Sunday, November 30, 2008

Saturday, November 29, 2008

海角七号


Nice movie and nice OST... nice songs here... what else should I say about it? Well, I think Van has find his way and style to express his music and feeling... a positive change for him... like the songs by him in this movie...

无乐不作 - 范逸臣

Friday, November 28, 2008

A君与B小姐

话说A君追求B小姐,但是最后被B小姐给拒绝了。B小姐后来和C先生拍拖,然后A君也在尝试发展别的感情。B小姐会问A君是不是交了女朋友啦,那么花心,还好当初没和A君在一起啦什么的。由于A君还只是在寻找阶段,于是向B小姐澄清没有在交往。但是B小姐却不停的说A君没必要隐瞒她,拍拖就承认啦什么的。当A君真的拍拖后,不知道B小姐又会给些什么反应呢?也许B小姐会认为A君不是真心爱她的?

B小姐是因为爱着A君才会说出这样的话吗?还是心又不甘?个人认为B小姐在某种程度上正在伤害着A君。拒绝了他,已经是第一伤害,然后说些任性的话是第二伤害。难道A君被拒绝后就必须天天想念着B小姐,不再爱上任何人?难道A君拍拖了就代表他之前对B小姐的爱是虚假和短暂的?难道B小姐要看着A君抱着对她的思念孤独终老才会开心?如果是爱他的,当初为何不选择他?为何放弃他后仍然还要说出那样的话?难道是女人的占有欲在作祟?难道就不能让大家都得到解放吗?

若你真的喜欢对方,就把握机会和他/她在一起。若选择了不要在一起,麻烦你不要在说些任性的话,因为是你选择了放弃,你已经没有权利在说些什么了,更不应该去怀疑当初他/她对你的爱。他/她对你的爱当初肯定是真挚与永恒的,只是在被你推入绝望深渊后,他/她才艰难与勇敢的选择了放弃与忘记。所以…大家何不宽容一些,好让大家的身心都得到解放,让大家都追寻得到彼此所需要的幸福…

Thursday, November 27, 2008

方炯镔 - 好人?!


曾以团体“年少”勇闯台湾歌坛的方炯镔,睽违8年再度出发,在戴佩妮引荐下加入“喜欢音乐”,成为Penny、Linda的师弟...多么熟悉的名字,看见时下了一跳,但是还是下了来听。以前他们的歌还不错的。现在剩下方炯镔,不知道又如何呢?听完专辑后,觉得真的很不错。慢歌为主,但是却唱出了他独特的味道。值得听一听的专辑!


坏人 - 方炯镔

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

I'll miss u my dear T.T

Yesterday is my dear's last day at KK... early morning went out together to pak toh for 1 last time... went for a movie... lunch... ate an ice-cream... (although the ice-cream in the end was... hehe... not my fault my dear...) when reach back her hostel only I found out she not yet finish pack up her stuff =.=" then after settle her stuff need to fetch another fren to go airport also... same flight... then the guy also... not yet settle his luggage I guess... traffic jam outside somemore... have to rush at full speed to airport... going to be late... the car got so many blind spot... can't see clearly... but still have to drive as fast as possible... so worry... but the 2 ppl are stil having their own fun... sigh... luckily... finally made it on time... my dear somemore dare to cheat me cant make it... T.T bad girl... she cry before entering the gate... she is just like that... but I wonder am I included in part of her reason of tears? She gave me a hug... the deepest hug she ever gave to me... still calling me while waiting for boarding...

Recieved her mail and sms... know she is safe on her journey back... I'll be a good boy here... keeping my promise to you... so hope my dear will be a good girl there too... take care yourself when I'm not around... miss you... muacks~

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

200th Post!

This is the 200th post in my blog... slowly this kind of numbers will never bring any meaning to me anymore... hehe... anyway, since this is a special day, so I'll post a long long post here today... read slowly... take your own sweet time...

金牛星座的男人

妳的他是金牛座的嗎?恭喜妳啊!你真是太幸運了,沒任何星座的男人比金牛座的男人更適合做老公了(就實際的觀點來說)。金牛座的男人做事向來不急躁,談戀愛當然也不會囉!他不會見妳一面,就莽莽撞撞的投進愛情的陷阱。當他看中一個女孩之後,他會觀察很久再決定到底要不要追求。如果你因此而以為金牛座的人太實際,太不羅曼蒂克了,那你可就錯囉!當他一旦打定主意,他將採取一切溫柔又甜蜜的方式,高級的餐館、精緻的禮物、送你上下班,這些一樣都不會少。

金牛座的浪漫既不空洞,也不會太過激情,他不是那種滿嘴甜言蜜語,實際上什麼都不曾為你做的男人。也不是那種整天黏著你,一分鐘也不肯離開你的男人。金牛座男人的浪漫方式會讓女生很有安全感,那是一種介於情人與父親之間的感覺,像是一副可以依靠的肩膀,讓人覺得溫暖而舒適。怎麼樣?很令人響往吧?那麼你得先通過他的審核才行。你要記得,金牛座的男人絕不會喜歡一個高談闊論,行為開放的女子,他要的是一個端莊的淑女,一個賢妻良母的女人。他可不想浪費時間玩刺激的戀愛遊戲。所以囉!如果你是個新女性主義的女孩,你就可能不太適合他了。你是不是願意為了愛情而收斂一點呢?跟他在一起的時侯,尤其在他的朋友面前,不要不停的發表意見,非必要的時侯,最好少開口,保持微笑,端莊的坐在他的身旁。他會不時的回頭看看你,而且,以後他會很喜歡帶你一起出席社交場合。

當他向妳求婚的時侯,他一定已經對你們的未來做好了完整的計劃。至於怎麼買房子,如何存錢,以及他目前的財務狀況,他都會讓你有所了解,你不會滿心的惶恐不安,通常金牛座的男人會讓你很有安全感的走進結婚禮堂。從結婚的第一天開始,請不要再作風花雪月的愛情夢,金牛座的婚姻生活是穩定而實際的,請你要把時間花在為他準備一個溫暖舒適的家,而不是作夢和鬧情緒上面。你放心,他不會要你作一個整天忙碌,累得像個黃臉婆一樣的妻子,他會盡力給你最好的生活條件,只是,拜託你,當他忙了一天之後,給他一個溫暖的窩,不要在他面前嘰喳喳聒噪不休。多數時侯金牛座的男人不會把太多工作上的情緒帶回家,你在跟他談戀愛的時侯就該發現這一點了,當他在外面受到挫折,或是工作進行不順利,心情不好的時侯,通常他會扳著一張臉,一句話也不說。你最好幫他沖杯熱茶,把沙發墊子放好,讓他安安靜靜的休息一下。

金牛座男人的個性是實際而勤勉的,他不會被情緒左右得太久。至於你的情緒,你最好也能學著自己處理。婚後的他可能會把心思都放在工作上,而無法細心的體會你的心情。不要小孩子氣的認為他不愛你了,想一想,他一切的努力不全是了你們美好的將來嗎?女人總不能一輩子追求浪漫的愛情嘛!對於金牛座的男人來說,「戀愛」和「婚姻」是兩種截不同的階段。偶爾在他工作之餘,心情好的時侯。你可以撒嬌,如果真的無理取鬧那就不妙囉!還有一點是很重要的,那就是——隨時記得,他是一家之主;在所有場合,請給他絕對的尊重,不要跟他唱反調。你該知道,「牛脾氣」是什麼意思吧!一開始我就告訴過你,金牛座的男人很少會喜歡一個高談闊論的女人。尤其難以忍受一個喜歡發表謬論的妻子。當你在公眾場合吱喳不停的時侯,回頭看一下你的牛座老公,他的臉色鐵定已經很難看了。所以你可得記住,跟你的金牛座老公參加社交場合時,言行舉止要注意,否則他會讓你當場就下不了台的。

回娘家?這個方法恐怕對他不是很管用,我勸你最好不要輕易嘗試除非你真的不想回來了。相信我,就算你真的回娘家,等自己火氣一過,想想他的種種好處,說不定你拎個皮箱自己回來了,何必呢?金牛座的男人是很「家居」型的,他非常追求家庭的和諧,對於家人他有很強的佔有慾,除非在他覺得自己的家庭幸福受威脅,或是他一家之主的尊嚴受挑戰的時侯,他會不發脾氣之外,一般正常的情況下他都是溫柔而仁慈的,更重要的是—他忠實可靠。做一個成熟實際的女人,你會覺得有個金牛座的老公真的太棒了!

當你的金牛座男人跟你通過了精神戀愛階段時,他會認為身體上的密切配合也是很重要的,他很少只要求柏拉圖式的戀愛。他的「性」觀念不會很隨便,因為他很重視心靈和肉體融合的感覺。他對愛情的佔有慾很高,因此他會很在意你的反應,如果你在做愛時心不在焉,他很可能會勃然大恕。大體上說來,金牛座的男人在性方面的表現是體貼的;他喜歡把「性」變成一件愉快的藝術,而不是只是生理上的發洩。如果你們在這方面不能配合得很好,很可能會影響你們之間的愛情。給他溫柔熱情的回應,他會表現的很好。

當你的金牛座男人做了爸爸以後,他會是一個溫暖又有耐心的父親,他對小孩慷慨極了,而且他會盡一切努力安排孩子的未來,大概小孩兩三歲的時侯,他就開始為孩子進入明星小學舖路了。金牛座很重視物質的,你要小心他在這一方面會把孩子寵壞。當然你還要教會小孩尊重他是一家之主,這樣父子關係才會永遠和諧。當他發脾氣的時侯,千萬記得要告訴孩子,不能頂嘴。

Monday, November 24, 2008

Celebrations ended

Like didn't sleep these 2 days... busy with all sort of celebration for my dear's bday... & also yaw yaw's bday... tired? just a little... can be with my dear sure won't tired at all... hehe... dinner on birthday eve... then go for a walk at seaside, then a walk at housing area near my house... then a surprise from frens... follow by my dear going on air... yes, On-Air... at Sabah V FM... participated in the DJ searching contest... listen to her voice through radio... special feeling... then walk around town area buying some souvenir for her to bring back home... then after lunch send her back to fren's house for a nap before the final celebration... sing K together with another bday boy... Yaw yaw... celebrated with her coursemate also... giving her surprise... she cried out somemore... hehe... so cute... really Sa Po... she going back soon... left me here... preparing for JLPT... sigh... one month only... things will be fine... hope so...

Muacks~ love u dear...

Sunday, November 23, 2008

MAJOR UPDATE!

The "MAJOR UPDATE" I talk about last time... it's being update now... wonder what is the update? Search yourself throughout my blog for the things that have become different... hehe...

Happy Birthday to my dear... I'm happy too because you & me are both born on 23th... hope you like the present I gave to you... sorry for being a stupid SBG... from today onwards I'll try to be a better SBG... hehe... you just need to keep on become your cute little SAPO can ady... Muacks~

Love you always... and Happy Birthday to Loh-Yaw Keong also... (pronounce in Cantonese...)

Hope everyone enjoy the birthday party!

P/S: SBG = Si Ba Gong (Chinese...)

Saturday, November 22, 2008

What I do recently

Approaching 200 blog post soon...
Preparing myself for JLPT...
Watching my dramas, movies and anime...
Cook my lunch and dinner...
Sleep from 10pm to 7am...
Blogging everyday...
Download latest anime...
Searching info related to Gundam...
Planning on what model to buy...
Planning my activities for holiday at KL...
MSN-ing...
Busy with personal stuff...
Busy with club stuff...

Friday, November 21, 2008

sick of it...

Getting sick of someone... someone that is so AUNTY... only think for herself and never think for others... just blast off like that without even getting know the situation and what is going on... as if everyone is wrong and she is the only correct person...

Getting sick of someone... someone that is so UNCLE... only think for himself and never think for others... just want the whole world to spin according to his way and reject everything oppose him... as if everyone is wrong and he is the only correct person...

Getting sick of human being...

Thursday, November 20, 2008

无奈

紧握着的双手
是那么的温暖
果然
我还是喜欢这样的感觉
这种从内心有说不出的安稳的感觉
有一种
无论任何风浪都冲不散
无论任何豪雨都分不开
一种打从心底蔓延开来的
那份安逸的感觉
我,是只需要这种感觉的人
但是,她是吗?
想着,心变得忐忑了
也许对伤痕累累的我来说
言语更为被需要了?
也许吧…
贪婪的希望两者都能拥有
但是,世事会能够如愿吗?
看来
也只能默默的祈祷着
也只能静静的期待着…

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

My Ambition

Well, not now actually... but this is some of the ambition I think of before this... silly though...

Painter/artist
Actor/movie maker/anime maker
music composer/song writer
teacher/lecturer
sportsman
designer/interior/graphic/fashion/advertisement/etc

Haha... never wanted to be police like most boys did. Come to think of it, wonder why I have such thinking that time around... and sadly seems like none of the will be achieve... T.T

Wonder what is in others' mind about this... hehe... maybe everyone also have a moment in life which dream of becoming a superstar... curious... hehe... leave your comment and tell me about your ambition then...

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Gone motor gone

Well, finally whole sem ended... and yesterday I'd return my motor back to the shop... waiting next sem only continue to rent it. Gonna miss some days without motor... hehe... anyway, I should thanks a lot to my dear motor... thank you for all the hard work for me during this whole sem. Without it I would have run into all sort of troubles... waiting bus... settling club stuff... and without it i can't be a delivery boy for my dear... hehe...

Anyway, still can recall the day when I go and take my motor... with Ah Leong, Ah Teoh and Ah Sun... the motor was fine... but with a broken bearing in the front wheel... which I change it only during the mid sem break... hehe... can't start twice due to water filling up the carburetor... overall it didn't give me any other major trouble... no puncture, no other problems... although it's getting less powerful as the beginning, the motor is kind of not balance in weight by itself... then helmet stolen once... overall I'm glad that a noob that donno how to ride a bicycle like me also manage to survive with a motor for whole sem... thanks a lot to my housemate too for always helping me out...

Now, just hope that I can get my license soon... and hope that I'll be able to fetch people next time... fetch my dear of course... but it will be a long long way... hehe...

Monday, November 17, 2008

08/09 Sem 1 Part 3

Talk about my life this time… busy… as usual. My life is rather boring here… but luckily went for some trip during this sem… went to Kudat and Tips of Borneo… it is a nice trip…then went to sing K for many times here… finally found sing K gang here… haha… maybe is a bad news rather than good news? Overall boring life… but luckily I rented a motor here so my life become less boring… the 1 Borneo Hypermall is just beside my uni… nothing much inside there that attracts me also… but when it just open that time me and my coursemates went to try out the food in most of the store… so so only… nothing really special… that’s why till now also I didn’t post any photo of it here… hehe… so, in short, my life is sleep , eat 1%, study (only in study week) 9%, sing K 5%, trip 1%, club stuff 30%, assignments 30%, projects 5%, homeworks 15%, some sports 4%… that’s all… feel like wasted a lot of money… the other day I went to ATM and my account got no money for me to withdraw out, haha… reach the minimum saving limit already… luckily my mom bank in some money few days later… good timing… I didn’t call home and ask for money ok!

Sunday, November 16, 2008

Love & be love

This question has always been a controversy
Just like the question: egg come first or chicken come first

Will you choose to be with someone you like?
Or someone who like you?

A hard one? Maybe… even if you ask me, I also donno how to answer it… wonder how you guys think about it?

Saturday, November 15, 2008

08/09 Sem 1 Part 2

I’ll talk about my motor next time… today just briefly talks about my club stuff… busy whole sem for al sort of actuvuties… from Family Day, Yukata Event until the Film Festival… luckily got some good junior AJK helping me out, making all the event to become a success… want to say sorry to everyone if I’d done anything wrong or if there’s anything that I’d not done enough… I really appreciate the help you all offer… I do hope you all enjoy during the activities too… there’s no meaning if we just organize an activity like we are forced to do so… it should be we are happy to about it and we want to share the same happiness with other people… that’s why we organize all sorts of activities… anyway, really enjoy the Family Day (although I didn’t join the group game…), having fun with the Yukata Event, and also glad that the Film Festival was made successful in a rush of time… thank you to everyone for what you have sacrificed for the club.

Next sem there will be a Japan Week organizing… hope that everyone can once again give me a hand to make this successful. This would probably be my last event before my retirement from the club… really pray for its success… let it be a dream for everyone in the club… thank you again to all my fellow AJKs…

Friday, November 14, 2008

08/09 Sem 1 Part 1

As usual, I’ll write something about this semester… a short summary… a review to what I’d done… what happened to me… after the review, is time to change… change to a better me… and a test for my memory also maybe? Getting older and memory level is decreasing… hehe…

This sem is really a total mess… the subject itself, mostly are not really related to mechanical field… study for no reason and meaning… measurement, power electric, account... then those related one, statistic, design and manufacturing… lecturers are torturing… power still ok although lecturer always cancel class… (Like that actually) then the account also ok although a bit boring… the measurement one is a big fat ass that talks big but brain empty… give a lot of work and comment only… design is our dear Rao Rao… a very good lecturer actually… but just no one understand what he is talking with his Indian slang… statistic lecturer don’t really know how to teach actually… but since he is quite new so give him a “pass”… manufacturing is the GREATEST part… first the lecturer looks like Osama… then he never teach at all… then complain by student and he so angry & scold back student… say he work donno how many job within the past few years… very EXPERIENCE in many field… if he really good at in then won’t change so many job already… really WTF…

Since Miss Sai Lei complain my blog post very long, so I’ll break it to a few part… kindly wait for other summary within this few days… hehe…

Thursday, November 13, 2008

Freedom...

Early morning... studying for the last subject here... finally everything comes to an end... but nothing to be happy about... my motor can't start... again... sigh... I think is the same problem like last time, so might need to send it to repair after the exam and can't enjoy straight after the exam... what to do... fate... still I'll try my best to enjoy myself today... just need to adjust my plan accordingly... shouldn't be a big problem to me... hehe... hope my "wife" recover soon then I can continue to "exploit" her until I need to return it back to the shop on Monday... then no more motor already... wonder I still can survive or not without motor... hehe... I can de... no worries... safe trip for those who going back kampung after exam... those who not yet finish exam, keep it up and good luck for the remaining paper... I'll help you enjoy now 1st... haha...

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

1 more to go!!!

Just died beautifully in another paper... sigh... this paper really shit... as shit as the Rao Rao's paper... anyway... don't really care about it already... aim for all pass this sem only... hehe... sigh...

Finally... just need to work hard for 1 last day... then freedom awaits me... don't really want to stay home everyday... planning something... but donno what to plan... anyone got any plan feel free to ask me to join ya... hehe... need to get wild a bit before stay home watch drama, write story, study Japanese.... a.k.a. becoming an "otaku"... hehe...

My "dear" so bad... dump me aside and go enjoy herself... never include me in any of her planning... sigh... pity me... need to "eat myself"... sigh... T.T can't wait tomorrow to come... come faster!!

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Things I wanna do after exam

Watch all the anime and drama of my collection… hehe…
Is time to start writing my new story already…
Cut my hair… it’s getting longer & longer…
Need to finish up the novel “Kara no Kyoukai”…
Need to go enjoy and relax myself…
Need to spend my time with my “Dear”…
Need to study Japanese for the JLPT…
Need to play some badminton already…
Need to have some good night sleep…
I’m just so busy after the exam…

Monday, November 10, 2008

Injured…

I hurt my most important part of my body… you know where it is? It’s a long and very important part… hehe… well, if you guess it right… I hurt my left hand middle finger… XD

It happen like this… I try to kill the mosquito… I slap my hand hard… and that’s how I hurt myself… half of my finger is in blue black condition… after some rubbing it reliefs a bit… half of my finger doesn’t mean top & bottom… is like left & right… reminds me about “2 face”… hehe… seeing at the palm, left of my middle finger is ok, while right side is blue black… plan to post picture but since is a bit “violating” to post a picture of middle finger pointing out… so just forget it… :-P

So painful that I thought I might break it at first… then later I can still move it, bend it… so means ok to me I guess… now already almost clear with all the blue black… hope my middle finger recover soon… if not, I’ll lose out a middle finger to point at other people… haha…

Sunday, November 9, 2008

Saturday, November 8, 2008

The day after the memorable day...

Spent some personal time yesterday... as I expected... tears are falling once again... but I believe I'll be stronger... I will... I'm trying my best to do so... chose to be a vegetarian yesterday... a silly act? Maybe... but I just feel like I want to make myself feel a bit better... at least this is the only thing I'm able to do for him now... so those who curious why I didn't eat pizza yesterday... your question was answered... I wonder how my sister pass her day... I did sms her... reminding her about the day... she'll be fine...

Celebrated Mei Kuan's birthday last night... the cake is nice... I can't try the pizza, so no comment on it. Screwed up a major paper during the evening... sigh... just pray for no need to retake for this paper... tired... but finally half of my final has passed by... waiting next week for another half... the 2nd round... then will be freedom all the way... but still need prepare for JLPT... but that one is enjoying rather than suffering one... so no worries...

Despite all the down moods yesterday... very glad that my day was lighted up by my "Dear"... sms her... but she no reply... thinking bout her... feel that how good if she can comfort me at this time around... and there comes the phone ringing... touching... really... thanks a lot... MUACKS~

Friday, November 7, 2008

In remembrance to my rabbit with love

Today is a special day... a memorable day... In remembrance to my rabbit with love… I added a new blog page under “my story” column…

Finally… 1 year passed by… everything seems like just happened yesterday… can still remember clearly the feeling on this day… a year ago… can remember what I touched… what I heard… what I felt… what I did… today I’ll spend some of my time browsing back my blog post… his pictures… videos… getting back as much memory as possible between us… how I miss him… wonder will he be alright now? Wonder where he is now… wondering will my tears be falling again? I wonder…

I’m doing fine here, don’t worry… everyone in the family is doing fine too… we missed you… and we are praying for you everyday… so you must be strong and move forward… you’ll always be in our heart… forever… thank you for being part of our family… I’m glad that we shared our memories together… even though it has now come to an end… I’ll be stronger myself too…

If one day… we do meet again……

Thursday, November 6, 2008

Round 1 ending soon

Round 1 of the final is coming to an end, Friday will be the last paper then wait until next week will the round 2 start with another 3 papers and that's it... just hope time goes by faster and faster! So-called studying hard but actually not productive at all... maybe I'd pass by the age of learning... hehe... not old... is MATURE...

Anyway, last year around this time my final has already almost done actually. But this year is just the beginning... Tomorrow is a special day for me... will take my own time for it tomorrow... just hope I'll be fine... curious about what so special? Log in to my blog tomorrow for more information... hehe... sigh...

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

OMG

First paper of my final today... mathematics... more specific is statistic... having a nice feeling that I can score... but end up I screwed it up... T.T

Anyway, there's nothing much I can do... so just let it be... hope can score a B+ then is already enough... tomorrow is another horrible paper... electrical power... too few example... wonder what can he ask about it... sigh... Friday is Rao Rao some more... just hope the exam will past as soon as possible...

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

Bravo to Massa, Boo to Hamilton

2008 season of Formula 1 has finally come to an end. I must say I’m impressed by Massa for the very first time… he drove a great race, the best in his career so far. He is the one that deserved and should be crowned as champion, and not the chicken Britain who put no fight at all and even lose to Toro Rosso in track position… useless and hopeless, wonder why he managed to earn the championship… he just don’t deserve it at all… even a lapped BMW can un-lapped himself from the chicken… with such a lousy performance, and yet the whole family still dare to make such a fuse fuss in celebrating it… they just don’t know what the “shame” means… and as idiot as before… that idiot continue his idiotic act… walking around having his own time celebrating while everyone is paying respect to the national anthem of Brazil by standing straight… “No manners” is just not enough to describe his F**king attitude. Poor Massa… for handing out the title to creature like that…

To sum things up, yet another great season of F1, but this time ends up with such a sad ending. Work harder for next season Kimi… Massa too… kick those idiot’s asses and shut his ass off!

Monday, November 3, 2008

Tiring life…

It’s been awhile for me to write something here in my blog… exam coming… no time… but I wonder where my time gone… I didn’t really study anything… and the study week had already passed by… what have I done? Nothing at all… am I feeling pressure or tension? I don’t know. I think I’m just a puppet without a soul now… just being told to study and study only… sigh… already exhausted from all the work… write till my hand is aching now… giving up? I wonder…

My “dear” have been asking me to find her in campus… saying want me help her deliver food at first… then later only tell me that she make some “tong sui” and ask me go take from her… I rejected her… (Rain start to fall right after I made that decision, shall I say luckily I didn’t promise her?) I think she must hate me at that time… the other day she ask am I free and will I go in campus. I told her I’m not free, need to do group discussion with friends… she didn’t say anything further… but her friend keeps on asking me to go in campus… actually she cook the “tong sui” again (I think…) already… then hoping I can go and try it out maybe? Honestly, I’m not really in the mood for things like that at that moment… but feel kind of guilty after being asked so many times by her friend… so I went in campus to find her…

I don’t hope to meet her? No… I want to do so… but it’s just I don’t think that is a good time for me… but after seeing her… feel kind of glad for going to meet her although there’s some drizzle of rain when I’m on my way back home… feeling sorry… I think I’d made her sad… let her down… sigh… what the hell am I doing… losing out myself totally recently… too exhausted I suppose… from study? Maybe… but maybe is exhausted due to my life… a merely 22-years-old saying tired of living… funny as it may seems… sigh… sorry to my “dear”… sorry… don’t know what else can be say and do… can barely move my body, can barely work my mind, can barely catch a breath…