Saturday, October 8, 2011

R.I.P. - Steve Jobs

Honestly, I must admit he changed the electronic world so much.
Honestly, I must admit that all the inventions from Apple are so tempting.
Honestly, I must admit I owned nothing branded under Apple before.

A man has departed to heaven, and what's left over is just memory.
I once read a story about this man from newspaper
A story about three stories he shared during a graduation ceremony

I found these stories are somehow inspiring
It makes you think twice... and think deep
And now, he has changed not just the world of electronics, but also our world of thinking as well...



I am honored to be with you today at your commencement from one of the finest universities in the world. I never graduated from college. Truth be told, this is the closest I’ve ever gotten to a college graduation. Today I want to tell you three stories from my life. That’s it. No big deal. Just three stories.

The first story is about connecting the dots.

I dropped out of Reed College after the first 6 months, but then stayed around as a drop-in for another 18 months or so before I really quit. So why did I drop out?

It started before I was born. My biological mother was a young, unwed college graduate student, and she decided to put me up for adoption. She felt very strongly that I should be adopted by college graduates, so everything was all set for me to be adopted at birth by a lawyer and his wife. Except that when I popped out they decided at the last minute that they really wanted a girl. So my parents, who were on a waiting list, got a call in the middle of the night asking: “We have an unexpected baby boy; do you want him?” They said: “Of course.” My biological mother later found out that my mother had never graduated from college and that my father had never graduated from high school. She refused to sign the final adoption papers. She only relented a few months later when my parents promised that I would someday go to college.

And 17 years later I did go to college. But I naively chose a college that was almost as expensive as Stanford, and all of my working-class parents’ savings were being spent on my college tuition. After six months, I couldn’t see the value in it. I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life and no idea how college was going to help me figure it out. And here I was spending all of the money my parents had saved their entire life. So I decided to drop out and trust that it would all work out OK. It was pretty scary at the time, but looking back it was one of the best decisions I ever made. The minute I dropped out I could stop taking the required classes that didn’t interest me, and begin dropping in on the ones that looked interesting.

It wasn’t all romantic. I didn’t have a dorm room, so I slept on the floor in friends’ rooms, I returned coke bottles for the 5¢ deposits to buy food with, and I would walk the 7 miles across town every Sunday night to get one good meal a week at the Hare Krishna temple. I loved it. And much of what I stumbled into by following my curiosity and intuition turned out to be priceless later on. Let me give you one example:

Reed College at that time offered perhaps the best calligraphy instruction in the country. Throughout the campus every poster, every label on every drawer, was beautifully hand calligraphed. Because I had dropped out and didn’t have to take the normal classes, I decided to take a calligraphy class to learn how to do this. I learned about serif and san serif typefaces, about varying the amount of space between different letter combinations, about what makes great typography great. It was beautiful, historical, artistically subtle in a way that science can’t capture, and I found it fascinating.

None of this had even a hope of any practical application in my life. But ten years later, when we were designing the first Macintosh computer, it all came back to me. And we designed it all into the Mac. It was the first computer with beautiful typography. If I had never dropped in on that single course in college, the Mac would have never had multiple typefaces or proportionally spaced fonts. And since Windows just copied the Mac, it’s likely that no personal computer would have them. If I had never dropped out, I would have never dropped in on this calligraphy class, and personal computers might not have the wonderful typography that they do. Of course it was impossible to connect the dots looking forward when I was in college. But it was very, very clear looking backwards ten years later.

Again, you can’t connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something — your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life.

My second story is about love and loss.

I was lucky — I found what I loved to do early in life. Woz and I started Apple in my parents garage when I was 20. We worked hard, and in 10 years Apple had grown from just the two of us in a garage into a $2 billion company with over 4000 employees. We had just released our finest creation — the Macintosh — a year earlier, and I had just turned 30. And then I got fired. How can you get fired from a company you started? Well, as Apple grew we hired someone who I thought was very talented to run the company with me, and for the first year or so things went well. But then our visions of the future began to diverge and eventually we had a falling out. When we did, our Board of Directors sided with him. So at 30 I was out. And very publicly out. What had been the focus of my entire adult life was gone, and it was devastating.

I really didn’t know what to do for a few months. I felt that I had let the previous generation of entrepreneurs down – that I had dropped the baton as it was being passed to me. I met with David Packard and Bob Noyce and tried to apologize for screwing up so badly. I was a very public failure, and I even thought about running away from the valley. But something slowly began to dawn on me — I still loved what I did. The turn of events at Apple had not changed that one bit. I had been rejected, but I was still in love. And so I decided to start over.

I didn’t see it then, but it turned out that getting fired from Apple was the best thing that could have ever happened to me. The heaviness of being successful was replaced by the lightness of being a beginner again, less sure about everything. It freed me to enter one of the most creative periods of my life.

During the next five years, I started a company named NeXT, another company named Pixar, and fell in love with an amazing woman who would become my wife. Pixar went on to create the worlds first computer animated feature film, Toy Story, and is now the most successful animation studio in the world. In a remarkable turn of events, Apple bought NeXT, I returned to Apple, and the technology we developed at NeXT is at the heart of Apple’s current renaissance. And Laurene and I have a wonderful family together.

I’m pretty sure none of this would have happened if I hadn’t been fired from Apple. It was awful tasting medicine, but I guess the patient needed it. Sometimes life hits you in the head with a brick. Don’t lose faith. I’m convinced that the only thing that kept me going was that I loved what I did. You’ve got to find what you love. And that is as true for your work as it is for your lovers. Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven’t found it yet, keep looking. Don’t settle. As with all matters of the heart, you’ll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking until you find it. Don’t settle.

My third story is about death.

When I was 17, I read a quote that went something like: “If you live each day as if it was your last, someday you’ll most certainly be right.” It made an impression on me, and since then, for the past 33 years, I have looked in the mirror every morning and asked myself: “If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?” And whenever the answer has been “No” for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something.

Remembering that I’ll be dead soon is the most important tool I’ve ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because almost everything — all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure – these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.

About a year ago I was diagnosed with cancer. I had a scan at 7:30 in the morning, and it clearly showed a tumor on my pancreas. I didn’t even know what a pancreas was. The doctors told me this was almost certainly a type of cancer that is incurable, and that I should expect to live no longer than three to six months. My doctor advised me to go home and get my affairs in order, which is doctor’s code for prepare to die. It means to try to tell your kids everything you thought you’d have the next 10 years to tell them in just a few months. It means to make sure everything is buttoned up so that it will be as easy as possible for your family. It means to say your goodbyes.

I lived with that diagnosis all day. Later that evening I had a biopsy, where they stuck an endoscope down my throat, through my stomach and into my intestines, put a needle into my pancreas and got a few cells from the tumor. I was sedated, but my wife, who was there, told me that when they viewed the cells under a microscope the doctors started crying because it turned out to be a very rare form of pancreatic cancer that is curable with surgery. I had the surgery and I’m fine now.

This was the closest I’ve been to facing death, and I hope it’s the closest I get for a few more decades. Having lived through it, I can now say this to you with a bit more certainty than when death was a useful but purely intellectual concept:

No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don’t want to die to get there. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because Death is very likely the single best invention of Life. It is Life’s change agent. It clears out the old to make way for the new. Right now the new is you, but someday not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic, but it is quite true.

Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of others’ opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.

When I was young, there was an amazing publication called The Whole Earth Catalog, which was one of the bibles of my generation. It was created by a fellow named Stewart Brand not far from here in Menlo Park, and he brought it to life with his poetic touch. This was in the late 1960′s, before personal computers and desktop publishing, so it was all made with typewriters, scissors, and polaroid cameras. It was sort of like Google in paperback form, 35 years before Google came along: it was idealistic, and overflowing with neat tools and great notions.

Stewart and his team put out several issues of The Whole Earth Catalog, and then when it had run its course, they put out a final issue. It was the mid-1970s, and I was your age. On the back cover of their final issue was a photograph of an early morning country road, the kind you might find yourself hitchhiking on if you were so adventurous. Beneath it were the words: “Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish.” It was their farewell message as they signed off. Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish. And I have always wished that for myself. And now, as you graduate to begin anew, I wish that for you.

Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish.



Friday, October 7, 2011

a Week in Dubai

Nothing much happened so far...
Safely reached... everything seems organized here...
First impression on this place is: Skyscrapers and dust...
You will find these 2 elements covering 99% of Dubai...
Food is slightly more expensive than Malaysia...
Restaurant price tag are crazy here...
Other than that... nothing much really
Just working and earn a living...
It will be the same no matter where I am...

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

一段旅途的结束,另一段旅程的开始

终于,上了最后一堂吉他课
不知道还要多久,我才能够在一次向他学习吉他
但是,这短暂的相遇,却真的是让我获益不浅
学习吉他的日子,就这样过了九个月
也就这样迎来了终结
这...或许只是意味着自习吉他的阶段的开始
若有机会,还真是希望再一次向蔡老师学习吉他

在倒数的日子里,还是如往常般...
劳累,精疲力尽
工作依然繁忙,还要忙着准备行李
也许这才是最好的吧...
因为这样就能分散我的精力,不会把它花在胡思乱想上

好的事情,最后终要结束
希望迎接我的未来...
会是另一个...好的事情...

Saturday, September 24, 2011

伍佰 - 泪桥


最近突然常听到这首歌...

算是伍佰大哥难得的慢歌...很有味道和感觉的一首歌。

无心过问你的心里我的吻
厌倦我的亏欠
代替你所爱的人
这个时候
我心落花一样飘落下来
顿时 我的视线
失去了色彩
知道你也一样不善于表白
想想你的相爱编织的谎言懈怠
甜美镜头
竟也落花一样飘落下来
从此 我的生命
变成了尘埃
寂寞的人
总是习惯寂寞的安稳
至少 我们直线 曾经交叉过
就像站在烈日骄阳大桥上
眼泪狂奔滴落在我的脸庞
~~~~~~~~~


Saturday, September 17, 2011

Home Alone

Home alone again...
It seems like I'm always home alone recently...
Maybe this is the chance God gave to me to get used to being all by myself
Anyway, don't worry about me, I'm alright even if I'm all alone...
Although it is unavoidable for me to become a little emo when I'm all by myself
But everything will be alright, yup... Things will get better, slowly
Running out of time... just hope everything will turn right as life goes on...
It's not that bad being all alone after all... since I'm too used to it
So... let's see what will happen in the future...

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

给蔡老师的信

昨天晚上,上了倒数第三堂的吉他课
因为老师教的一首歌弹了两个星期都还没练好
所以一进去就先向老师自首:“没什么进展呢,不要期望太高”
他只是笑笑,叫我快点弹

一切就像往常一样...他不断地纠正我弹错的地方...
“手要软一点...姿势不对...换弦快点...跟好拍子...”
弹着,他把一片guitar pick拿出来,示范弹了给我看
“学下用这个弹...这样捉住...弹轻一点...要快...”

一瞬间,感觉上好像许多的东西被灌输到脑海里
半个小时很快就过去了
临走之前,老师把我叫住了
“我在书店里看到一本书,四十多块,从浅到深的教你弹吉他,可以去看看...”

应了老师一声,我到书店里转了一下...
内心,切实的感受到了一股温暖
老师他看来似乎比我还要紧张...
也许想尽可能的在我离开前教我更多的东西,好让我未来慢慢自修
感动,非常的谢谢他的这份心意
这将会是我未来继续自修的最大动力来源

还记得第一次上他的课时,总觉得他很严肃,没什么谈话
但是渐渐的,一切都改变了
也许他和我一样,都不习惯和陌生人说话吧
刚开始的那份距离感...如今已经烟消云散

对不起,因为我是一个那么没天赋的学生
谢谢你,因为一直努力教导我和没放弃过我这样的一个学生

希望将来还有机会再向这位恩师多多学习...

Thursday, September 8, 2011

九月

现在看到的,九月就只有一个“忙”字
做不完的工作,解决不完的问题
平服不了的情绪,预见不了的未来
真的让我有点喘不过气来

护照到期了必须更新
手头上有大大小小的工作必须在这个月里完成
还有不少的东西要交代清楚
周末看来也会忙着工作吧...

也没什么关系吧...就那么一个人
平时也是呆在家而已
看到报纸刊着张信哲的演唱会广告
自己只能低头叹气...这次去不成了,下次吧!

家里也有许多必须解决与交代的事物
虽然到现在还不知道十月会变得怎样
但是还是事先安排一下吧
到时候就不必慌乱了

无法控制的事情...无法克制自己一而再的去想它
算了吧,想想就好了,反正什么也做不到
让自己的心绪跌入谷底也不是什么好玩的事
但是这九月的我...应该会过得很阴沉吧...

那天跟吉他老师说将会暂停三个月左右
惊讶的是,他的表情并不是我想象中的平淡
可以感觉到有一丝的失望...
希望我能够把这份感觉化为我前进的力量吧

经过了风风雨雨,来到了九月
除了累,其实已没有什么其他的感觉了
希望自己行尸走肉的日子可以快些过去
我并不想在这样过完我的下半辈子...

Thursday, September 1, 2011

九月雨


趁着难得的假期
难得的只有我一个人呆在家里
翻开了自己收藏的影片
看着一部又一部感人的电影
放纵着自己让眼泪直流
让自己的情绪难得的失控一下
好久没有这样坦然地面对自己了
现实的生活往往造就了我把任何事情都往心里掩埋
是时候让他们倾泻了吧?
想起了曾经,想起了过去
有甜美的回忆,有苦涩的往事
现在的我,有怎样呢?
当未来的我回想起现在的我时...会联想到什么呢?
就这样在过去,现在和未来之间周旋,徘徊
眼泪,湿了又干,干了又湿
希望自己难得的被洗涤干净
然后更有勇气,更加坚强的把路走下去...

Wednesday, August 31, 2011

岁月轻狂 - 李治廷

岁月神偷电影主题曲

水一般的少年
风一般的歌
梦一般的遐想
从前的你和我

手一挥就再见
嘴一翘就笑
脚一动就踏前
从前的少年

啊~ 漫天的回响
放眼看 岁月轻狂
啊~ 岁月轻狂

起风的日子流洒奔放
细雨飘飘 心晴朗
云上去 云上看
云上走一趟
青春的黑夜挑灯流浪
青春的爱情不回望
不回想 不回答
不回忆 不回眸
反正也不回头

啊~ 漫天的回响
放眼看 岁月轻狂
啊~ 岁月轻狂

起风的日子流洒奔放
细雨飘飘 心晴朗
云上去 云上看
云上走一趟
青春的黑夜挑灯流浪
青春的爱情不回望
不回想 不回答
不回忆 不回眸
回不了头




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Friday, August 26, 2011

August End

Wonder why... my blog post is getting lesser and lesser...
Maybe I'm too lazy to blog? Maybe I'm too busy to blog?
I wonder...
Anyway, 8 months passed by... and all that is accumulated in me are frustrations... and more frustrations...
Well, there are many "contributors" that contribute towards these frustrations...

Work will be the main contributor...
Feeling a little lost again... can see the direction... can't feel the future clearly...
Maybe is time to move on and go for a new challenge?

My physical ability is another contributor...
What I want to put out is I'm losing energy... maybe is just a sign of aging?
But I found myself harder to coupe for sports activity more and more, day after day...
Oh boy, am I sick or this is just normal? Pain and ache everywhere... my body just doesn't seems alright...

Life... contributing frustration as well...
Relation issues are yet to be solve... not love issue here... just some family problem
And all I did all this while is just ignoring it and running myself away...
Sigh... what a mess

It's been more than a year since I'm back home
It's been more than a year since I start working
But my life is still... seems to be unable to settle down...
Ended up with more and more frustration accumulating
Wonder when will it blows up?

A week of hard earned and long waited holiday is ahead of me
Hope I can press on the "reset" button and re-order my life
I don't want my life to go on like this
I need a way out... and I'm eagerly searching for it...