还是单身，我的生活可能会活得更多姿多彩
也许吧
如果我还是单身，也许现在我还会待在迪拜工作
然后，也许会拿个长假，到欧洲跑透透
又或者忙里偷闲来到马尔代夫度个假
接着，也许会有更多的时间去看更多的书，写更多的故事
拍更多的照片，过着更不一样的人生

再见单身的我，是否意味着错失了这一切的美好呢？
那也未必
单身的确是每个人都向往的，自由自在，无拘无束
也许现在的我确实少了时间看看书，写写故事，拍拍照，弹弹吉他
依然只能在这里憧憬着那些想做的事，想去的地方
但是，我却得到了单身无法得到的回忆，感受到了单身无法了解的情仇
相信未来的日子，也一样能够过着不一样的精彩

在不可能两者兼得的情况下，你将会选择维持单身还是告别单身呢？

今天的我

今天的我，闲来没事
换了Facebook的电邮地址
接着还会更换Flickr户头的地址吧
把一切重要的注册都转移到了我Gmail的电邮去
算是开始整理一下自己在互联网上那杂乱的轨迹吧
从今以后，还是会继续上我的Facebook，上传照片到Flickr，来到Blogger写部落格
没什么大不了的，只是想和大家分享与记载自己身边的事
家中还有几盒钢弹模型，砌完之后，以后应该很少会再去涉足这爱好了吧
开始把自己的注意力集中到吉他和摄影上，希望明年能够更进一步就好了
当然不少得家中那几本书，买了就得看完
明年之内应该可以完成吧？哈哈
也许真的是时候开始好好规划自己的生活，自己的未来了...

生活二三事

回到了这里，仿佛...就好像回到了现实那样
在迪拜的工作时间比较有规律
由于搭地铁上班，所以没有交通的顾虑
上班前和下班后的时间自然就腾空出来
还记得那时候每天上班前都会花个15分钟的时间弹下吉他
晚上吃完晚饭大约8点，还有时间看下电影或书籍
现在，这样的时间已变成一种奢侈
白天睡醒，上一下网就得出发上班
回到家，吃过晚饭都已经8-9点了
加上舟车劳顿了一整天，已经没有精力再去做别的事情了
我...回到了我所熟悉的生活，同时却也失去了我所渴望的生活

事业二三事

回到了这里，仿佛...就好像回到了现实那样
未能解决的问题，逃避了一年后还是得解决
追求工作上的满足感与成就感似乎已成为一种奢侈
结果让自己变成了行尸走肉的傀儡
事业，真的是不简单的一回事
我并不需要赚大钱，只要足够生活就好了
我只是想要让自己享受自己所做的事
我只是想要让自己因成就而自满
随着2012年的终结，是时候开始好好规划一下2013年了...